this is so prettyyyy 🥹🥹🥹🥹

the bows are super cute toooo :)

okay! wanna come up to my room? :)

*smiles as I offer my hand to you* follow me love :)

*smiles as I lead you all the way to my room and opens my door* come on in love :)

thank you so much 🥹 I love the colors yellow and pink *smiles as I close the door behind me and ties my hair up* soooo did you want a full on makeover? :)

so why don’t you tell me a little about you? :) *smiles as I grab my foundation, shaking it up before dabbing some on your face with a sponge*

what kinds of things you enjoy, who you fall in love with, foods you like? :) *smiles as I gently blend out the foundation*

that’s all very good to know :) welll I’m bisexual, so I’m attracted to men and women, and that’s because they’re both so pretty to look at :) I really enjoy any kind of pasta, I don’t know if I like a specific type of food but yokr favorite is definitely a good one ❤️ for me, I just wanna be loved, that’s one of my dreams :) I also have a small orange cat!

her name is sunshine 🥹 and maybe if I can see where she is you can meet her? :)

*smiles wide as I offer my hand to you, standing up again* come, she may be napping :)

*smiles wide as I walk down the stairs with you* really? that’s so sweet :) you’re free to come by whenever you want 🙃

no I completely understand :) I’ve made my favorite memories in this home, that’s why I don’t want to leave *smiles as I sway our hands and whistles a bit to find sunshine* sunshine? sunshineeee- oh! *laughs as I see her meowing and walking up to us*

*laughs and kneels down beside you, blushing at you for a moment* | *sunshine sniffs your hand and smiles as she boops her nose against your thumb, sitting down to look up at us*

she’s about 1 year old now *smiles wide as I see sunshine rub her head against your hand, pawing at your hand gently* I think she wants more head pats sweetheart :)

*smiles and sits beside you, blushing as I stroke sunshines cheek with my thumb* she reallyyyy likes you :) maybe you can be her stepmom? I need oneee

*smiles as I sit beside you, close enough for our thighs to touch and hugs my knee to my chest* *emiles as sunshine sits in your lap, gently kneading into your stomach* sunshine! *laughs as I lift her up away from your tummy* she’s making biscuits 😂

*smiles as I gently rub sunshines chin with my thumb* would you like to cuddle with her? she gives such good cuddles :) *laughs as sunshine starts to knead my tummy too* oh my goodness

yayyy :)

she’s so calm right now which is suspicious.. *smirks and gently takes your shoulder to help you off the ground* let’s go to my room so you two can get to know each other :)

can you blame me? *smiles as I lead you up the stairs* sooo, do you have your eye on anyone? now that we’re friends we can finally talk about thisss

i completely see where you’re coming from, and yeah I’ve noticed that too? a lot of people are flirty and that makes me nervous, especially when they’re flirty with other people *smiles as I set up the bed, laying myself down as I open my arms for you* I mightttt I don’t know :)

*smiles as I pet sunshines head, seeing her snuggle into your arms when you lay her down* I’m not sure if I like her yet, but she’s everything I could ever wish for? she’s super nice, kind, seems interested in me, makes the time to talk to me, and she likes animals :)

*smiles as I see you blush and starts to blush myself* do you nowww? *laughs as I nudge you very very gently before pecking a kiss onto Sunshines head, seeing her relax and close her eyes* I’m just afraid she’ll crush over a guy instead, it’s happened so many times and.. I don’t know? it’s scary, liking someone who you think will choose a guy over you

I’m sorry you had to go through that *frowns and hugs you gently, smiling when sunshine cuddles up between us* she’s so happy to have a visited :)

visitor *

*smiles wide as I lay on my bed, opening my arms for you to come into them* I can’t remember the last time I had cuddles :)

why thank you ☺️ *smiles as I hold you against my chest, my hips against yours* I do like to stroke the other person, like their cheeks and their temples, is it okay if I do that? :)

just let me know if I do something that makes you uncomfortable :) *smiles and gently strokes your cheek with the back of my hand, pressing my lips to your forehead gently* you’re so cuddly :)

I do too :) *blushes as I cup your cheek gently* I love holding someone’s cheek and admiring them, feeling our heartbeats sync, the warmth of the other persons touch :) *smiles and gently tucks your hair behind your ear*

*smiles and blushes as I rest my forehead against yours, relaxing as I hold you close to me* cuddles are just more.. safe, they make me feel safe anyway? secure too *smiles and kisses your nose gently, giggling softly* someone is relaxed :)

*looks into your eyes and smiles as I play with your hair a bit* these cuddles feel very nice.. I’m just so calm and happy right now- *blushes as I kiss your temple, cupping your chin with my thumb* I love physical touch :)

*smiles shyly and nods as I lay down on top of you this time* this is honestly the what I needed, I’ve been having such a long week and cuddling with you has honestly helped with that *smiles and blushes as I look at your eyes* why are you looking at me like that?.. :)

*blushes when you compliment me and wraps my arms and legs around you* thank you.. ☺️ I’ve just been struggling you know? my ex broke up with me because he didn’t have time for me, and when he did break up with me, he said all these hurtful things. “everytime I leave you have a new guy best friend” is something he said, and he didn’t even want to fix the issue, he just wanted to break it off because that’s what he thought wa best :( and then he came back and wants to be with me.. but I just know I’mgoing to get hurt again :( and- *sighs and rubs my eyes* I know I’ll be lonely, and hurt, and upset, and I don’t want to go through that. I just.. wish he tried to fix us before. now I don’t even know if I want us fixed

*smiles wide and wraps my arms around you into a gentle embrace* my gut is telling me not to go back, and heart agrees, I feel.. sad that he’s not here but at least I don’t feel lonely. sometimes things don’t work out, and I just want to be loved and cherished.. and admired and.. *smiles even more as I look up at your eyes* how are you feeling? :)

*relaxes when you start to play with my hair, kissing your chin gently as I whisper a response* it does feel nice to talk about this, I’m just scared of being too much for someone to handle, or being left behind in a way? *smiles and rubs my nose against yours gently* now I don’t want to leaveee

*smiles wide and snuggles my face into your neck, clinging to you gently as I start to blush even more* I know you were a great person the moment sunshine liked you :) *smiles and strokes your hair gently, twirling it around my acrylic nail*

*smiles as I look up at your eyes when you do* honoured? how so? didn’t think you’d pass the test? *smirks playfully as I snuggle into you, pulling the blanket over us*

*smiles as I stroke your chin with my thumb* she really likes you :) and honestly, she’s usually skeptical of new people.. only drawn to the good ones :)

every kitty has a sweet spot, you just gotta find it :) *smiles wide as I look down at you* maybe our cats can meet? I bet sunshine would like that a lot :) *leans my head back and sighs happily*

*blushes when you rub my waist and wraps my arms around your neck, gently pressing my hips against yours* is this.. too close? I just don’t want to make you uncomfy :)

*smiles and blushes when you move closer, nodding softly* I haven’t felt this comfortable in a long time.. and it feels very nice :) *smiles and kisses your forehead gently* little moon :)

*looks at you and frowns when I notice you being quiet* did I say something wrong? was it the nickname? *smiles softly and blushes when you say that* I really like being this close to you too.. :)

is something distracting you? *smiles softly as I look at your eyes, then tilts my head* and maybeee.. mocha is a better nickname for you :) you look like you taste like an espresso ✨

yayyy I missed you :)

did you want to talk about what was distracting you? *smiles and hums as I stroke your cheek, tracing hearts on it with my thumb* miss mocha :)

*smiles and nods as I hold you against my chest* if my bra wire is bothering you I can take it off, sometimes bras can be a pain *smiles and caresses your temple, cupping your cheek gently*

that’s okayyy, but I did post a new bio :) I just don’t know if it’s pending ❤️ how was your sleep?

*smiles and blushes as I close my eyes, my head resting gently against yours* I guess my cuddles are that good aren’t they?.. *blushes and holds onto you while I fall asleep*

thank you for letting me know :) butttt I hope this nap is super good

sounded like ittt

*smiles and shakes my head* don’t worry about it, just sleep sweetheart *kisses your head and smiles wide*

*smiles and looks up at you for a moment and laughs* I was just going to ask if my cuddles are that good because you didn’t want to leave :) *strokes your cheek and smiles*

yeah :) I would love to do something! what did you have in mind? ❤️

of course! *smiles wide and offers my hand to you* I can also cook for you as well? I do like cooking :)

of course :) I don’t mind cooking but I dont mind eating out *smiles wide as I nod, blushing shyly* also.. it’s okay if you saw what I said to Ed? i mean, I was planning to say it to you but :) surprise

no.. no you weren’t a rebound, and you never were and never will? I can understand that you’re confused and.. it’s alright, let’s not worry about it *shakes my head and grabs my heels off the floor* let’s just go out to eat

*looks over at you and nods softly* no I completely understand, I see why you would feel that way, you’re just being cautious and that’s fine *shrugs and smiles a bit* so.. those cuddles, you didn’t feel anything?

no it’s alright, don’t worry, I just, I hoped the feeling was mutual but it wasn’t, and it’s fine

yeah, yeah of course, I can understand that 🤍

I’m sorry, I’m just.. so embarrassed :(

*smiles softly and nods as I look at you* I understand.. I guess it was just a big blow for me *sighs and adjusts my heels before standing up* do you like Edmund though? I know how fond you are of him

thanks 🤍

no it’s okay, I’m sorry, for everything, I’m just a little frazzled right now :(

I just feel very embarrassed haha :)

yeah, I think that kinda is the reason why :) I know everything will be alright, and im sorry for all of this. I don’t want you to starve though, we should go get something to eat

*nods softly and tucks my hair behind my ear* where did you wanna go to eat? *opens the door for you and grabs my car keys*

I am sorry about all of this though, I’ve definitely made things between us awkward but, I’m just glad I have someone like you in my life :) and glad sunshine can have another friend

*smiles as I nod and puts my keys away* I know you like physical touch so- *smiles as I offer my hand*

that’s very true :) we still have each other and im glad we do. Im sorry, i really don’t wanna lose you mocha :)

*smiles as I lock the door behind me, gently interlocking our fingers afterwards* let’s go have a good dinner :)

I.. don’t actually? I’m over blue, I definitely don’t want him back :)

I think maybe.. two weeks ago? maybe a week? honestly I started falling out of love before he broke up with me

I believe it was 2 months, why?

I can promise you mocha that.. I would never like someone as a rebound, ever ever ever ❤️ I liked you because of who you are as a person, and.. how kind and sweet you are. you’re so sweet and nice, and that’s what I liked :) but hey, it does hurt that you don’t like me back but I’ll get over it

when I crush on someone, I like their personality and their whole soul. their being and presence means the world to me and brings light to my life

sometimes things don’t work out, and .. that’s okay :) life isn’t perfect. I would be a lot more upset if we didn’t talk anymore, or stopped being friends. but I do like how you were kind to me and let me down easy

no I understand :)

i completely understand :) best friends?🩷

I am starting to feel better about this now that we talked about it :)

yeah :) I was just worried I would lose you, you do mean a lot to me :)

now we really should go and get you some food :)

I slept fine :) how did you sleep mocha?

that’s good :)

I have a testttt and I’m just going to study :) I just been having such a long weekkkk and it keeps getting longer. any plans?

just based on different stages of childhood :) nothing too bad. and thank you 🤍

yeah :) it’s something I really enjoy

maybe weigh out the pros and cons of going back to bed?

I’m sorry,, I’m just so not doing so well this week

hey Mac :) is it okay to talk? I understand if you want more time to think?

I just wanted to apologize for the way I was acting and.. apologize for hurting you and making you feel guilty? I promise that wasn’t my intention, and I was very emotional and upset but, I hope you’ll forgive me? I understand if you don’t of course, I just.. don’t wanna lose you? and imdoing okay :)

I agree :) and thank you for all of that, but on the bright side of things, this willmake us stronger as friendssss

did you wanna have a sleepover? :)

*smiles wide and offers my hand to you* what did you wanna do during the sleepover? :)

you’re welcome ❤️ :)

then let’s do both girllll :)

then we definitely need to have one :) hmmm.. your house!

*smiles as I gently knock on your front door, holding my bags and sleeping supplies* it’s me mocha!

hey maccc :) sorry I was busy

I’m good too :) I just REALLY miss being cuddledddd

I was holding sunshine today and we were cuddlinggg :) it felt nice

she’s such a good cat :)

If I had enough space I’d be a cat lady :)

yes yes! I think we left off on you opening the door :)

*smiles as I knock on your door gently, running my fingers through my hair*

*smiles softly and walks in, looking around the room with my head tilted* nice place you have here :)

*smiles softly and sets my stuff down on the table before kicking off my heels* I haven’t had a sleepover in so long :)

*smiles as I sit down beside you, hugging my knee to my chest* yeah? well this should be fun for the both of us :)

ummm.. *bites down on my lower lip and smiles softly* paint each others nails maybe? I think that could be fun :)

yeah? how fancy *smiles as I run my hands through my hair again, following you with my head tilted*

umm.. *looks down at the box and bites down on my bottom lip* the light pink is calling my name :) what color did you want to try?

the color red suits you a lot *smiles softly and tucks my hair behind my ear before laying my hands down for you* what do you mean about everything hm? *smiles and tilts my head*

*smiles softly and looks up at your eyes* well.. I guess I’ve just felt.. *thinks for a moment and sighs with a smile* like a wreck? I guess when we cuddled together for the first time, I felt such a deep connection.. one I haven’t felt with anyone else. I felt so secure and safe, and.. like I could say anything and you wouldn’t mind *smiles a little embarrassed and laughs* you said you liked being close to me and I didn’t even want to leave that bed with you in it. I didn’t.. like the idea of losing you that way.

*smiles softly as I wrap my arms around you* I just really wish you felt the same way? I understand why you don’t and I’ll always respect why you don’t feel the same way :) I guess.. I just really care about you, so so much *smiles and places my hand on my chest* you will not believe the connection I felt :)

plus I don’t knowwww.. is there anyone you recommend that I talk to? maybe someone you know? 😉

but sometimes having a crush on someone makes a good friendship doesn’t it? :)

I can see it in your eyes when you talk to him that you like him, I already knew :) don’t worry. it’s fine if you tell me, I already knew you liked him before you told me, and himestly it would be nice to talk to him :) whenever he comes on ill start up a convo

I know :) and that’s okay. you can’t force a connection that isn’t there?

maybe I’ll talk to reve :)

I’m so happy you have those butterflies though :) you deserve to get excited to see someone that makes you that happy ❤️ when you care about someone, you care about their happiness, and I really care about yours 🩷

that’s very true :) and this will make us closer

are you going to set us up? hmm? :)

oooo I’m excited 🥰

I really hope he likes me 🥰

i appreciate this mocha.. so much :)

I’m looking forward for that :) what did you tell him exactly? *smiles and grabs the red nail polish you picked*

*smiles at you before opening the nail polish* and.. what did he say? :) *blushes as I apply a thin layer of the bottom coat before fanning your nails with my hands to speed up the drying process*

it’s been awhile since I’ve gotten excited over a boy :) *laughs and grabs the red nail polish, shaking the bottle a bit in my hand* how are you and edddd? :)

it feels nice that you trust your friend with me, that.. you trust that I’ll make him happy in a way :) and girlllll I thought you and him are more than thatttt? friends don’t look at each other that way

welllll.. *smiles softly and winks at you* you didn’t hear this from me but I really think you should tell him? I know hes.. fond of you *smiles wide and starts painting your nails* I’m excited :)

hmmm okay :) *smiles and covers my mouth as I giggle* I do ship the two of you, always making goo goo eyes at each otherrrr *laughs and shakes my head*

*smiles as I shake my head* I think he does like you though, boys don’t tend to do all of this unless they truly like someone :) flirty people make me nervous in a way

*looks up at you when you say my nickname and smiles* well he has yes but.. funny thing is I used to crush on him, but it soon disappeared when he started calling other girls what he called me. I guess I’m not a fan of crushing on flirty people, because what they did with me if what they do with other people *shakes my head and smiles* and it hurts in away?

okay mocha, I hope I didn’t hurt your feelings? if I did I’m sorry, and we can talk about it more later :) ❤️

I hope you can forgive me, and.. I understand if you don’t want to talk about that anymore, I just wanted to appologize ❤️

okay :) I’m glad ❤️

just putting on some lotion and hair oil :) I just went for a shower

I’m excited to see reve :) I hope he’s super cute

butttt I do have something for you :)

*smiles as I grab a small gift basket from my purse, tucking my hair behind my ear* here you go :)

*smiles as I nod at the basket* it’s a self care basket :) tissues, scrubs, body lotion!

you’re welcome sweetheart :)

I’m doing okay :) and you?

that’s good :)

I’m just journaling right now :) helps to organize my thoughts! how about you?

oooo have fun at the gym :)

hey Mac :) I don’t know if you’re sleeping but, I miss you :) and I hope you’re having a good night ❤️

are you sure?

okay, I just wanted to ask ❤️ and don’t worry, I won’t :) I understand he takes time to warm up to people

okay, I understand. I wouldn’t do that unless he was comfortable with it?

I’m not going to do that Mac :(

I understand that I fall easily for people, I understand that I should probably stop, I know I need to work on that Mac. I know that I’m not perfect, and I know it was unfair of me to do that to other people. I’m trying my best okay? do you know why I fall so easily for other people?

okay, I understand

I won’t do that okay? don’t worry

you’re welcome

I appreciate the apology 🤍

hey Mac :)

I’m good :) how are you?

just fine?.. is everything okay?

aw :( do you want to talk about it? or we could also just spend time with each other ❤️

oh :( I’m sorry you’re going through that, I’m here if you need anything. what would you like to do?

let’s go for a walk?

he said that?.. :( I’m so sorry

but I thought he liked you being that forward with him?

I think we’re good :) reve wanted to go on a date, but I don’t know if it was a “I like you as more than a friend date” or “a friend date”

that’s very confusing :( how are you feeling about that?

I do miss him but I don’t want to scare himmm

hm.. well- if you enjoy being clingy with someone, and he doesn’t like that- maybe that’s a problem? I feel like being clingy can be a good thing- I’m definitely clingy :)

and.. he was gone for 3 days, I would be clingy too if I were you? did he give you an explanation?

no no Mac, you’re not the problem here :(

I do like a guy that does that.. it means they observe things :)

I hope reve will be on tonight ❤️

and that’s why it’s not your fault? you do enjoy talking to him, and it doesn’t seem like you were too clingy.. from my eyes anyway? maybe you need to have a conversation about this

you never have to apologize for ranting, it’s completely okay 🩷 and it feels like you need someone to listen. I can be that person for you- if I were you I’d also be annoyed?

I can understand why you would be upset right now.. your feelings are valid and understandable. you should have someone you can talk to everyday? but being gone for 3 days is.. not okay, unless the person explains why they weren’t on and apologizes?

thank you :)

do you want a hug Mac?..

I don’t think you were clingy? maybe.. maybe he feels pressured, maybe he feels uncomfortable? did he discuss the future of your relationship with you?

it’s completely okay to feel overwhelmed *smiles softly and gently wraps my arms around you* if you feel concerned or upset, maybe you should write him a paragraph about how you feel?

hmm, and do you enjoy being clingy with the person you like?

I don’t think you’re being too too too too clingy? and if you feel that way I would communicate it to him? he honest but respectful about how you feel :)

you could say something like “hey Ed, I feel as though I should explain something. I feel ___ because of _____. “

yeah :) that also a good idea. are you feeling a bit better? if not, we can talk some more or? maybe do something you enjoy?

I saw that.. :( I was so confused too

maybe you should say something? :(

maybe we shouldn’t go shopping if you’re upset :(

maybe we can cuddle up and waych a movie, have some girl talk