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adam’s gone

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... adam’s gone


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I couldn’t either he refused
it’s not our faults he made the decision
he said he might come back
I still have faith
he is not
I WONT BELIEVE IT
mine isn’t
he didn’t delete his acc he is on private cuz I still have him
😭nvm I thought I saw him
I’m lost without him
he was like my brother
me too
me either I can only type
that would be you my friend
you help me through all the pain
😊
ilyt
have u seen or heard from Ada????? 😭😞, im worried, I can’t find his account:(
Adam*
I miss him too
I’ll text him and see if he answers
he’s not replying
rlly?
:(
why would he do that
he’s not DEAD!! he replied
block
you
WAIT WHAT DID HE SAY
nope, Adam said he didn’t block u Chloe
he left bc of drama
SHE SAID THEIR NOT GOING THROUGH
but what did he say
well yea we know but can you tell him I miss him a lot
my name is Emily
rlly?
he didn’t reply?
lol yes I know Chloe but she’ll read them anyway right?
who knows
Chloe, did u try to FaceTime Adam?
kk
bc he told me that a random number tried to FaceTime him and he thought maybe it was u
ok, he’s on whi, that’s good
wait, he said he saved ur number ages ago
but now I can’t talk to him again
are you still in contact with him?
scared for him, he texted me but I’m still scared
he told me he took 9 antidepressants...
he was ready to die and it was terrifying
I'M BACK
but you don't care so bye
i'm changing the password of this acc
BYE
it doesn't matter, i'll kill myself in March and YEA COOL
DONEE IDC
IM USELESS
I’m sorry
oh, good
why’d he leave?
oh, okay
as long as he’s not dead, I’m fine with it
I can still text him so if you want me to say something to him just tell me
will do
he’s asleep now, thank goodness. he’s doesn’t get enough sleep
WHAT???
WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN
WHY DID THIS HAPPEN
WHAT WHAT WHAT
WHAT
don’t trick me I swear if this is a joke......
are u certain??!?!?
How can u be sure?!????!!!?!!!!!!
it’s fine I’m just relieved 😅 I hope he comes back soon
oh that sucks I can try on my WHI to see if that’s happening to me as well if u want
I just tried and it’s doing the same thing to me 🙁
read. the. last. remix!
yeah or with WHI 💖
nvm it’s his end I just tried messaging Vick on there and it worked
it’s ok like a lot of ppl did that😂
wait check and see if he is still following you he isn’t following me anymore and that could be why it ain’t working
😂
ok
wait rly?? weird
ok good :)
can u let me know if u get through to him?
yes I know he left because of that
I might leave because of that too tho
it’s ok
it is really
thanks :) 💖
I don't even know what to say
thx for liking my new account ❤️
sure background or text? ❤️
hey....... i'm so stupid, ik, you hate me. idc anymore. nothing really matters... but yea. this is gonna be a huge paragraph. ok, so here's the thing, i, yesterday, legit, sat on my bed, pretending to use my iPad, i was really just thinking to myself on 'how i'll end my life', turns out to be that i'll any how survive but can't forget to mention the part where my mom will beat me to dead cuz i tried to kill myself😂 i mean, you're lucky cuz you don't have Indian parents... ugh. anyways, i also thought to myself, "WOW! Hamnah, will you really kill yourself? will you really end it all? LIKE do you not wanna know who your future husband is?😂 do you really wanna end it all cuz some boy couldn't treat you right? do you not wanna know what you'll be when you grow up? what about all those times where i used to dream of being a ******... am i really gonna end it all?" then i came online in pc, i mean i was then clearly not in a good mood, i came to my acc and checked the msges and yea i guess i was still hoping to read "James" text.... then i kinda cried, i then decided that..... yes, i'm killing myself. i mean, at that point i couldn't even think straight, i replied to Mike in a harsh manner, which i usually do... kinda. not really, i guess. but i have a completely different reason for that. which i promise is a valid reason.... at least i think it is a valid reason, LoL, heh. anyways... then when i went offline (cuz it was bed time.), i tried to go to sleep, it was.... horrible.... very.... horrible. i couldn't stop thinking of that suicide thing. i then somehow felt asleep, but in the middle of the night i woke up, crying, cuz i had this dream where my hand was bleeding.... and... yea... ugh. and also, by crying, i don't mean, screaming and crying like a maniac, i mean, tears in my eyes, that's it. no screaming or anything like that, and i guess, i came to the conclusion that...... i'm not killing myself, i can't really promise, but yea. ugh. i'm sorry i was being a bîtch to all of you... i miss Adam.... so much.... we didn't even get to say goodbye.... her last words she ever said to me was 'please', i am so fxcking stupid.....
He's gone.
i didn't mention what i wanted to be cuz i didn't say it to anyone yet....
i don't feel comfortable, i feel like ppl will just laugh at my face
well bye
cuz i have to go and write another huge paragraph to Mike, cuz i have to go apologize to him for being a big fat meanie😂
ok just remix me the background when you are done ❤️
no I like all the backgrounds you use so anything like that!
that's what the horrible para was about, OMG ALSO GO TO MIKES ACC AND READ THAT PARA MY FXCKING FINGER IS LEGIT TIRED AHHHH
he deserved it, cuz I have known him for a VERY long time.
anyways
I wish I looked that beautiful but nope, sadly it ain’t me
haha😂😂😂😂
nah I’m quite ugly
I saw! I’m very happy he’s back
oh I just realized!
but that’s 1998 more than i deserve
nNNjAajamNajakamMama it's becuz you weren't my friend from the START of my PC journey
Mike was the first EVER person like EVER
to be my friend
SCHOOL WAS FUN
BTW
xD
my math is bad, I have an A- in that class
IM SO HYPED UP RN CUZ PPL ARE SAYING THAT ONE GUY FRIEND MIGHT HAVE A CRUSH ON ME CUZ HE TEASES ME A LOT AND MY FRIENDS SHIP US BOTH😂
THAT ONE OF MY GUY FRIEND*
AHHHHHH! my life is back to normal, but all I need is Adam and mike to accept my apology!
I'm not sure out Adam tho..... will he ever come back?
ehh it’s my second lowest grade (dang it Science)
yay!!!! when?????
IM GONNA EXPOSE MY NAME TO THE WHOLE WORLD NOW
not really. I was in the dumb class through all of grade school but when I got to middle school everything kinda just clicked and I got average
OKIE
XD I wish
i gtg now, bye!
haha😂
give me a good positive username real quick!
HAHA IM GONNA KEEP THAT
or wait
um with people if you don’t mind ❤️
please would you remix a bigger version of that ❤️
how’s this?
it’s fine I love them!!!
dude...... I'm paranormal, your the third person I'm saying this to, lately, I've been feeling the presence of someone, it's like.... it's protecting but then sometimes scaring the shît out of me, last week.... I woke up in the middle of the night, crying, then I felt like someone was holding me tight, and then I felt asleep, peacefully.... but I'm scared, few minutes before I was panicking cuz I felt like someone was staring at me
I even wake up in the middle of the night, and you only wake up in the middle of the night becuz someone's staring at you.....
I've been not been able to sleep properly lately......
it's gonna kill me..... I'm scared, I just hope it's a side effect of depression
and idk I just.............
I don't wanna go to sleep at night, I'm scared.......
I'm really scared...........
yes I’ll do it ❤️
I have a bunk bed, I sleep on the top
I.... I... don't wanna sleep anymore
I wanna sleep with my sister
but she won't let me
sorry I’ve just got Instagram and my work has taken so much of my time up xx
how are you xx
Taylor...