now that i have short hair, i look like a boy and girl and i still don't know if i should still be genderfluid like i wanted to bc people my age and class don't understand trans, non-binary, demiboy/girl, ect. and i don't think my parents understand it either so i don't know how to come out (if i even decide to) and so i don't know if they'll even use the right pronouns when i'm either a boy or girl or neither. i don't even know the pronouns i prefer but either way, i'm fine with she/he/them bc i know how hard it is to get used to a new pronoun someone prefers. i honestly have no idea what my pronouns are at this point.

i'm thinking that i'm either bi or pan. will people judge me for who i like? will my life be unfair and fūcked up just because of the gender i like? i still don't know what i'm doing with my life and i honestly have no idea what i'm getting out of staying alive. i still don't know if all of this is real. a hallucination.

i didn't expect it to be this long. and it's not even over. comment if you read it because i might do this again. it's surprisingly calming.

we are all just souls roaming around a piece of rock that is floating around a galaxy filled with balls of glowing gas not giving a fúck about other things outside the universe. what is déath? what is after it? is it just staring at a black atmosphere or is it in god's world? what is god's world? and what happens to our souls? what even are our souls? is it possible to eventually not have a soul? is there a way to not have emotions? emotions make everything worse

hey I read it

wow this is some deep exsistential stuff. don't come out until you are 100% comfortable with yourself and it's safe !!!

thats deep 👏

as for the sexuality thing you shouldn't care about anyone but yourself, you shouldn't label your identity due to people's possible reactions, when you're dating or just like someone then just let it roll, there's no need for a permanent label, and for gender you can use an umbrella term like non binary to not specifically classify your gender, also remember that it's okay to change it, and for pronouns you can ask that people say they or your name if possible, I hope that helps

I read it all