i’ve been in my emo phase for the past five years (rip middle school me) and it’s so weird once you start falling out of it. like i still dress emo on some days and maybe everyone once in a while i’ll listen to “emo” music but i’m just not that depressed/suicidal kid that i was for a good part of my life. i don’t know how it happened but a few months ago (september/october) i told myself i wasn’t gonna be like that anymore justand because it always brought down my mood i thought to be emo you had to hate everything and just be a genuinely unlikeable person. i’m still depressed, i still have bad days but i’m not trying to hate the world anymore. i think that’s a major problem for “emos” because if you really are depressed , being alone and thinking about how much you hate yourself is only gonna make it worse.

it’s also really funny because now everyone calls me basic and they’re really surprised when i laugh and actually try to engage in conversations. i’ve grown closer to my friends/family in the past few months then i ever did over those five years and i’m really glad for that. i was trying to go somewhere with this but i forgot what i was wanting to say smh