thxs for the spam

I've been thinking this exact thing recently - it is scary

Right it makes me question a lot of things

I understands this cause I'm going through some tough times right now though too people think I'm this happy go lucky person. They are wrong they don't know my past so they don't know how much it hurts when they ask me about my Parents and my "old" life I just smile and pretend that they said nothing that hurts. I hide from the people who know me I sit in the back of the class pretending that my life is fine, pretending that nothing has happened in my life, acting like the world is just fine when in reality I feel the pain of loss, Betrayal, and lies She crafted. My own family won't speak of it and yet I sit still here in the dark. Pain eating away at my heart. I tried to love but all it ever did was cause my life to come crashing apart.