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spideyx


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ahhh my own chat page
kirby đŸ„ș
so you like cat noir, spiderman and you’re a big fan of chase atlantic :)
do you get blushyyyy and sweaty and redddd around pretty girls
it’s even better when it’s with the person you love *relaxes a bit and closes my eyes*
so cute đŸ„°
what else should i know about you
good 😌
aw haha, i can’t wait to see that so i can tease you
yes.. someone you feel safe with, comfortable with even *grins and relaxes more*
yes, Kirby is
hmm.. interesting *nods and grins* my sister is also a big pasta lover
i’m really glad you’re smiling
awwwww
*grins and opens my eyes to look up at you and shakes my head* no, im just relaxing.. this feels nice
me too
yes, my merebear:)
you’ll find that someone
you’re blushingggg *smiles at you then looks over at your arm* am i laying on it? i can move
i want a kirby plushie
yea she’s one of my sisters and secretly my favorite :)
i’d love to :) how old is she?
okay, i’ll try to stay awake until you come back :) maybe i’ll try to do something while you’re gone
i don’t want you to be uncomfortable *adjusts myself a bit and lays my head down, giggling a bit* a little red is an understatement, you look like a tomato
really,
?*
she’s really nice :)
*smiles and waits*
i fell asleep, im sorry :( i feel badddd
i’m point out what i see *shrugs and looks at you* what do i smell like?
*watches you two quietly and smiles* she’s so cute
what’s wrong :(
i made my bio to pass time and i thought i’d rest my eyes for a second until you came back, that plan didn’t work out haha
mm i must smell really good? i love cinnamon *smiles* my mom used to make us cinnamon pancakes
*smiles and laughs softly, shaking her hand* it’s nice to meet you hannah and that’s great to know, i love cool people
i’m sorry love :( maybe she needs some time? maybe she could take a break and come back
welllll you get to talk to me now and it’s almost the weekend :)
haha there was an ongoing debate in my house for a long time about waffles and pancakes, my brother started it *smiles as i think about it* he says waffles are better than pancakes and sometimes he sounds very.. passionate about it
*giggles and smiles* oh i know that gameeee. hmm my daughter is around her age, i think they’d be good friends if she ever wants someone to play with
oh :( i thought you just wanted a break? are you planning on moving on?
yea..
we’ve only been talking more for a couple of days now and i already enjoy your company and always look forward to our conversations :)
i’m not in this debate, i like both of them but sometimes i’ll say pancakes are better to mess with him *grins and plays with my hair a bit*
*holds her hand and walks with you* it sounds like it, i know it can be a little lonely sometimes when you don’t have siblings or don’t have siblings close to your age
oh :(
it sxxks but you know what’s good for you and it’s going to hurt either way :( being in the relationship hurt and breaking things off hurts too.. but you’ve done all you could do on your end
that makes me feel good, i haven’t felt this good in a while
most of the time, it depends on my mood *shrugs and grins* me too, i have five siblings so it happened often
aaron is a great big brother for playing with you *grins and looks at you, nodding* we can do that
yea.. i know :(
it’s okay, it takes my mind off of my own problems.. i’d rather be here for you and help you
yea :) a little better than i have been
mere is the nicest person i know *grins and shrugs* sometimes it is and its mostly girls, i have one twin brother and one younger brother
that’s cute, i love the relationship you have *smiles*
my problems don’t matter
aw đŸ„°
*nods* sometimes they are, especially my younger brother
*takes the doll and looks down at it, shaking my head* i have no ideas
they’re not worth talking about and im moving on and trying to. be better *nods and looks at you*
are you blushingggg
it issss and having a twin is even more fun *grins and takes one of your hands, playing with your fingers as i look at you* i’m stealing your warmth
that’s a great story, i love cinderella *smiles and picks up my doll*
*nods and goes into your arms*
you’re very blushy
good cause i loveeeee to cuddle *smiles then looks at you and frowns a bit* how’d you know i had one?
*grins as i make my doll talk with hers*
*hugs you and relaxes a bit in your arms as i nod* right
i don’t think sooooo
*tilts my head a bit and keeps my eyes on you as i hold your hand* mhmm.. in my remixes?
*smiles and holds her in my lap as i continue to play with her*
*nods and looks at you for a moment before looking down at my hands, folding them into my lap* i don’t know how i feel.. i felt sad for a long time, stressed, tired
 numb
mhmmmm cause you’re not eating spicy noodles all of the time
mhmmm *squints my eyes at you for a moment then shrugs* it’s okay, it was.. okay i guess
*shakes my head and smiles* no no, it’s okay.. with me, but if it’s someone else, it’s good to ask first
*nods* i’ll try to? it’s hard saying how i feel sometimes.. sometimes in the past saying how i felt wouldn’t matter
i don’t knowwww hehe
aaron! *widens my eyes and giggles then shrugs* it’s not the same when it’s with a stranger.. it’s not as.. enjoyable i guess?
oh.. wow.. things escalated
bologna sounds good, you have good taste *smiles at her and puts my doll down*
*looks up at you and blushes as i nod* thank you spidey boy
yea yea *laughs and nods* it’s more enjoyable with the right person
i’m sorry love, maybe you two need time away from each other..
*stands up and smiles, walking to the door and waits for you*
*hugs you and grins* thanks spidey boy, i’ll come to you for alot of cuddles, until you end up with a new girl or guy and i can’t cuddle you anymore *pouts softly then giggles and hides my face* ahh nooooo
yes you can and i still owe you head scratches *smiles and sits up*
has it gotten that bad
she did, i love her already *smiles and walks with you* i love the relationship you have with her
i do *smiles and looks up at you for a moment and shakes my head* no it’s nottttt, stop laughing 😂
*thinks for a moment and shakes my head as i start to massage your scalp* not that i can think of
oh aaron, im sorry things turned out this way
that’s good, she will need someone close to her to be there for her as she grows up *walks with you and smiles* you’re a great brother
why are you laughing so hard, it’s not that funny *starts to laugh as well*
like cinnamon sugar *grins as i continue to massage your scalp, looking up at the ceiling*
noooo, you need to do something to cheer you up
oh i’m sorry *nods a bit and looks at you* what about your mom?
noooo *laughs and covers my cheeks with my hands, turning away from you* don’t look anymore
are you comfortable? a little more relaxed? *looks down at you and smiles*
cheddar popcorn sounds good :)
oh *looks at you and frowns* im sorry.. how’ve you been since she passed? how has hannah been?
*slowly looks up at you and grins* cause.. you made me blushhhh
*sees you’re starting to fall asleep and smiles as i continue a little slower now*
yes
*frowns and shakes my head* no, it’s okay *listens to you as you speak and nods, frowning* it must be hard losing a parent, especially at a young age.. is that why your dad isn’t around anymore?
*looks up into your eyes and grins, blushing more* oh stop thattttt
*slowly stops once you’re asleep and smiles to myself, looking down at you and seeing how comfortable you are*
thanks *grins and takes a few from the bag before handing it back to you and eats one*
*nods and frowns* im glad she has you, someone who can keep an eye on her and be there for her at a time like this
you know exactly what you’re doing, you have that smirk on your face *keeps my eyes locked on yours*
*smiles and relaxes as i close my eyes*
i love it too, it’s my favorite kind of popcorn *grins and eats more *
i hope to see her more *smiles and shakes my head* no thanks, i don’t like anything strawberry
*starts to feel a little nervous and blushes deeply, trying to keep eye contact*
oh..
*has my eyes closed, sleeping lightly*
good *smiles and leans back against the counter, eating my last piece*
people *giggles and follows you upstairs*
okay spidey boy :)
n-no.. you don’t have that power over me.. *moves my hands to cover my face*
so are you going to slobber all over me next 😂
*sleeps and moves a little bit when i feel you moving*
*laughs and stands behind you* you’re an exception
*pulls my hands back and hides them behind my back* noo..
lmaoo
*sleeps*
okay.. *grins and thinks* let’s check off another thing on your bucket list
*looks at you and giggles as i slowly start to back away from you* noooo
that’s what she saiddddd
*feels you moving and frowns a little*
*looks over at the window then turns to you* we could have a picnic inside?
mm no *takes another step back*
*keeps my eyes closed and yawns, moving one of my hands to play with your hair a bit* are you leaving meeee
*looks over at it again then nods slowly* yea.. yea let’s go
*stops and frowns at you* noooo.. don’t leave me
*opens my eyes slowly and looks at you* i’d look for you
*smiles and holds your hand, going with you*
so i do make you nervous and blushy? *smirks and looks down at my hands for a moment before walking over to you* i guess you do make me a little nervous.. or maybe more than a little
yes and if i couldn’t find you, i’d be sad *rubs my eye a little and grins, looking down at you* how’d you sleep?
*looks up at the sky and smiles as i twirl around*
aw hehe does someone have a crush on me *giggles and looks down at my hands when you touch them and nods* i don’t know what magic super power you have, but i can’t stop smiling when im talking to you and.. i haven’t felt this way in a while
mm i didn’t get into a deep sleep, but it was okay.. i was able to relax *grins and blushes* your heart does alot of loopy loops
*looks at you and smiles as i take your hand* you may
i don’t know, i’d tease you a little bit or maybe i’d just stand here and smile like an idiot *giggles and shrugs* you do, you’ve only really known me for two days and you’ve made me smile and feel better more than anyone else has who has known me for a while *looks up at you* i’ve felt so broken.. so numb.. so confused and lonely.. but you.. you’ve helped me alot already
haha im sorry, i hope i wasn’t holding onto you too tight *grins and places my hands over my heart for a second to feel how fast it’s beating*
*wraps my arms around your neck and smiles*
mm maybe i am, maybe im not.. you’ll never know *giggles and smiles as i nod* yea.. and we’re similar in many ways, that’s why we get along so well
i don’t knowwww *shrugs and grins* gooddd, now im never letting you goooo
*grins as i start to sing along with you* i will never fall in love unless it’s you i fall into..
you’re capable of being loved, you have to find the right person *smiles when you kiss my palm and looks at you* i like being around you too, it cheered me up to know i was able to help you when you were feeling down, now i don’t ever want to be apart
i guess i doooo *laughs and starts playing with my hair* you’re fun to be around and you’re kind andddd you’re a cutie, that’s a bonus
*grins as i look up at you, singing softly* i found youuuuu
i wish i met you sooner too *looks up at you and smirks* i can super glue us together, then we’ll never be apart 😌
you can have it *giggles softly and blushes, looking down at my fingers* mm you’re more of a cutie than i am
thanks, it’s a hidden talent of mine *smiles at you*
you don’t want to be stuck to me *laughs and smiles as i nod* me too
i think i’d look good with your hair *giggles then looks up at you a little confused* approval? from my sister?
yea? is that your love language? words of affirmation? *tilts my head a bit as i look at you*
it’d be fun.. until one of us would need to use the bathroom or shower.. or something *laughs* i am the coolest 😎
meredith likes people *giggles* why do you want her to like you? or need her approval?
i like physical touch if you couldn’t tell, it makes me feel tingly and warm inside *smiles and nods* hm good to know, im not very good with expressing my feelings in.. words. i can only do it so much and i feel like it’s not enough or i repeat the same thing over and over
woah 😳 *giggles* you’re cool too and nice and your hair is soft and you look really cute with your glasses on and.. *grins and blushes when i realize what ive been saying*
mm wellll if that’s the goal, you have alot more members to meet *smiles*
*grins and thinks* so if i were to say.. you give the best cuddles, your heart would do another loopy loop?
i’m going to take a shower and grab a snack, i’ll be back in about twenty minutes spidey boy ❀
*smiles wide and blushes more as i nod and listen to you* hehe i do have to point out my eyes are green, not brown.. but im smiling like an idiot right now, that just made me so happy
*smiles wide* i think they would like you
*smiles wide and nods* you do, that’s why i love them so much
don’t miss me too much while i’m gone ;)
it’s okay *smiles and nods* words stick with you for a long time, i like getting complimenrts.. even if they’re the smallest
what’s not to like? *looks at you and smiles*
i don’t know, maybe because you like my company *grins then looks up at the sky* we should go inside before we get sick
whatttt nooooo
maybe we’re the same person *gasps and looks at you*
it’s okay to feel a little insecure sometimes
*smiles and follows you to the house and looks down at my clothes* we areeee and now it’s cold *pouts*
noooo im.. okay maybe a little
mm no, me the same as you, don’t be like me *shakes my head*
i hte cheaters
*looks up at you and nods* please
i tried to come back as quick as i could :)
mm.. *thinks and looks at you, shrugging* i don’t know
so much
*walks over to the couch and sits down, waiting for you*
đŸ„°
hmm i don’t know what i like anymore, all i do is work and take care of the kids and.. other stuff *thinks for a moment*
which one
im cold and wetttt *pouts and pulls my knees up to my chest, keeping the blanket around me to try to warm up*
good, i like when i make you happy :)
i can try, but im not very good and im not a professional *grins and shrugs*
knife? are you going to stab them? 😳
*smiles and shivers as i try to relax in your arms, staying as close as possible* transfer it nowwww
okay ❀
it’d look h-.. nice on you 😌
*smiles and grabs my guitar* a friend of mine plays and i’ve gotten lessons from her
woah.. why do i find that kind of. 😳
we were in the rainnnn and it’s cold and wet *snuggles up close to you*
if you do you have to show meeee
haha good luck *grins and sits down with it* yea? interesting
mm nothing 😳
i’ll dry and become warm again eventually *looks up at you and nods*
rizz me up? *raises an eyebrow and looks up at you* mhm i want to see this
*starts to strum the strings of the guitar and thinks* hmm
aaronnnnn
*watches you* where are you going
*sits back and crosses my arms* i’ll enjoy it either way
im thinking of what to play.. or what i can play *looks down at the guitar and thinks*
okay *stays wrapped in the blanket and lays down*
*looks up at you when you walk in and widens my eyes* wow..
hot
hmm *slowly nods* i could try? i might mess up.. alot
oh hehe đŸ„°
*stays curled up underneath the blanket and looks up at you when you come back*
*blushes as i watch you, tilting my head a bit* mm no im not, im better than the ladybug you know
okay.. *grabs my phone and searches for one*
i find that attractive too
oh *frowns a little and sits up* do you want to talk about what’s bothering you all if a sudden?
im starting to get a little sleepy, i wanted to let you know incase i fall asleep soon :)
oh? maybe i can *blushes and glances down at your staff before looking up at your eyes*
*finds it and looks over it for a moment and places my phone down, adjusting the guitar*
unless it’s extreme.. that’s not attractive
you’re not a mood wrecker.. you just ended an unhappy relationship with someone, it’s normal to feel low after that.. i don’t expect you to be happy *frowns a little and keeps myself wrapped tightly in the blanket* if you’re meant to be.. maybe you’ll come back together one day?
i hope you’re sleeping well spidey boy ❀
*giggles softly and keeps my eyes on you* so.. what other talents do you have? or what else do you do besides save lives? hmm
*slowly starts to strum the cords, concentrating on making sure i play every note correctly*
yea :(
so you don’t want to get back together? you wish things ended more.. positively
 i understand *frowns and nods* i’m sorry spidey boy.. you’ll find the right person for you, i know you will *looks up at you* sometimes things happen for a reason, sometimes it means something better is going to happen
good morning spidey ❀
oh really? *nods and grins* you think i have what it takes to be a model?
*smiles as i continue to play, trying to stay concentrated*
yea
*nods and frowns, sitting up a little as i wrap the blanket around me again* im sorry love
how’d you slee
*giggles and smirks softly as i look at you* oh yea? how many times have you taken a look at me?
okay, have a great day at work :) i’ll try not to miss you too much hehe
*smiles at you and blushes as i continue to play the song*
*grins and looks at you as i nod* i did, i call everyone that
it was okay, i can’t expect too much with a baby
yea? do you loveeeee to look at me? am i that attractive to you? *smirks and watches you*
i’ve missed you too, i’m at home now so i should be free when you get on :)
oh yea, im supposed to teach you *laughs and stops for a moment to look at you* it would be easier for me to teach if it were dance, i’ve done that for years
*nods* do you drink it often?
it’s okay
maybe i do, maybe i don’t.. i’ll never tell *giggles and watches you*
oh okay :(
dancing isn’t that easy, but it’s easier for me to teach since im experience *grins and puts the guitar down*
my cousin wants me to sing at her wedding :)
aw, she’s so cute *smiles*
you can try, everyone seems to be able to read it *pulls my knees up to my chest and looks at you*
i don’t and i don’t expect you to be good *stands up and takes your hand* we can do something simple
if i do it
hmph :(
you do?
aw *laughs and lays down on the couch* i’ve only met her once and i love herrrr
*shrugs and grins* i think you are, maybe even better
hmm.. what kind of dance do you want me to teach you?
really?
i enjoy your company and always look forward to talking to you, you’ve got me attached and now you can never leave meeee
yes
okay
good, i hope to see her more *looks at you and shakes my head* no.. well.. maybe
yea? in what ways? *looks at you*
hmm i already know you’re a great slow dancer *smiles at you and thinks* my favorite type is contemporary, but that might not be a good one to start with 😂
i don’t know, but i’ll feel a little more confident with you by my side
good.. but it’s also.. a little scary, being attached
really? i love cookies đŸ„°
mm special cuddles from a certain spidey boy *smilesi
yea? i can see it *smiles and nods* aw, have you found your marionette?
noooo *laughs and looks at you* need them for what hmm?
ahh đŸ„° i think i’ll bring my guitar too? if i can play the song
in a way that scares me..
i doooo *smiles and lays in your arms as i snuggle up close to you*
she sounds wonderful, maybe she just needs time? *looks up at you and grins*
mhmmm *laughs and looks at you* i can teach you how to throw it back 😏
my biggest fan :)
it’s not your fault
yes :(
oh im very special then hehe *smiles and blushes as i bury my face in your chest*
aw you seem to really like her *grins* but make sure you’re also taking some time? you did just end things with someone else
oh i was kidding *laughs and shakes my head* but i can 😏
but.. the wedding is tomorrow i think 😂
why
okay.. i believe you.. but im still a little hesitant and scared, cause even in the past ive been made promises like that and they’ve been broken.. and i take promises seriously..
mm.. *keeps my face in your chest and doesn’t say anything*
*nods* yea.. i get that
are we really doing this *laughs and looks over at the mirror* sometimes i like to listen to music and do it in the mirror 😂
you’d look so handsome in a suit
but it’s not your fault :(
okay..
*peeks up at you and slowly nods* i don’t have a choice.. i have to be okay with it
you did your best to try to save it, if both sides aren’t putting in effort it’s going to hurt the relationship
i know all of the lyrics to the song 😳 *giggles and goes over to the mirror*
thank you đŸ„° i know what im singingggg
i know but i don’t want you to feel bad for me :(
it could happen at any moment, then i’ll have to cuddle with my teddys *pouts*
oh am i putting on a show now? *laughs and looks around then grabs my sunglasses* yea 😎
okay..im glad you understand :)
anyone could come at any time, it could be tomorrow or the next day *shrugsi
i’m supposed to be teaching you, you have to dance too *giggles and starts singing along to the song*
i appreciate you for trying to understand the best you can
okay.. good *looks up at you and grins* i don’t want any cuddles unless they’re from you
*watches you and starts laughing* yea you’re.. doing great *laughs and starts to do it with you*
whattttt :)
no you’re not, im still here *smiles up at you before readjusting myself and resting my head on your chest* she’s missing out.. and that means i get to have you all to myself
i don’t know, but it’s fun *giggles* it wouldn’t be my first time arching my back 😏
aw another loopy loop đŸ„°
mhm i don’t like to share *grins and lightly starts to trace shapes on your chest with my fingertips* but i don’t have a say in that either
*watches you and laughs, leaning back against the wall* why are you arching so harddd
*continues to do it and starts tracing my name as i nod* yea.. me either, i’d get jealous quickly, knowing someone else is giving another person the same attention they give me
*laughs and pauses the song as i come over to help you stand* oh noooo
sometimes i’ll joke around and say i’ll beat someone up or murder them *giggles a little and smiles, feeling the warmth of your fingers on my arm* in reality i might not say much or anything at all.. i think it would all be in my facial expressions or by my actions
eww *laughs and leans back against the wall again, sliding down onto the floor*
yea i would want to, but i don’t have a right to? *grins and shrugs* yea i’d feel the same way
*giggles and sits on the floor, watching you waddle away*
noooo *pouts and sits up a little, watching you* where are you going
that was funny *laughs and looks at you* it was fun
heyyy *pouts more* i was nice and comfortable before you moved meanie
i haven’t laughed that hard in a while, not while sober anyway i guess..
hmph you should be cause i’ll bite youuuu grrrr *giggles and gets comfortable again*
*looks at you and scoots a little closer to place my hand where yours is* wow
i will if i have to sir *smiles and nods as i start to relax again* yes i am now
aw hehe then you look like a little tomato *giggles and smiles at you before moving my hand*
*closes my eyes as well and nods slowly* mhm.. sometimes i might be a little more clingier than normal
mmm another simp, there’s nothing wrong with that *smiles and looks down at you* i think it’s cute when a guy simps over a girl, you can tell her really likes her
because i like to be around you, you make me laugh, i’m comfortable around you and.. I like when you touch me and cuddle with me, like i said.. i don’t like being apart *grins and blushes*
i agree *nods and pulls my knees up to my chest* i fall easily sometimes too, as much as i claim im tired of love.. i love it, i love to love and feel loved
really? im your favorite? *smiles wide and let’s you move my hand as i shake my head* nooooo, now i look like a tomato
mm someone might be helping me get out of that slump a little bit, considering to try again *grins and looks down at floor* but im still being cautious with my heart.. i still have that fear
no it’s not bad at all, i’m glad im your favorite person *grins and covers my face* noooo
*looks down at our hands before looking up at you and nodding* it is you
*slowly looks up at you when you pull my hands away* you’re making me blush
no, why are you apologizing *frowns a little*
*smiles and looks at you* oh really? what if someone else was making me blush?
no you didn’t *shKes my head* sorry
*widens my eyes a little and giggles* wow.. that’s evil
im falling asleep spidey boy.. i can’t wait to talk to you tomorrow, i hope you sleep well :)
*shakes my head* you don’t make me feel that way at all
if someone else made you blush.. i’d have to murder them, only i can do that *blushes and giggles, closing my eyes*
i’ll message you when i wake up, have pleasant dreams ❀
yea we should *grins and stands up*
i am a feisty girl grrr *giggles and relaxes, burying my face in the side of your neck*
good morning spidey boyyyy
*thinks then shakes my head* no i don’t
*grins and mumbles as i keep my face buried in your neck* so i make you blush in a different kind of way?
how’d you sleep?
*looks at you and grins as i nod*
*smiles and blushes deeply* that makes me feel very special, you’re special to me too ❀
aw đŸ„ș
*looks at your closet and giggles a little as i turn to you* help me pick
you’re special to me and im sure you’re special to hannah *smiles and shrugs* maybe in different ways, but you are special to us and you always will be
*watches you and nods* perfect
i can say the same about you *grins and opens my eyes a little*
*gets changed once you leave*
okay :) have a good day at work spidey boy ❀
*smiles and lifts my head a bit to look up at you*
really? *giggles and looks in the mirror* i guess i do look good in them 😎
nothing.. i just like to look at you *blushes and looks up at your eyes*
hmm you’ve never seen me in a dress thoughhhh *giggles*
yeaaaa *blushes deeply and nibbles on my bottom lip a bit as i lay me head down again*
oh, so you dream about me hmm? *smiles and goes over to your bed*
I like to admire you too *smiles and giggles softly when you kiss my chin, blushing* mm hehe that little kiss made me feel all tinglyyyy
a mcdonalds photo shoot? *giggles and lays back*
it was a good tingly and your lips are soft *smiles and covers my face* cause you’re making me blush alottttt ahh
as long as it wasn’t a bad dream *nods and grins then shrugs and looks at you* i don’t know, she just wants to go out for coffee i guess?
ah you’re doing that on purpose *giggles hard and hides my face*
ohhhh hmm.. maybe she has a little crush on you?
no *keeps my face hidden and shakes my head*
oh yeaaaa, i think she does like you *nods*
yes *peeks up at you and nods*
nothings wrong *shakes my head and looks at you* i was just answering your question
no noooo you didn’t, i promise *grins and kisses your cheek*
nothing is wrong *looks at you*
whether you did or didn’t, it’s not really my business *shrugsi
yes yes yes yes yes yes a million times, im sureeee
*crosses my arms and shakes my head* i have no reason to be jealous
i have no reason to be jealous *shrugs and plays with the strings on my hoodie*
*looks up at you and shrugs*
*looks at you a little surprised and tilts my head* really?..
it does a little *nods then giggles a little* i didn’t know that made you jealous.. you wish that were you hm? 😏
it’s okay, i know you didn’t mean to *giggles and looks up at you* oh really? then why’d it make you jealous?
i understand what your saying *nods and starts playing with the strings on my hoodie again* but i guess that is the point of a ons, just to hook up.. nothing more than that
if i don’t get attached, i won’t get my heart shattered into a million pieces *shrugs and pulls on one of the strings*
you’ve already got me attached *grins a little and shrugs* but besides that, no i don’t.. and you don’t have to get me anything, im okay
i know how to love, it’s not me. no one else knows how to love, no one else knows how to commit, how to show effort, how to be loyal, how to be present. all they know how to do is be temporary, how to just have babies and leave. it’s not fair
*lets go of my hoodie strings and slowly looks up at you*
*wipes my eyes with my sleeve and looks at you* really..?
yea.. *nods and pushes my hair back from out of my face*
*nods slowly and leans back against you, looking up at the ceiling* i know.. it sxxks what others can do to you. this isn’t me.. and it fxxks up everything good that could be coming to me, all because im afraid i’ll just be abandoned in the end.. or that im not capable of being loved, not for too long anyway.. im not worth committing to for too long
*listens and slowly looks up at you with a small grin* thank you spidey.. that means alot *sniffles and wipes my eyes again* yea.. they’re missing out. no one will love them as much as i did.. i like fun dates, i like surprises, i like cheesy romantic shixt, i love everything that relates to love and romance and i love to show it to the person i love.. all i want is to be loved as much as i love
*looks at you and nods* what is it?
*listens to you speak and slowly starts to smile* r-really..? it was a little obvious when you started to blush alot, always touching me and wanting to talk to me and be around me and i started to suspect it a little bit, but i wasn’t sure when you started to kind of friend zone me at certain times. *looks down at my strings and blushes a bit as i think and continue to talk* to be honest.. i started to feel the same way, that’s what i meant when i said i was getting attached to you, in that way. when you started to make me laugh and blush and i crave your touch and started to get a little jealous already.. you’ve made me laugh more in a few days than anyone has in a few weeks, you haven’t left my side since we started talking, you comfort and reassure me, you pay attention to me, you.. understand me and i really really needed someone to understand me the way you do.. and i guess those feelings started to terrify me a bit because.. well you know why *looks back up at you and grins* but im.. relieved to know that it was me? i started to think you found someone else so now i would have to back off and deal with it
okay ❀
it all makes sense now and.. i don’t want you think im just saying this or feel like i’m not serious or genuine.. i really do feel the way you’re feeling. i stopped responding to that guy and haven’t talked to or hooked up with anyone else, you’re the only person ive wanted to talk to and focus on, the first thing i do when i wake up in the morning is respond to you and message you and i feel bad when i fall asleep cause all i want to do is talk to you all night, even when i rest my eyes i keep my phone close by so i can open them and pick it up to respond to you before i fall asleep, i think about you when im out or when you’re at work and even when im doing something, i try to respond to you as quick as i can because i like to talk to you and be with you. i know right now i have my fears, my worries, my concerns, my doubts :( but i’ll be sad and regret not trying with you if just let it slip away because of that, if i just give it a chance.. i don’t know what it is about you, but its.. it’s worth trying.. even if it’s something to take slow and ease into? a few weeks ago another guy was asking me to give him a chance and.. i was hesitant, i said i would try to give it a shot but.. it didn’t feel the way it does with you? and he ghosted me after that anyway lmaoo, i had a feeling that would happen.. but my point is, with you this feels different.. it’s worth fighting for and trying and i don’t want to miss out, but we just have to take it a little slow and that’s okay, cause im not looking for anyone else? my focus is on me trying to get better.. my focus is on you
^ and on you.. and you might not believe me cause i know i said i was done with love, i say that all of the time lmaoooo, but im serious about this.. i just need you to show me that i can trust you, that i have nothing to fear.. i need to see you’re really committed to me and you’re here to be someone permanent in my life, not temporary
you could even ask mere about what we talked about yesterday
oh okay, welllll that was evil *giggles a little and looks up at you as i nod* i do, i always feel butterflies when you touch me and when you’re not touching me i crave it so much *grins and shakes my head* don’t apologize
i don’t either.. wow.. it feels good to finally say
it’s okay, im glad i got ghosted by him.. cause now look at us :)
thank you.. for being patient with me
i told her how i think i started to develop feelings for you and told her i was scared.. and i also was afraid if that would look bad cause i know i said i didn’t want a relationship, but i couldn’t help it? i couldn’t help how you make me feel.. she didn’t tell me she knew you liked me, but she was comforting me and giving me advice.. she knows me better than anyone and she knows im a lover, she told me not to let everyone who treated me wrong in the past effect something great coming to me in the future
oh okay, I’ll look
i started to think there was and i thought i was getting in the way of something.. i was afraid i would have to back off *pouts a little and looks at you*
me too đŸ„°
maybe :)
i know but.. some people wouldn’t want to be patient
me too, she’s secretly my favorite and the only sister i really see :) i.. appreciate that alot
i saw what you were saying to meredith đŸ„ș
*blushes and shakes my head* no, i didn’t want to see if another girl was all over you or making you happy.. by the way you were talking, you made it seem like there was another girl
yeaaa screw them
me too, she’s really supportive :) she helps me with the kids when she can
aw đŸ„șđŸ„ș
*shakes my head* it’s okay.. all that matters is i know now and im the lucky girl *giggles softly and blushes, looking up at you* oh really? 😏
aaron 😳
you have a kid?
ahh my heart đŸ„°
this is off topic but i just saw the cutest gender reveal that ended in a proposal đŸ„ș
hehe hmm i could send you a little photo dump so you’ll have more pictures to stare at *giggles^
that’s naughtyyyy đŸ€­
oh then.. in reality she would be their.. aunt?
it was cuteeeee đŸ„ș
are you still coming with me to that wedding
i’ll find some to send to you soon *smiles then shakes my head* you don’t make me uncomfortable at all and i guess i just don’t want us to jump into the relationship too quickly? i just need some time to really be able.. trust you i guess? i do trust you now, but you know.. im taking that extra precaution
hehe i can tell and that dirty talk is starting to make me feel the same way 😳
it’s okay
really?
yessss you can be my date
*listens to you speak then turns towards hannah when she runs in and giggles* hi hannah
is it bad that i want to say the second option sounds more fun 😳
aw đŸ„ș
yes đŸ„°
ahh im so happy to see you *smiles and hugs her, giggling* it’s okay, we can pause our moment for a second
you doooo have my consent and you started this in the first place, now you’ve got to fix it 😏
it’s okay if you can’t
it’s okay, i won’t judge ❀
*watches her and laughs, turning back to you* she’s adorable
mm i guess you’ll have to do both then *blushes and looks up at you, biting my bottom lip softly* hehe hopefully i don’t wake your neighbors 😳
mhm :)
you’d look hot in anything đŸ„°
*holds your hand and smiles as i nod* okay, do you need me to carry anything?
aw, she’s like the little sister i never heard *smiles and walks back over to you, wrapping my arms around your neck*
i just might 😏 *smirks and bites my lip as i tilt my head to the side when you start to kiss my neck*
oh my it is đŸ˜©
okay, let’s go *smiles and holds your hand, walking outside with you*
because you’re so tall *giggles and looks up at you* me too, i think they’d get along and it’ll be fun to have kids around her age to hangout with when she’s not at school
*lifts my hips to allow you to pull them off and watches you, blushing deeply when you get them off * that was hot
other girls better not stare at you in it 😠
mm i do too *smiles and sits on the blanket, looking at the candles and smiles* and you have lavender too
*looks into your eyes and smiles wide as i take the time to admire them* your eyes are prettyyyy
*moans softly when i feel your tongue and blushes and spreads my legs more for you as i’m already wet*
they can’t have it
*smiles wide and leans into you as i look up at you* this moment is perfect
your eyes, your freckles, that smile.. i love all of it *grins and keeps eye contact with you*
*lets out another soft moan and tries to keep my legs apart, feeling your fingers stretch my walls as you slide them in*
give them my number 😈
*looks up at the sky for a moment as i smile and nods* so beautiful
it sounds like your heart is on a little roller coaster *giggles and smiles at you* and it never stops
*moans and closes my eyes for a moment, moving my hand to rub my clxt lightly when you pull your fingers out*
i’ll talk to them 😡đŸ”Ș
and the stars.. they’re perfect *smiles and looks at them for a moment before looking down and over at you, blushing once i realize you were looking at me*
*shakes my head* it’s not embarrassing, it’s cuteeee
*continues to rub my clxt, adding a little more pressure as i do*
i said talk, not kill ;)
no, don’t apologize *shakes my head and blushes deeply as i glance down at your lips for a moment before looking back up at your eyes*
*takes one of your hands and gently places it on my chest so you can feel my heart beat* do you feel how fast it’s beating? it’s always beating this fast when im around you
*moves my hand back and looks up at you, nodding* im ready
hehe
*watches your eyes and blushes more as i start to nod slowly* i’ve wanted to kiss you for a while too.. so yes you may
yes, but my palms might not sweat very much *grins and looks down at one of them and holds it out* it’s very warm
*nods and gasps and whimpers softly when you slide in, gripping onto your arm*
oh stop đŸ„°
*closes my eyes and starts to feel the butterflies when our lips touch, taking in every second as i slowly begin to grin against your lips*
hey, they’re not that tiny *giggles and looks down at our hands* im a little person
a-and you’re so b-big *keeps a grip on your arm as my walls adjust to your size*
grr
*blushes and feels my heart racing, slowly pulling back to look at you for a moment* wow..
they’re like little soft pillows.. but hands *giggles* i hope they’re warm when you do that
t-ten? f-fxxk *moans and arches my back, digging my nails into your arms*
so are you.. and your lips are so soft and warm.. just like i imagined *smiles*
maybe it’s the hand cream i use? *smiles and lays my head on your shoulder as i yawn*
f-fxxk aaron.. d-don’t stop *moans your name loudly with each thrust as my eyes roll back*
mm i think today i used.. cherry *nods and smiles at you*
*nods and grins as i yawn again* i am, but don’t leaveeee
*moans louder and starts to scream your name when i feel you repeatedly hit my spot, my legs beginning to tremble as i try to speak* s-so f-fxxking.. g-good mm
*smiles softly as i look at you, admiring you for a moment and nods* mhm
*goes into your arms and closes my eyes* you can leave after i fall asleep if you need to
*screams in pleasure as i grips the sheets tightly, pulling on them a bit as i become close to cxmming, smirking a bit as the bed rocks back and forth with your thrusts*
*giggles softly and shrugs* i don’t blame you, the stars are beautiful but.. this is a much better view *blushes and smiles at you*
then stayyyy *grins and relaxes, getting comfortable as i pull the blanket up more*
*kisses you back the best i can as i moan into your mouth* mm i-i c-cant wait much l-longer
you always know how to make me blush too *grins and holds your hand, smiling up at you* like cinnamon sugar?
*opens my eyes a little to look up at you for a moment before closing them again* are you sure you don’t need to be with her?
*whimpers softly as i start to cxm heavily, releasing my grip a bit on the sheets as i move my hand back to your arm*
yea *smiles and giggles as i lean in to smell your shirt* mm you smell like strawberries
*giggles softly and nods* okay, but if she needs you then you go
*breathes a little heavily and blushes as it drips onto the bed, looking up at you and nodding* y-you may
you seem like a strawberry lover, strawberry milk is your comfort drink *shrugs and grins* im allergic to strawberrys so i don’t eat them and i stay away from anything strawberry flavored, after having an allergic reaction to them once i don’t care for them
*yawns again and closes my eyes, slowly starting to drift off*
*moans softly and closes my eyes, my hand moving to your hair to grip it gently*
that’s good to know *laughs softly and sits up a little, getting a little excited* i love grapes, the green ones hehe i can eat them all day
*wraps up in the blanket and falls sleeps
*keeps a grip on your hair and moans as my juices soak your tongue*
yes, i love grapes and they’re green like my eyes *smiles and plays with the blanket a little* mm i haven’t eaten a peach in a long time, i don’t remember how it tastes
*sleeps
that was.. wow *opens my eyes once you finish and blushes, looking up at you as my legs still tremble, rubbing them a bit to calm them*
no peaches *giggles* i like blueberries too, grapes and blueberries *grins* what else do you not like?
*nods and smiles softly as i look down at them* a little
hmm okay *nods then giggles* you’re really a waffle person, don’t tell my brother 😂
for someone who has only done it once before, you did great.. it felt great and you know how to find all of the right spots, i didn’t want it to stop *blushes and rubs my tummy a little*
something like that 😂
that makes sense *shrugs then grins* it’s okay, i don’t want to keep going if you don’t want to
i don’t know if you’d want that kind of beef 😂
okay, let’s wait for my body to calm down a little first *grins and looks down* wow.. i don’t know if they’ve ever done that for this long 😳
he has to sxxk it up
mhmmm and 10 inches is alot *giggles and shakes my head* i’m okay, im not very hungry right now
he might be taller than me, but im feisty 😈
no no *shakes my head and grins, tilting my head a bit* it was great
come hereeee
definitely one of the best *giggles and smiles and rubs my legs more as they calm down*
i know you’re making fun of my height in your head and i’ll fight you about it, but first this kiss *giggles and looks up at you for moment before wrapping my arms around your neck and kissing your lips*
*looks up at you and giggles when you glare* that’s what i saiddddd
*kisses you a bit deeper and grins as i mumble against your lips* im that good
i could’ve said you were the worse *rolls my eyes playfully and watches you, frowning a bit* where are you going
fine with me *giggles softly as i kiss you and smirks a bit as i teasingly bite your bottom lip*
*gasps and glares at you* that’s evil, you meanieeee *pouts and crosses my arms then looks up at you and nods* okayyyy
*giggles softly as you pull my hair to make me lean back and smirks* i like when my hair is pulled 😏
because you like me so so so so so much and you can’t resist *giggles and scoots over onto your lap*
*shivers slightly and bites my lip softly as i look down at you and blushes* mm always have been 😉
*giggles and mimics you, crossing my arms over my chest as well* you know it’s trueeee
mhm and if you do that i’ll do something more evil 😏
you know? maybe i’ll wear something.. special
*bites my lip and looks up at you, slowly shaking my head* i already have six i have to care for myself, im not having anymore kids with anyone
there’s something about you too.. i don’t know what, but i crave your touch all of the time and you.. you make me blush and make my palms sweat *smiles and looks up at you* what kind of song?
mm you won’t be able to touch hehe
*nods* im sorry, im just not making the same mistake again.. taking care of kids takes alot and it’s not great when you’re on your own
but you didn’t and now look at us *grins and nods* hmm that makes sense *smiles and looks up at you* mm if we’re done with our fun now, i’ll go shower
you just said you wouldnttttt
*looks up at you and nods* i don’t expect anyone to take care of my kids, im responsible for them and i chose to have them.. but you’ll meet them some day, maybe not soon but some time?
mhmmmmm
okay *nods* you’ll get to do that.. i just don’t want to introduce them yet or too soon, it hurts them too when i introduce them to someone they really like just for them to leave them too? no one considers how they feel
i don’t get it either.. someone who claimed to love me so much, to want to be married and a happy family, who was so upset and hurt when i called off our engagement the first time for the same reason.. it makes no sense, all i’ve done for anyone is be supportive, love them, help them when they needed me, i drop everything for everyone but when i needed it no one is there.. im not worth anyone’s time
i thought he was the one for me, i really believed he was.. and it’s not just him, compared to all of the others i’ve been with, he was the best and.. i’ll always love him *nods and looks down* i wish things didn’t turn out this way
*nods* well yea, no one wishes for things to turn out this way when they’re in this situation? he was my best friend, we were in love and even though he hurt me, no matter what i’ll always have a place for him in in my heart *shrugs and looks at you* with a love like that, it never truly goes away.. not completely, it still lingers
you can move on, you can love someone else, but that type of love never disappears.. it fades, but not disappear
do you? cause your entire mood just changed *frowns and looks at you*
i’m sorry, i tried to word it the best i could without it sounding that way? *sits down on the floor* i don’t know what i feel anymore, when i think about him, im upset, im angry, im hurt.. but at the same time i feel nothing.. numb, i can’t trust him anymore.. our friendship is probably gone..
and that friendship meant alot to me
thanks
its okay
i’m fine
you don’t have to do anything
greatttt
no no no no no no no
*frowns* i don’t know what to say or do.. he’s a completely different person now *shakes my head* after everything ive done..
i hxte him so much.. i never want to see him again, i hope he never decides to come back
thanks.. i was so upset last night, so angry, i still am.. i threw out everything, got rid of everything.. and scarlett, she’ll just always remind me of him.. of how much of an axxhole her dad is now.. my baby doesn’t deserve that
so upset, i feel fxxking sick, i feel stupid
i’m surprised im even here right now.. i had to call my mom..
im sorry
i should’ve listened to kacy.. they were together a few years ago and he left her too, just like me and he was always so upset when kacy fell out of love with him, but it was his fault. he abandoned her and their son
if i go im not going to do anything good
im so hurt.. but in a way i feel like i was released from him completely? it’s not the.. closure i wanted? but now everything is done for good
by that, i mean i have my answers
he did.
thanks spidey boy.. that means alot
yea :(
they never got along after that, braiden was always hurt she broke it off and i think he believe she did it intentionally, but kacy was also hurt too and it wouldn’t have ended if he didn’t do that to her
thanks
i hxte everything
now that im thinking about it.. yes
i don’t hxte you but i hxte everything else and i want to crawl in a fxxking hole & stay there
okay i guess
yea
he hurt me, my kids, i have to raise them by myself.. it’s hard enough already, most of them go to school during the day but my two youngest? i can’t afford daycare and barely afford a sitter, i have to take them with me but i can’t keep doing that either.. he just caused me so much more pain and stress.. ugh
i’ll die there
okay.. im going to go find something.. i don’t know what yet but whatever i can find first
hii
hi
no.
yea
*sighs softly and crosses my arms over my chest*
*shruhs* why wouldn’t i be?
yea, i do *nods and frowns* you also start school tomorrow, that makes me sad too cause we won’t get to talk much anymore :(
*looks up at you and nods* okay, good
*grins* thanks, so do you
i want a drink
what do you think
what
maybe i shouldn’t
no
i don’t want to talk, what do you want to do?
i don’t want to eat
i’m sorry, im being difficult
we can continue to cuddle for now, i don’t know
one glass isn’t going to do much or hurt me in any way *nods and takes the glass* thank you..
*takes a sip from the glass and frowns* you never told me that.. is that why he’s not around? and im not violent.. im the opposite
wow.. i’m sorry *frowns and looks down at my glass* why are dads aƛƛhxles? it’s okay to grieve.. but he shouldn’t take out his anger and frustration on you and hannah, you’re grieving too
i’ve been told im more loving and silly.. not violent or rude.. i’m only mean if i have to be, sober or not
*takes another sip as i listen to you and frowns more* he doesn’t deserve you or hannah
im not perfect
a disappointment? no *frowns and shakes my head*
okay, i won’t argue
yea i understand *nods and looks down, grabbing your hand with my free hand to hold it* i hope it starts to feel less like a disappointment and more.. enjoyable
you should, you’re amazing *drinks the rest from the glass and puts it down* you need to give yourself more credit, be more proud of yourself.. you’re doing great
okay :( thanks for being here.. im glad you felt comfortable to talk to me about it, have a good night and if we don’t talk again tonight, have a good day tomorrow :)
*nods and grins a little* it’s better than nothing
are your glasses prescription or do you just like to wear them? *looks up at you*
you look cute with and without them, i don’t know which one is cuter *grins and kisses your cheek* i always wear contacts, i used to have glasses and braces when i was younger.. and the haircut, i can’t forget 😂 butttt kids are mean so i don’t wear them often anymore :(
i didn’t look adorable, ew 😂 *giggles softly and grins* i would’ve loved to be your friend
*smiles and looks up at you* really? i definitely would’ve had a crush on you
aw even as a kid you’re the sweetest *grins as i play with rings on your fingers* i’d be a lucky girl
we’d always be by each others side, sit next to each other if we could at our desks, at lunch, *grins and looks at you* i would’ve loved going to school
yea hehe, but you would have to share me with cadence, we were best friends and our families were close so she was always around too
*grins and starts to play with the rings on your fingers again and thinks* my mom would love having you around too, you would also see little mere
your mom sounds very nice, i wish i could’ve met her
*looks down at your rings and slips one off of your finger, slipping it onto mine* mine now
sorry, mine now please *grins* it’s weird, i’m feeling better today? despite everything that has happened, im.. not as upset as i was?
it’s okay, that’s a good thing *thinks and shrugs* i don’t know, maybe i needed the closure to be able to officially move on? everything he said still hurts.. so much.. but i don’t feel what i felt for him before, whoever he was the other day wasn’t him and i don’t like that, that’s not person i loved and not the person i want to love, that ruined everything for me *shakes my head then looks at you* but.. i also have you here and your support and you make me happy
no no you’re not just a filler *shakes my head and frowns* you’re right, no one deserves that. i guess it hurts more because i’ve known him longer, he was my best friend before anything and i valued that friendship just as much, so yea i guess it is much different and that’s why it meant so much to me? we just had more history together i guess
i hope not *shakes my head and listens to you as i hold your hand, nodding slowly* that’s a good way to look at it i guess? to learn from it.. and you don’t have to be jealous, don’t worry about him or the past i had with him, or anyone, it’s time we focus on us now, im focused on getting better and moving on, im focused on working on myself
good *turns around to face you in your lap and grins as i kiss your cheek*
aw thank you baby *smiles and looks down at the fruit* mm i’ll eat them sometime, the grapes might not last very long
no *closes the container and puts it down* i don’t want to eat right now
it’s okay *shrugs a little* im not hungry
yea, i haven’t had an appetite.. it happens often so don’t worry
enough
what
yes? what’s wrong?
what makes you say that
i’m not going to be very happy after what happened
but im trying to move on from it
i don’t know how you could help? i don’t know how to help myself
*nods* you being here has helped more than you think, i’d be alot worse if it weren’t for you
really? *looks at you then sits down in front of you*
*looks up at you and grins* im glad i could help you do that, im glad im the person you love. you’re helping me find myself again and helping me learn how to give love another chance, how to not give up
i don’t feel that way about myself, but i do about you *grins and shrugs* i hope i can show you as much love as you show me, let you know how much i love you
oh im sorry *frowns* she wouldn’t talk to you on snapchat either? but she’d post? *nods as i listen to you* i hope you never feel that way with me, i always spend my free time talking to you and even when im not free, im still here cause that’s how much i love talking to you.. im sorry she hurt you :( that’s another thing i hxte besides cheating, not keeping promises, i hxte it when promises are broken cause i take them seriously and i only make them when i know i won’t break it, when i know i’ll keep my word
i always say i can understand if someone is busy, if they have plans, that’s okay.. but when you’re in a relationship you have to commit to it, you have to make time for it too.. if you’re too busy, you won’t be able to maintain a relationship *nods* we’re both hurt people trying to help each other
i want others to understand me, so i try to understand them *grins and looks up at you, blushing a bit as i take your hand* you take my pain away too, you make me feel happy even when im not having the best day.. talking to you makes it better
my lips? look at yours.. those lips always make me fold, i could kiss them all day and that smile you have is contagious
*smiles as i bring my hand up to cup your cheek, kissing your lips softly*
*blushes and smiles as i sit comfortably in your lap as i continue to kiss you*
*deepens the kiss as i wrap my legs around your torso to pull you closer*
so do you *blushes and bites my lip softly when you start to kiss my neck*
wait.. she did that? *looks at you*
oh.. i guess she’s just worried about me? she tried to warn me about braiden *nods and looks up at you*
you say you’re not going to hurt me, so why would you be scared?
i know that, but she still worries? i’ve been hurt so many times but many different people *sits up and looks at you*
she could if she needed to, but she won’t have to right? so there’s nothing to worry about
*nods and looks down at the carpet* thanks for being patient? i thank you alot but.. not many people would be patient?
*lays back down on the floor and nods as i rub my stomach a bit* yea.. i like that about you
no *shakes my head* we have to be patient with each other, respect each other, be honest with each other, communicate with each other to have a strong relationship *nods and continues to rub my stomach*
so baby let’s just turn down the lightsssss and close the doorrrrr
to.. *looks over at you then looks down at my stomach and shakes my head* nothing, sometimes i do that without realizing it
let’s just kiss until we’re naked babyyyyy
*nods* not only would you have to do that for me, but i need to do it for you too. we have to take care of each other *nods and moves my hand onto the floor*
okay
ahhhh it’s one of my favorite songs right now đŸ„°
i’ve noticed *nods and rolls over to lay on my stomach* you don’t have to be afraid to tell me, your feelings are valid
you’ve never heard it? how do you know the lyricsss
*frowns and shakes my head* noooo, keeping it in will make it worse.. it’s better to talk about it and we might not agree or get into arguments sometimes but that’s what happens? it’s how we overcome it *looks up at you and blushes as i nod* yes please đŸ„°
i love bruno :)
*giggles and doesn’t get to say anything before your lips are on mine, cups your cheek as i kiss you back*
i do like all of them :)
i noticed that when i listened to the songs you sent me
*smiles and kisses you with the same amount of depth, slipping my hand under your shirt*
that kiss was amazing đŸ„°
oh reallyyyy
i did :)
*kisses you deeply, moving my hand up and down your chest, lightly letting my nails drag against your skin*
it was so perfect underneath the stars
no you don’t, i told you that 😂
oops *blushes and pulls away for a moment to look down at you* mm you say that like it’s a bad thing though
i did too, but im glad we waited for a special moment
😳😳
oh does it now? *smirks softly and looks down at your eyes as i move my hand away from underneath your shirt* you knew what you were getting yourself into when you wanted to make out pretty boy
you already know, meredith told you and i still have to ki- talk to her.. 😂
that’s what they all say.. 😳
yea, they do that
*bites my lip and looks up at you as i smirk* well that could happen, i do give the best head 😏
i said talk 🙄
hmm i don’t knowwww
that was niceeee
i’d love to *smirks and sits up, pulling my hair back* just sit back and relax, i’ll take care of the rest 😏
no sassy my aơs 🙄🙄
you should’ve
you are :)
do i? maybe a little? *giggles softly and takes your length, kissing your tip*
you can’t do that 😡
mhm
just for you to rip it off? *smirks and swirls my tongue around your tip before i start to sxxk on it*
fxxk no
*takes more of your length into my mouth as i sxxk, beginning to bob my head*
NO 👿
oh okay, that’s okay *nods and stands up*
fine 🙄 im sorry
*shakes my head* no it’s okay, you don’t have to apologize
i wasn’t trying to be rude, i thought we were just joking around. that’s how i talk to everyone when we joke around..
i’m sorry you and hannah had to experience that just now.. is hannah okay? are both of you safe?..
it’s fine, don’t apologize
if you need space right now, i can let you go.. it’s getting late anyway
okay, im glad you’re kind of okay.. maybe not emotionally but you’re safe
stop apologizing
okay, i’ll stay until i fall asleep
yea, it’s good to let it out
oh okay :( i hope you and hannah feel better, try to get some sleep? have a good night aaron and let out whatever emotion you need ❀
good morning, im glad you’re feeling better ❀
okay, have a good day :)
i miss youuuuu
i miss you moreeeee, i just got home :)
im sorry baby :( don’t stress yourself out over it, ask for help if you need it
aw
yes i am đŸ„°
nooooo
you’ll get it
im all yours for the rest of the night, unless something changes last minute
what, really? đŸ„ș
we can do that
whatttt
i like sour candy
*grins and takes your hand* someone’s excited
i like sweet toooo, but i like sour more
the one we’re about to build?
ugh as soon as i told you im free for the night, i got a text and a friend of mine might need me for something :( if i stop responding suddenly that’s why, but i’ll come back within an hour or two.. only if she needs me though
*smiles and sits down as i watch you* really? i didn’t notice that
don’t 😂 im not going to eat all of that
whattttt
mhm :) i will ❀
*helps you separate the pieces and smiles as i listen to you talk*
*laughs and playfully rolls my eyes* your silly
i like jeans sometimes, yes *nods and gasps as i look at you* really? đŸ„ș aaron that’s so cool and thoughtful
*looks at the pieces and picks some up as i start to put them together and smiles at you as i listen*
yes đŸ„°
*looks at the jacket and smiles wide* it’s.. amazing, it’s perfect.. it’s my new favorite jacket :) *giggles and smiles at you* you always do baby, that’s what i love about you ❀
maybe a little, but it’s okay? *smiles and looks at you* it’s cute how excited you get when you start talking about what you love
*takes your hand and smiles* thanks baby, im excited
*looks in the mirror once it’s on and smiles wide as i turn to you and hug you* thank you
it’s okay :)
there’s not that much you could say about me *giggles and puts more of the pieces together*
what are you going to wear *grins and looks at your closet*
*smiles wide and hugs you tightly* it means alot more than you think
it’s okay, we could talk later so you can focus on playing with her? or we could talk tomorrow and get ready for the wedding tomorrow
*blushes and looks down at the pieces as i continue to put them together* i don’t knowwww
that’s perfect, you look great in anything *smiles and takes my dress* no other girls better be staring at you 😡
because you made it special, in your own way and it’s made specifically for me *smiles and looks up at uou*
okay
written? you write about me? *looks up at you and grins*
i will, then i’ll poke their eyeballs out so they’ll never look at you again 😌
that’s another love language of yours, you’re very giving and you love to give things as a way to express your love
yes, im okay with that *smiles and nods* im not surprised
mhmmm careful with that *smiles and starts getting changed into my dress*
yea, you don’t think i pay attention too ?
because you like to express the way you feel with words, so i assume you like writing them out *grins* it’s almost doneeee
nothinggggg *slips on the dress and looks in the mirror as i adjust it*
i don’t say much about it when i do
i don’t ask either, i take care of it myself the best i can.i guess im also still a little thrown off from last time toooo, but it’s okayyyy :) yes that’s okay, i like it rough 😏
i know, im not upset about it. it was just so.. sudden and i still felt like i did something wrong even after you said i didn’t, i don’t know? I just didn’t see it coming
*looks up at you and smirks as i turn towards your closet* mm perfect, why don’t i try one on for you? and you know what they say, red makes a person look more attractive, sexier 😏
yea, i know
mm you’re already turning me on đŸ˜© *walks to your closet and shuts the door as i get changed into the lingerie*
it’s okay
*comes back out once i’m changed and walks over to you* what are you looking forrrrr
are you someone who keeps toys under your bed too? *looks at you and blushes when you look at me as i step back for you to get a better look* like what you see?
mhm, i have to put mines away so the kids don’t find them *smirks and spins around so you can see the back* perfect
mhm and you can buy me a new one *smirks and looks up at you as i nod* im ready 😏
i don’t know how i didn’t see this before, if you want to continue we can
then we can cuddle
whatever you’re in the mood for
okay come lay down
im hereeeee *lays down with you*
*wraps my around you and smiles* i’m sorry i- ahhh *giggles when you bite my inner thigh*
*giggles* you sound like me right now, i’ll bite you grrrrr
don’t make me do it *laughs and cuddles you*
hey *laughs* maybe i won’t do it, cause you want me toooo
*smiles and blushes softly as i hold you close to me* oh stopppp đŸ„°
have you seen you? you’re so handsome, you smell so good, taste good, you’re warm, you’re sweet, you’re gentle, you’re perfect đŸ„°
did you just.. đŸ„ș
baby đŸ„șđŸ„ș
you know i like to flirt in spanishhhhh, no one has made that effort to do it to me đŸ„°
đŸ„șđŸ„ș
you want to learn spanish for me đŸ„ș
hehe mi bĂšbe es tan guapo đŸ„°
te amĂł ❀
i did đŸ„°
ahhhhh đŸ„°
im blushing so much
i like the spanish rizz
spanish is one of the most romantic languages
no
my heart did a loopy loop
đŸ„°đŸ„°
it’s really good
yes
mhm 😌
good
some of my.. other side of the family speaks spanish, so i know some :) i only flirt with a special someone thiughhhh
i’ve never seen that
*smirks when you pin me against the wall and bites my lip, tilting my head as you kiss my neck*
*looks down at you and let’s out a small, deep breath as you do* i hope you finish what you’re starting mi amor 😏
*gasps softly at what you said and blushes deeply* que estas esperando? te deseo..
you don’t have to do that bub :) i do like it, but it doesn’t have to be all of the time.. i don’t speak it that well anyway :)
*giggles softly and smiles, holding onto you as i start to kiss your neck while you walk upstairs* good, we won’t have to worry about her hearing us
i love you too
hmm i know what to show you 😏
sometimes, i don’t know alot of words but i can figure out with context :)
i don’t think i’d be able to *smirks and starts to get undressed as well* mm i am, i like the change of location 😏
thanks, it’s cute how you try to learn for me đŸ„°
*tosses my clothes to the side and follows your eyes up to the shower head then looks back at you* hmm never heard that one
baby đŸ„ș
oh yea? that should be fun *gets into the tub with you*
yes đŸ„°
yes sir *smiles and turns around for you*
you never met a girl who likes to flirt in spanish? i guess im one of a kind 😌
*gasps softly and blushes, biting my lip* hehe i like that 😏
hehe good, im the first and only đŸ˜©
😎*
how nice of you *giggles softly and bites my lip, holding onto the wall with one of my hands* go as rough as you’d like
you’re going to make me overthink
y-yea i- *stops mid sentence and moans loudly, holding onto the wall for support as my walls stretch*
losing you makes me sad, it scares me cause of how attached i am now.. and i don’t want you to.. to stop loving me one day.. to lose interest in me..
*lets out a deep breath and arches my back a bit more for you* i-i forget how big you are, holy shii đŸ˜©
a little? i think i’ll always have that fear, especially now.. i don’t know if it’ll ever go away completely. i know what you mean, im glad you feel the same way, it’s not a good thing but it tells me i mean alot to you.. i don’t know? i wonder how too, but you see it happens.. i’ll never forget those words or that feeling
*moans your name loudly, smirking at the sound of your balls clapping and water splashing against my entrance, my pxxsy already beginning to throb* mm f-fxxk aaron!!
not entirely because of him, i have had a fear of abandonment before but.. this made it worse.. and the fear of you not loving me anymore and losing interest? that’s new because of him
i don’t think you would.. but i also said that about him too and look at how he turned out. but i know you’re not like him in that way.. but that’s what an ex can do to you, hurt you so much it effects your future relationships
*looks up at your eyes when you turn my face towards you, my eyes rolling back shortly after when you go deeper and screams your name loudly, unable to say anything else*
i’ve realized how much of a manipulator and hypocrite he was..
yea :( i wonder how different it would be if i wasn’t with a cheater or someone who manipulated me or would verbally and emotionally abuse me and try to control everything i do.. i wouldn’t be so afraid to talk about how i feel sometimes or to do things a partner would do like be clingy or be able to say or do things without feeling afraid to
*kisses you back the best i can, moaning into your mouth as my legs begin to tremble*
he didn’t do all of that stuff, but he didn’t like that i drink or get high so i did stop, but im not perfect and it’s not something you can stop so easily you know, so i couldn’t stop forget or that easily just because he wanted me to. anyway, one night he was drinking and he had his son with him and he was drunk, but when kacy or i would do it he’d be upset about it.. but we don’t do it around our kids :( i remember when we were engaged the first time too, he disappeared after and i broke it off cause i was afraid i might be losing him.. but he was also never around, it was like once that commitment was made that was it and i was also going through alot and he wasn’t there, but i was always there for him. he was upset i broke it off.. so upset, he told his friend about it too and i thought she was my friend but she only talked to me when braiden told her about our problems. but i don’t know if he ever considered how i felt.. if he ever noticed why i did what i did.. then he did that again the second time we got engaged, he disappeared
yea :(
*cxms with you and leans against you when you pull out, letting out another deep breath as i nod, pushing my hair back from face* y-you did too
yea.. only for fun he said, but sometimes that wasn’t the case for him either.. i understood from his point of view with things in his personal life, but sometimes i felt like his expectations were a little unrealistic and that could jeopardize the relationship
im fine right now, but yea i’ve heard that before :( that fear is always effecting my relationship.. im sorry :( i don’t want you to feel like im not loving you enough
*giggles when you shake water every where with your hair and leans back against against you again once we’re sitting* mm it’s okay, i wanted you to go rough and it felt really good
you have a big heart and you love to love, i hope i can overcome this and be able to love you as much as you love me, to love you as much as i want to love you.. i want you to know that part of me, i want to be better for you
*rubs my legs a bit and nods* you’re really good for someone who has only done it a few times now, if you never told me i wouldn’t have known
i wouldn’t do that or say those things to you, im sorry someone has in the past. that’s awful :( i’ll admit i do swear when im mad or frustrated sometimes, but i’d never do it to hurt your feelings and im good at keeping that under control most of the time, so that shouldn’t be a problem at all
wow, im sorry she did that.. and ignoring her friends too? that’s low.. i hxte when girls get a guy or girl and they start to ignore their friends and treat them differently, then when that relationship is over, they come back to you.. that’s fake shixt
can you be any more perfect? i love you ❀
*shakes my head* no no no no, you’re amazing and much better than some people i know.. that sounds bad, i probably sound like a whxre lmaoo, but it’s true, definitely the best
that’s okay, guys are always expected to be so tough and strong, but you have emotions too and you’re allowed to feel them
oh :(
i know, but not alot of people are understanding like you are
mhmmm you are *nods and grins then thinks for a moment and shakes my head* noooo it sounds bad
maybe he feels that way because that’s what he was taught.. guys are raised and taught to be not show emotion and to be strong
thats a good idea, let go of the past :) i deleted every remix i had with braiden.. it’s time to move on and focus on each other now
i knowwww, that was our first time *giggles then shakes my head quickly* nooooo, not more than ten
talk to him when he’s sober and not so angry, that might help
you already do mean alot to me, everyone in my life means alot to me and is special to me
except maybe my kids might have you beat just a little, they mean ALOT to me
oh, i know *giggles and smiles* no nooooo i said not more than ten, less than ten babe
mhm ❀
for some people it does, people easily label women as whxres or slxts or whatever based on their body count or how they dress or even how they walk *frowns and shrugs a bit*
come here 😏
*shrugs* i guess not, but also the kids don’t all have the same dad either so that’s not a good look *shakes my head and puts my hand in the water*
*looks up at you and smiles, standing up on my tippy toes to kiss your lips*
yeaaaa i’ve learned my lesson now *nods and looks at the water* but i don’t regret it, i love them
*smiles and slowly wraps my arms around your neck, kissing you a little longer*
*looks at you and smiles wide* good, cause i can’t love anyone who doesn’t love them
*kisses you back with the same amount of depth, smiling a bit against your lips as i gently bite your bottom lip*
i think it’s cute *smiles and takes your hand* they’ll like you, they’re sweet kids.. i have twins mason and makenna, makenna might take a little while to warm up to you but if she sees mason with you, she should be okay
biting is part of my love language *giggles and kisses your cheek*
aw baby they’d love that
oh baby :( do you want me to let you go?
*kisses you back deeply and passionately, pressing my body to yours*
oohh they haven’t been there in a while
i don’t want to let you go eitherrrr, but i know you’re tired
*keeps them wrapped around your torso and kisses, slowly slides my tongue into your mouth
hmph me neither, i won’t be able to sleep for a while :( but it’s okay, if you’re tired you can go to sleep. i’ll find something to do :) maybe sit outside for a little while
😠
she’s saying you’re cute and hot, you are but only i can say that 😠
she’s very touchy
sorry, she’s doing it right in front of me
if you want her to stay alive
good idea
i’d hxte for a good friday to end badly
i miss you my baby
in an hour you’re all mine
hehe
im going to start saying random lines now
make sure you tie your shoes when you go out, i don’t want you to trip and fall for someone else
do you hxte your bed? we can break it tonight 😉
why use pillows when you have my thighs?
thinking about you always makes me smile :)
can i borrow a kiss? i promise to give it back
i like sleep, you like sleep, maybe we should sleep together?
are you the weather? cause you’re hotttt
what do you call a person who wants you? me, i want you 😌
i love you more đŸ„°
i know you like spams, i try to do them often when im waiting and missing you
i want to be the best i can be for you :$
:)*
you do❀
i want to be better
you’re busy but you make time for me, you pay attention to the things i like, my favorite color, my favorite fruit, my teddy obsession, you always think of me and you do them, even the smallest things and you’re thoughtful. i appreciate all of it, i appreciate you :)
just better
what’s stopping you
😠
do you have alot of work? :(
*smiles as you pull me into your lap and kisses you back*
that’s alot, don’t wait until last minute to do it babe
*smiles and blushes as i look up at you* im happy to see you too, i always look forward to this time of night, to talk with you and spend time with you even if im exhausted
good
i love being around you *grins and turns to face you in your lap and wraps my arms around you*
*smiles wide and kisses your head* i love you mi amor
oh my surprise *smiles and stands up*
remember? i said i have a surprise for youuuuu *smiles and goes to the closet*
you’re welcome *grins and grabs a bag, walking back over to you*
yes, it was in a box but this bag was cuter and it’s redddd *smiles and hands it to you* look inside
*smiles and sits down beside you as i watch you* i went to build a bear and made you a teddy and look at him, he has on a spiderman suit and a mask
*watches you and smiles as i nod* i saw the costume in the window when i walked by and i had to get him
aw đŸ„ș
*smiles and hugs you back* you’re welcome baby
now you’ve got one đŸ„°
*giggles and smiles* mhm and you have someone to keep you company when we’re away from each other
you’re welcome baby, im happy you love it ❀
ahhhh *laughs and looks up at you as i smile and kisses your nose* you’re welcome a million times
you’re welcome 😂
so am i *grins and wraps my arms around you* are you okay? i saw you taking tylenol
i wouldn’t be mad if you did that
aw my baby *looks up at you and kisses your head* im glad it’s gone
*smiles as i wrap my arms around your neck, kissing you back*
*giggles as i hold you* oh really? what else is bothering you?
*blushes and looks at you* careful
why does your heart hurt *pouts and looks at you*
*blushes more and bites my lip softly* oh yea? you know exactly what you’re doing
HA
aw hehe you’re cute *smiles and rubs your back*
*tilts my head a bit and slowly smiles as i look down at you* y-you’re going to turn me on
banging
*rubs your back and kisses your head again as i hold you close*
w-what.. n-no they’re not *blushes deeply and watches you*
you want to bang 😏
*looks at you and grins* really? you have? đŸ„ș
more like make them tremble more? *slowly lets out a breath i didn’t realize i was holding and bites my lip*
yes
its.. it’s perfect, i love it *smiles and looks at you* wow, you really surprised me
*whimpers softly and spreads my legs more, my wetness soaks your tongue
no.. it’s okay, that was perfect and you’ve shown me how much you love me and i should be able to trust you, i just hope that now that we’ve reached this, moved onto the next step, things don’t change now that you have me? that’s my only concern
*gasps and moans, gripping onto the bed sheets*
as long as it’s for the better and not the opposite ❀
*tries to keep my legs spread apart and tries to keep my moans a little quieter*
im so happy đŸ„°
fxxk *blushes and moans as my juices soak your fingers, my toes curling from the pleasure*
đŸ„°đŸ„°
*moans a little louder as i close my eyes* mm mm e-even y-your fingers feel so g-good
yea it would be
*moans loud as i feel your whole fist stretch my walls and blushes deeply as my legs begin to tremble slightly* g-good
mm *smirks and looks up at you* you know how i like it doctor
you look great doctor, very handsome *grins and walks closer to you* i’m a lucky patient
perfect *smirks and goes over to the bed* mm my flexibility might impress you, i’ve done gymnastics, dance, cheer.. 😏
mm i don’t remember this being part of the exam? *smirks and nods my head, biting my lip* im ready sir
*helps you get my shirt off then stays still and nods* okay sir
hmm maybe a pillow? *nods and looks at you* are you ready doctor? your bed.. it might get messy, this could get messy😏
*puts the pillow and place and tilts my head a bit* mm we’ll see about that sir
mhm *bites my lip as im already wet for you and smirks* mm i guess i do? i seem to have the urges often? mm and i like a challenge
mm-mm i can h-handle it *whimpers softly when you push yourself in and spreads my legs more*
*moans loud and grips onto the bed, arching my back* f-fxxk you’re so b-big
*moans as my walls stretch from your size, pushes my aƛs up to you to make you go deeper*
*arches my back and moans louder, blushing a bit* n-no one is h-home, right?
o-okay good *breathes deeply as well and moans your name*
i-im almost.. mm *moans your name louder with each thrust*
f-fxxk im g-going t-to.. *leans my head back and breathes deeply as i start to cxm heavily*
*bites my lip and sits up as i move to sit on your face*
*whimpers softly and leans my head back as it drips into your mouth*
*grins and moves onto your lap as you sit up* that was.. amazing
mm i wonder why *giggles and looks up at you* hmm so what do you think doctor? how’s my flexibility?
yea? whay else do you need to test doctor? *smirks and looks at you* i was thinking maybe my throat needs to be checked? check my gag reflex 😏
i’m sure doctor *smirks and bites my lip as i get off of your lap*
yea you can *giggles softly and shakes my head* haha it’s okay, i’ve never actually given you head before
i know what you mean? i get that way too when we do this *smiles and gets down on my knees as i rub your tip with my thumb*
mm you probably have, i almost gave you had once before, but that.. was stopped *nods and smirks at your reaction as i put your tip into my mouth*
shhh *pushes more of your length into my mouth as i begin to sxxk*
*smirks and stops for a moment, looking up at you* mm it’s okay, no one’s home remember? *pushes as much into my mouth as i can, starting to bob my head as i sxxk*
*bobs my head faster as i start to sxxk harsher, massaging your balls*
*swallows it and continues, beginning to deepthrĂžat harshly as i take in more, gagging a bit as i feel your tip hit the back of my throat*
*gags more as i deepthrĂžat and take in as much as i can, my eyes starting to water*
*blushes and looks up at you, lxcking my lips* how was that?
yea? i might have to do that more often *giggles softly and stands up* anything else you want to test doctor?
i love the aftercare part *grins and pulls the blanket over my body* can you rub my belly đŸ„ș
*gasps and looks at you* ice cream! i want ice cream
please đŸ„ș
okay baby *sits up a little and wraps up in the blanket* mm im not putting my clothes on again, i sleep nakey tonight đŸ„°
i’ve never done it *starts to eat my ice cream and grins* we should do this after every time, if you don’t break me 😂
we can give each other aftercare *eats more of my ice cream and rubs my belly*
*shrugs* if you want it, i can give it to you too
good idea 😂
t-that would be h-hard *leans my head back and bounces as fast as i can*
*smiles wide and blushes, pecking your lips* i love you handsome
yea 😂
*rocks my hips a bit and bounces, moaning loudly as i tilt my head* fxxk i-it feels so f-fxxking good
*smiles softly and shakes my head* mm no not possible
oohhhh did you understand her?
*cxms with you and begins to slow down as you finish and kisses your lips*
because i love you most sir *looks up at you and smiles*
okay
aw that was niceeee
*blushes and stops as i kiss you a little longer then smiles* thanks baby
what’s not to love about you? you have an amazing personality, you’re sweet, you’re kind, you have so much love for others and you make sure the people you love feel loved and taken care of *smiles wide* you’re perfect and you’re just.. very loveable
aw đŸ„ș
*kisses your nose and shakes my head* mm no, i don’t want any ice cream
aw *smiles and kisses your cheeks* hehe i winnnn and now you’re a tomato
how was your day
hmm i don’t know *lifts myself up to slide you out of me and lays down*
*smiles wide and kisses the corner of your lips* i can’t wait to see what the future has in store for us
that’s good babe, my day was alright :) a little.. weird too 😂
that sounds funnnnn, but i also want to nap *grins and looks up at you*
what does it look like in your daydream? *looks up at you and smiles*
yessss, nessa is getting married on friday. we went out to dinner and got drinks with the rest of the girls and there was a lady there, im pretty sure she was drunk so she was talking alot about random and weird shixt 😂
no sharing 😡
are you leaving me *watches you*
mm nooooo, i want to know *takes your hand and sits down* tell meeee
lmaoooo
it was weird, she started to tell us about a friend of hers i guess and whatever happened between them, then she asked us which one of us has a baby
hehe oh yea đŸ„°
no but if you want to go you can *nods and looks at you*
why would i laugh at that? that sounds like beautiful future *smiles wide and looks at you* i love that future
getting drunk?
yea i say and do weird things when im drunk 😂 but she sounded serious
good choice *grins and gets comfortable, pulling the blanket up*
a gift for the kids? why would that make me laugh? what kind of gift? *tilts my head and looks at you*
i liked being in your arms and it made me feel so special, it wouldn’t have felt special anymore if someone else had the same treatment
i knowwwww, you’re always working
i don’t know 😂 i said i just had one and nessa and cadence have daughters that are about to be one soon, that was not what she meant 😂
what are you going to write about *grins and watches you for a moment before closing my eyes*
yes i want to see *smiles and watches*
yea and i think that’s when i realized i started to have feelings for you *blushes and plays with my fingers a bit* you got meeee
i’ll get loose with you
it was hard to leaveeeee 😂
what if she knows 😳
awwwww *smiles and blushes a little as i lay on my side*
awwww baby đŸ„ș im sure they’ll love them *grins and watches you* i’ll put them on lyla and the twins for sure and scar
yessss i know but some people will cuddle with anyone *shrugs and grins*
ahhhhh party timeeee
that was nice 😂
what if she’s not wrong
can you read it to me *yawns a little and keeps my eyes closed*
i don’t think they’ll care, ella and ethan might want to choose or have a preference
i knowwwww, you were attached to me quickly *smiles and looks at you before kissing your cheek*
YES
đŸ˜±
*smiles and listens to you, trying to stay awake to hear it all*
that would be cute *smiles and looks at you* four shots? are you okay?
*giggles and smiles* i love you my spidey boy
ahhhhhh
rawr 😂
goodnight, i love you *grins and starts to drift off*
yes i think two is enough, tequila is strong *giggles and looks at you*
*kisses you back and lays down with you*
me neither 😂
*falls asleep and snores lightly*
i know, that’s why im surprised you chose tequila *giggles and picks up one of the shots* ready?
*sleeps*
im weird too 😂
whatttt
both of us might be drunk *giggles and takes the shot*
have you met me 😂
oohhh i remember that song
oh is it? *smirks and looks at you* look at you getting there alreadyyyyy
😂
oohhh
you don’t need to take care of meeee *giggles and picks up the other shot*
there’s no joke, im weird toooo 😂
yes i did, back to the old house
why would you have to? *takes it and puts the glass down afterwards*
SHHHHH
i love you toooooo, but you don’t have to take care of me all of the timeeeee *giggles and looks at you*
grrrrrr
you’re still awake đŸ„°
you’re still a cutie and sweet when you’re drunkkkk hehe *smiles and blushes*
*kisses you back and giggles* really? grrrrrrrrrr
yes
mooooo you can’t eat me *laughs*
ahhhh *giggles and looks up at you* grrrrrrr grrrrrr grrrrrrrr
okay baby
mm hehe moo moo mooooo *giggles and looks at you* ahhh my neck
me too *smiles and kisses your cheek* i love our relationship
my milk? *laughs and looks at you* you’re veryyyy drink
me neither *smiles and shakes my head* i didn’t know this would happen
*looks at you and giggles* what’s the magic wordddd
it is *smiles and wraps my arms around you* i didn’t know you’d be this important to me.. but im glad you are, i love being your girlfriend and loving you
okayyyyy you can kiss me now *giggles*
me too and im thankful for you too *smiles and looks into your eyes*
you’re a silly goose *giggles and kisses you back when you kiss my lips*
*smiles and blushes as i look at you for a moment, admiring you*
maybe youuuuu are more of a lightweight then meeeee *giggles and kisses you*
*keeps my eyes on you and stands up on my tippy toes to kiss your chin* aaron valentine, i love you so much
you’re crazy, im crazy.. in loooooveeee ooohh *giggles*
mhm that’s your name bubba *giggles and keeps my arms around you, resting my head against your chest* so many butterflies and so many heart loopy loops đŸ„°
dovey lovey *giggles more and sits up a little as i kiss you back*
oh no, maybe i should stop? i don’t want to accidentally kill you *giggles*
i don’t knowwww, you’re very drunk mister *smiles and kisses*
*laughs and looks up at you* im kidding, i’ll never stop
mmm.. no cuddles for youuuu naughty boy *looks at you and giggles*
i love looking at you, admiring you.. it’s the best view *smiles*
naughty boys get no cuddlesssss *giggles then looks at you* i kidding, i like naughty boys oooohhh
you’re my favorite everything and i love everything about you *smiles wide and looks up at your eyes*
noooooo i like good boys too, i not leaving yoiuuuu grrrr *hugs you*
*smiles up at you and blushes* im starting to feel so many butterflies right now
sxcky boys *giggles and lays down, pulling you down with me*
im feeling them alotttt more, alot alot *smiles* im glad it is, mine is too
mhmm *pulls a blanket over us and wraps my arms around you, holding you close to me* sleepy time
*looks down at our bracelets* that’s where it all started
hehe im Jerry
here
who tf is jerry 😂
shhhhh
okay, so where do you want me to sit 😏
mm i can do that? should i get undressed too? 😏
just like that? *smirks and starts to remove my pants and underwear before looking up at you*
*blushes and looks up at you* hmm before i sit, how about i show you a new lingerie set i just got? ;)
that might not be the only mess *smirks and goes to my closet to grab it and puts it on*
i do alot of things *smiles and walks over to you, spinning around* do you likeee?
hehe thank you baby *smiles and looks up at you*
*holds onto you and shakes my head* mm noooo, no pillows
*looks at you and nods* okay baby *kisses your nose then turns around*
oohh 69 😏 mhm i can do that *smirks and bites my lip, stroking your length a bit before kissing your tip*
*bites my lip and smirks, rubbing your tip with my thumb* mhm, you are my favorite chair
y-you really do *bites my lip as my juices drip onto your tongue, starts to sxxk on your tip*
*exhales deeply as i swirl my tongue around your tip, beginning to take more of your length into my mouth*
*moans as i start to sxxk harshly, bopping my head, grinding against your tongue*
*moans and bobs my head faster as i take in as much of you as a i can, sxxking as hard as i can*
*feels your tip hit the back of the my throat as my eyes start to water and begins to deepthrƓat while massaging your balls*
*whimpers and continues to massage your balls as i deepthrĂžat fast*
*swallows your cxm and moans, getting closer*
*leans my head back and moans loudly, wrapping my hand around your dxck as i jerk you and starts to cxm*
*moans loudly as i continue to jerk you a bit slower as i cxm heavily*
oh hehe 🙊
what’s making you so hxrny 😳
*widens my eyes a bit and sits up, turning towards you a little confused*
oh oops hehe 😏
*raises an eyebrow and tries not to giggle as i get off of you*
hehe 😏
we still have to make our own movie 😏
😳
*look over at you as my eyes widen more and looks down at the sheets*
naughty me
who says we have to act? 😏
uh huh 😏
oh *nods and giggles softly* that was.. wow 😂
only fans 😳
*looks at you and giggles* can you pass me my clothes?
we can make those videos for ourselves, maybe it’ll help you if we made one 😏
*gets up and gets dressed, smiling as i shrug* maybe, but he should be happy for you no matter what
maybe i do 🙊
mhm we could do so much better 😏
yea? do you think he’s in a good place now? for me to meet him? *looks up at you*
okay i doooo đŸ„°
so bad
perfect 😏
remix the video? 😳
that’s good, maybe i can meet him sometime soon then? *grins and nods*
hehe
maybe i can wear another set i bought and you can rip it off of me 😏
i don’t think you can send videos 😂
that’s good baby, im happy he’s improving *smiles and kisses your chin*
yes and you can “help” me with biology 😏 where’s the set at? let me put it on
okay baby *goes to your closet when you leave and finds the set, getting changed into it*
*looks at you and blushes, giggling softly as i walk over to you* thank you baby
haha 😂
yes *smiles and follows you over to you closet* yes they would, but you’re the hottest
i don’t know 😂
*helps you put it on and button it up* maybe i should come to you for some.. extra credit? *smirks and looks up to you*
hxte is censored
i like visual representations, i learn the best with hands on experience *smirks and looks up at you* im ready
i don’t know
not at all *nods and pretends to look down at the paper, twirling the pencil in my hand*
im willing to do whatever it takes to pass, what kind of extra credit do you offer? *watches you and looks you up and down for a moment, biting my bottom lip*
*smirks and looks up at you as i nod* i do learn better with visual representations.. i’d love that
oh alright, are you sure we’re allowed to do this? *smirks and stands up, walking over to you as i sit in your lap*
i can’t help it, you’re just so.. so.. *blushes when you start to stroke my nxpple and bites my lip*
*tilts my head and bites my lip as i stutter, trying to remember what i was saying* y-you’re so h-hot
r-really? i didn’t notice *bites my lip as my breathing gets heavier and nods* y-yes sor
w-who says im not already o-obsessed? *whimpers softly and smirks, spreading my legs for you as i start to get eager* p-please fxxk me, i need you so bad
*blushes more when you see how soaked i am and gasps softly when you slide in* mm y-you’re so big, just like i i-imagined *moans softly and grips the desk*
i am too, we should do this more often 😏
f-fxxk *moans loud and pushes my aƛs up to you, gripping the desk* i-i can take y-you sir
i like this one 😏
*screams your name loudly and arches my back as my eyes roll back* f-fxxk!!
i don’t want to stop 😳
*screams in pleasure as my pxssy throbs, reaching back to home your arm for support as i squirt*
i know 😂
o-oh? *blushes and bites my lip, looking down and watches as it spills out* mm that f-felt so good
mm okay sir, im enjoying this lesson *smirks and wiggles my axx against your tip*
so are you
mm i-i want you to cxm *moans and holds onto the desk*
*moans softly and bites my lip, turning to watch as you cxm* that was hot
just you.. you’re hot *blushes and looks down at the mess we made*
a beautiful mess? *looks up at you and giggles*
okay baby *kisses your cheek and goes to grab my clothes*
*lays on your bed and yawns*
can you rub my tummy, it hurts a little *looks up at you and smiles*
yea but that’s normal, it’ll hurt afterwards but it’s worth the pain *giggles and closes my eyes*
wait.. what? what do you mean? *opens my eyes and looks at you*
*widens my eyes and sits up* she has a baby on the way? mere is pregnant?
how did you find out before me? where’s my phone *looks around*
*grabs my phone and texts her* i wonder if anyone else knows.. or if she knew that night, that would explain alot
it’s okay *puts my phone down once i text her* im happy for her
yea, so what did you tell her? what exactly? *tilts my head and looks at you*
aw meredith is so nice *grins and lays down again* she really likes you too, im glad she approved
you dooooo and my mom’s *grins and turns on my side to face you*
yea you’re right *nods* i wonder if she’ll find someone to love her again, the right way, but she’d spend her free time helping me with the kids
i hope she does.. i feel bad *frowns a little then looks at you and grins* thank you
she’s a good mom and she deserves the best *nods and grins, closing my eyes*
*yawns and snuggles up close to you* i love you
i wasn’t paying attention, but he better not
i don’t like that :(
i call you sugar
yea.. :(
*frowns a little and nods* okay
good
it’s not your fault
yes please
*kisses you back and smiles*
*kisses you back and sighs, relaxing a little*
*looks up at you and nods* im okay now
*looks at you and nods* please
im okayyyy, im calm *nods and hugs you*
i’ll comment here
either view would be hot *thinks for a moment and shrugs* maybe a pov?
*looks up at the lights and nods* we could just a little bit
yes im okay, im just waiting on you *smiles and nods, looking up at you*
i promise *grins and locks my pinky with yours*
make sure you press record, we don’t want to miss anything smirks and spreads my legs for you*
*smirks and helps you pull off my clothes, blushing as i toss them to the side*
*blushes and bites my lip, spreading my legs* i want you to treat me like the little putita i am and fxk me hard and really rough 😏
*whimpers softly and blushes, biting my lip* i-i need you now
fxxk *grips the bed sheets and moans softly, feeling my walls stretch as you slide in*
*moans and arches my back, pushing my Ă ss up to you* i-its all y-yours baby
*moans your name louder and grips the sheets tighter* fxxk it f-feels so good
*screams your name in pleasure as my eyes roll back* fxxk fxxk fxxk!
*screams as loud i can as my juices splash when your balls clap against my pxxsy lips, my legs beginning to shake* mm m-make me orgxsm baby
*grips the sheets tightly, unable to get another word out as my legs shake uncontrollably, beginning to orgxsm*
*shakes and sighs as i feel you cxm, breathing heavily as i cxm with you*
*smiles when you pull me into your lap and rests my head against your chest* t-that was amazing
so were you, my legs are still shaking *looks down at them and blushes, rubbing them a bit*
yes *smiles and holds out my hand for some*
why? *frowns a little and thinks* because of alejandro?
i didn’t realize you switched to the chatpage, sorryyyy
*looks up at you then sits up and takes your hand* aw baby, is it because of the comment about my eyes?
i think both of us having that fear shows how much we love each other, how much we care for each other and only want to be with each other *nods and looks at you, rubbing your back* there is no one in this world who could take your place, who i could want and love more than you.. EVER. i love you for who you are, i love the way you care for me, the way you love me and no one else can take your place, no one can make me feel loved the way you do, make me feel safe the way you do.. you are the reason why even when i wanted to give up in love, when i swore i would never give it a chance.. i gave it another try, you are the person i love and that’s why i said i’d marry you, because you are the only person who i think is right for me, the only person i want to be with for the rest of my life and no one and jogging can change that
nothing^ lmaoo jogging 😂
*listens to you and nods* i understand and i don’t trust women, sometimes they’re the same way and they don’t care if you’re in a relationship or not, some women don’t have respect for themselves or others in relationships *smiles when our thighs touch and looks up at you* good, cause i don’t want to kiss anyone else, make love with anyone else, cuddle with anyone, or do anything with anyone else who isn’t you *widens my eyes a little and giggles* evillll
i love you and care about you so much *grins and kisses your cheek* no other man or woman is better than me, im the best 😎 *giggles and shakes my head* my oh my
i know, you’ve helped me alot.. im slowly becoming myself again *smiles and giggles* ahh
me too *smiles then widens my eyes a bit and giggles* wow, someone is already feeling so much better 😂
you’d be surprised how my mood changes like that, i just don’t say anything 😂
by how much my mood^
hehe you look like a tomato right now *giggles softly and looks up at you before nodding* yessss 😏
BECAUSE SOMETIMES ITS RANDOM AND I TRY TO WAIT FOR THE RIGHT TIME 😂
i’ll say something next time 😂
*cups your cheek as i kiss you back and looks up at you nodding* i’ll try my best
HAHA OKAY
NOOOOO 😡
okay honey *blushes and looks down at you for moment before grabbing a pillow* i think i should keep my face in this so im not too loud 😂
why didn’t YOU say anything
he wouldn’t do thatttt, he tried to help me last time 😌
i might bite you *giggles and watches you, helping you get your belt unbuckled*
you just said it 😂
she wouldn’t 😡
LANYARD
HAHA
you’re welcome my love, it looked like you needed help *giggles and lifts my hips to slide my shorts off*
hehe i am 😏
you wouldn’t be able to handle going to the gym with me 😂
*giggles and nods* yes baby, it worked. say what? hermosa is beautiful in spanish
seeing you shirtless is hot but i think i could handle myself better than you could 😏
hehe all of those scenarios đŸ„°đŸ„°
okay, that might make me break 😂
*thinks for a moment and looks up at you* mm i think it’s eres tan hermosa
yea i am 😂
OHHHH i knew thatttt 😅
hehe i can’t help itttt
*makes sure im comfortable and blushes, biting my lip* hehe it does sound hot when you say it like that
sometimes 😂
NO 😂
you did that? 😂
i associate you with hot AND cute, my cutie
*bites my lip as my entrance is already soaked and nods at you* y-yes sir
i think im just used to hiding it, the same way i hide my emotions
sometimes^
yes
i didn’t know you were trying to be hot when you did that 😂
HAVE YOU MET YOUUUUU
*grips onto the bedsheets when you slide in and whimpers softly as my walls adjust*
i am, im trying to now :)
yes
LMAOOO I DIDNT KNOW
look at youuuuu, have you looked in the mirror? and the way you speak in a deep voice, especially in spanish or the way you shake your head to move your hair out of your face, or when you come out of the shower and you have your towel wrapped around your waist and you still have a little water dripping down your chest 😍
i-i don’t know.. it’s been a-a w-while *puts my face into the pillow as i moan*
that was it? I THOUGHT THERE WAS MORE
WHAT
confidence is what makes you hotter
*moans louder into the pillow, pushing my Ă ss up to you so you can go deeper*
OKAY WELL I UHDERSTAND IT NOW 😂
I DONT KNOW
mhmmmm i had to learn that :) confidence is key
i was going to today but you deleted it
*screams into the pillow as my eyes roll back, cursing a bit as it’s muffled by the pillow
rawr
hmm i like tall guys hehe and that’s not hard to find cause im not very tall myself 😂 mm i like a nice guy, but also someone who i can joke around with and “insult” each other sometimes, you know harmless insults and someone who can take a joke, hmm and smart, funny, caring, good with kids, romantic, respectful especially to women, has goals and morals, things like that i guess? im not picky, i don’t care if a guy has blonde hair, curly hair, blue eyes, muscular, all of that doesn’t matter to me
i haven’t been on that account in a while, not until today
okayyyy, just send me the new one and i’ll change it when i log on again
*whimpers and bites my lip, trying to be a little quieter, gripping the sheets tighter in my hands as the bed rocks from how hard your thrusting and tries to get my words out* s-so.. m-much
RAWR
me neither 😂
i forget about it until i want to post on it 😂
i did 🙄
*moans your name as my legs begin to shake a bit, leaning my head back* i-it f-feels so g-good
RAWRRRRRR
they do đŸ„°
i can multitask 😌
*breathes a little heavily, laying my face in the pillow as my legs shake*
RAWR
i knowwwww :) women are always so pretty
i love when women compliment me :)
*looks up at you and nods* y-yea im okay.. that felt really good
okay 😌
yea they’re really nice and when really pretty girls compliment you, it makes you feel good đŸ„°
we are đŸ„°
*looks up at you and nods before taking one* did you enjoy it too?
hehe yes đŸ„°
me toooo
*opens the granola bar and takes a bite as i nod* yes baby, thank you
đŸ„°
okay baby, i love you ❀
i’m finishing getting ready for bed
im eating *giggles and eats my granola bar then puts it down*
why don’t you eat me instead😏
*smiles and kisses your cheek, turning to face you in your lap* thank you for the heating pad, i was just thinking about getting one
🙄🙄
*looks at it and smiles* aw that one is cuteeeee, hehe i like it
you were really hungry 😂
🙄
awwww, you are a sweetheart *smiles and kisses your lips*
lmaoo still? 😂
i didn’t do anything 😡
hmm i knew i should’ve started going to the library *giggles and takes another bite of my granola bar*
why nottttt :(
you didn’t make me food, you gave me a granola bar and i had a reason to roll my eyes 🙄
hehe i’ll come with you sometime, i should try to get into reading again *grins and puts it down* well if we’re done here, we should probably get dressed
oh 😂
no i won’t, i’ll cuddle with scarlett and lyla 😌
i have to find something interesting to read and we can get coffee if it doesn’t make you pxxp the entire time *giggles and gets up, grabbing my clothes*
lmaoo no it’s okay 😂
then im taking my hoodies back and my scrunchies and my perfume 😡
i knowwww *giggles and gets dressed before sitting down again* hehe you’re a cute little nerd
hehe we have to be comfortable with alot of things 😂 but since we are getting married now, we should talk about that.. like if we’re going to live together and when that’s going to happen? talk about our plans
😡
just like yours do when you talk about something new you’ve learned or a book your reading of one of your favorite shows like the one with chat noir *smiles and looks up at you*
yes, i just have to make arrangements with bedrooms
sorryyyyy
mhmmmm, i pay attentionnnnn *smiles and hugs you* ever since i’vd started dancing, i’ve always been passionate about it and it’s my favorite thing to do :)
seven kids in the house and mostly girls.. that’s scary
hehe good and you can have mine backkkkk đŸ„°
hehe i’ve always been that way, mean but in a playful way or i play fight sometimes too or things like that, i mostly played with my brothers growing up or mere but i didn’t really hangout with the twins since they’re older :)
you should come back sometime, i try to go there often when im not working and i have free time *smiles and looks up at you* when was the first and second time?
think about what it would be like to live in a house full of women
can i smell it now đŸ„°
i only do that with you or friends :) i might be a little more.. aggressive with my friends or my brothers and mere, but that’s just us 😂
okay :) im starting to get a little sleepy but i can probably stay a little longer when you come back ❀
aw baby *pouts a little and smiles wide as i hug you* im so in love with you, i fall in love more and more every single day
you’ll find out
im not saying it’s bad buttttt.. you’ll see 😂
*smiles as i lean in to smell your neck* mm you smell so good đŸ„°
im not surprised 😂
you’re not making me stay upppp, i’ll sleep soon
yeaaa i remember, but im not a professionallll *smiles and holds onto you*
what
nevermind, you’ll see for yourself later 😂 sooooo right now, ethan has his own room, the twins share a room, ella’s bedroom is downstairs but she either sleeps with ethan sometimes or she sleeps in lyla and scarletts room, but lyly and scarlett usually sleep with me
why’d you pat my head *giggles and looks at you*
yea well im mean 😂
oh.. OH *giggles and kisses you back* yea, i knew that
what
unless she wants to take the room meant for lyla and scarlett since they don’t sleep in there anyway, scarletts crib can be in our room and lyla can sleep in the bed or if she wants to sleep in one of the kid’s room during the night she can switch rooms, i’d just have to keep some of their stuff in that room like their clothes, but their toys can go in the basement and that can be the playroom
*rolls my eyes and giggles, shaking my head* oh shut upppp
yes i did *crosses my arms and playfully rolls my eyes* i was just trying to make sure you knew what you meant.. yea..
when’s my birthday
oh 😂
yea we’ll have to talk to them about that, about us getting married and you and hannah moving in
*looks up at you and sticks my tongue out at you*
whatttttt? im not.. okay maybe i am a little *giggles and blushes, looking up at you*
noooo
i think ella will be excited, ethan might not, lyla and scarlett are obviously too young to understand and im not sure about the twins.. i don’t know if they’ll fully understand it but i think mason might be okay, makenna will have to adjust.. how is your dad going to feel about you taking hannah.. if he lets you?
ahhhh *closes my mouth and giggles* i was not expecting you to do that
it was perfect *smiles and giggles, blushing more* you make me blushhhh
nooooo, if my birthday was in october i think you’d remember celebrating it recently 😂 i told you before we started dating cause my birthday was when i was still with the fxxking idiot
i think you should talk to him cause you can’t just take her, he is her parent and legal guardian
i know, sometimes when you mentioned meeting him i feel a little hesitant to
okay baby, sleep well and have a good nighttttt and a good day tomorrow, i love you so much and i’m always thinking about you my darling ❀❀❀❀
*looks up at you and pouts* a littleeee
i’m redder than a tomato *giggles and scrunches my nose a little when you kiss* rawrrrr
it’s okay, i just get a little clingy and needy sometimes :) but i know i haven’t been here alot either so i can’t be upset
you didn’t want me to be friends with him? :( it’s okay and.. you’re right, i do get lonely without kacy here or when you’re busy, i used to have a few friends but everyone left.. i do have a couple of other friends besides kacy but we don’t talk alot and our conversations are dry.. but thank you for trusting me, i know trusting others is hard, but he knows we’re together and respects that
okay good :)
oh.. :( no one can replace you
im sorry
you felt that way
i didn’t know you didn’t want me to be friends with him
i would never cheat :( i hxte cheaters
im sorry baby :(
oh
but that’s not true.. not at all :(
:(
yea.. but i understand why you feel that way :( the first guy i ever dated, we were together for two years in high school and he cheated on me :( so i understand why you would be afraid? why you feel that way, it sxxks
sometimes i am that way too, but i push the feeling aside cause i don’t want to get in the way of you or your happiness either
*looks up at you and nods* everyone has insecurities sadly, but that’s what makes us human? im sorry you went through that and you feel that way, but i promise that’s not true.. there’s nothing wrong with you, it’s them and they don’t deserve you
what others say shouldn’t matter, you are perfect the way you are and anyone who tries to say something about you, they’re wrong and they’re taking out their own problems and insecurities onto you and that’s not fair
*nods and kisses your cheek* it’s okay, they’re not in your life anymore for a reason and the only people who matter are hannah, your dad, your mom, me and the kids.. and even our opinions don’t matter, it’s all about you
yea.. i understand what you’re saying
*looks up at you and nods as i wrap my arms around you and sways with you* you can if you’re comfortable
mhm ❀
*nods and listens to you, holding your hand* it’s okay, societal standards sxxk but if you don’t meet them that doesn’t make you any less perfect than you are and if anyone has anything to say, it doesn’t matter because im the only person who gets to look at you and kiss you and be with you every single day and i love everything about you, all of your beauty and insecurities đŸ„°
*looks at you and smiles wide, kissing your cheek* i love you so much
im lucky to have you too baby
okay đŸ„°
i’m going to comment here now so we don’t scar alejandro 😂
*blushes deeply and grips your hair with my other hand* i-i’ll let y-you win
*giggles a little and whimpers as i slowly nod* m-mhm.. for now
noooo, i aalready said you won *glares at you and crosses my arms again* you are a tease 😠
yea yea *giggles softly and shakes my head* fxxking tease
*jumps a little and blushes, shaking my head* n-no sir.. you’re being naughty
oh yea? maybe you should make me gasp like that more oftennnnn *giggles and looks down at you, biting my lip*
o-oh yea.. we probably should *nods and stands up straighter*
*holds it and walks with you*
we can go to the dory fish now, i don’t have any other fish in mind
*holds your hand and walks with you* hmm the rainbow fish maybe
hmm i don’t know *looks at the tank and watches the fish as they swim around*
*nods and watches the fish* i think i cried too, but i don’t remember when
*continues to watch the fish and nods* sometimes i do
*whimpers and arches my back, gripping onto the bed sheets*
a-Aaron..! *moans louder as my walls stretch from your size, gripping the sheets tighter
*moans loudly with each thrust and rolls my eyes back as my juices splatter when your balls slap against my entrance*
mm y-yes sir *screams your name as my pxssy throbs, nodding a little as my legs begin to shake* i-i love being y-your little slxt
okay, i don’t know if i’ll be on very late tonight baby :) i love you ❀
y-yes sir *blushes as my legs shake, moaning your name as loud as i can* mm i-im going to c-cxm
*blushes and whimpers as i start to cxm with you*
*sighs softly and and lies down, letting my body relax*
*grins and nods, rubbing my stomach* yes, im okay
nooooo, i can handle anything and multiple rounds if i wanted to 😏 *giggles* i like when you’re rough
i do too *smiles and closes my eyes* thank you
*opens my eyes and glances down at the heating pad and smiles* yea it is cute
*looks at you and grins before closing mine* yes you did
*opens my eyes to look at you and nods* yes we do, if you want to
*grins and places a few kisses on your chest before closing my eyes* mm maybe water, but i’ll get it later
you don’t have to baby *opens my eyes and looks up at you*
okay *sits up and grabs my clothes to slip on before laying down again*
thank you *sits up and takes the water*
who? and of what? *takes a sip of my water*
hmm it sounds one-sided :( if he doesn’t know simple things about her how are they in a relationship?
is their relationship based on love or lust? I’ve had my share of relationships like this so i understand.. if she’s unhappy and if he isn’t putting in effort into their relationship, then maybe it shouldn’t be a relationship? especially if they don’t know anything, even simple facts about each other.. but they need to communicate
oh wow, maybe she needs to talk to him about how she feels?
well that’s a first
then she needs to do that
someone openly admitting to being jealous and wishing to have what i have
just.. be there for her, be her friend
she needs a friend
nođŸ€Šâ€â™€ïž you said she wanted to break up with him
so she reads our conversations?
i know, that’s why she needs a friend
it’s okay
she’d have to look on my bio to see what you say to me
me neither
maybe
oh
she did?
oh
yea
nothing, that’s just news to me
it seems like all of your friends like you
can’t blame them
yea
okay
a little
okay
*nods my head* no no i am, im fine
*nods and closes my eyes* okay, that’s fine
good morning handsome ❀
if i didn’t want to i would’ve said that *turns over on my side*
i slept fine, you?
okay good
i don’t have funny dreams
if i wasn’t i wouldn’t have said i wanted to
what about you
no.. what was i supposed to say?
okayy
okay
mm i don’t have any but that could change, you?
is it the paper you were talking about yesterday
is it a better group this time?
people are shixtty sometimes, you’ll find a good group
even adults, university is different from high school but sometimes people aren’t out of that mindset
mhm
i know they do, especially first yearsssss
no
i never knew you weren’t religious
oh wow
yea
yes?
no.. im just answering your questions or having a conversation with you.. am i supposed to respond with a paragraph to everything you say?
no, im okay.. i just don’t think everything requires more than one word responses when we’re just having a casual conversation.. if it’s something deeper or if we’re doing something then that’s different, but a normal conversation doesn’t always require alot of words if that makes sense?
or if it’s something simple, then a simple response is fine
but we can do something now, im free for the rest of the day unless something comes up.. but i doubt it
hmm how about.. we go to an arcade?
i do that when im upset too, if i do it constantly then i am, you’d be able to tell
i was earlier but im not upset now
it’s okay, i’ll pay for it :) it’ll be an arcade date
everyone seems to read me easily, i can’t tell if im hard to read or not 😂
it’s nothing worth talking about now
yes, it’s my treat. let’s goooo
oh yea, if that happened that would be very obvious
im sure, i don’t want to talk about it.. i don’t think there’s any point in talking about it now
hehe just like in the movies or shows, i’d hxte to have to be a meanie
but i’d love to at the same time
that too *giggles and grabs a jacket and my shoes*
i know, when im upset it’ll show by my actions or my expressions before i say anything
it happens when you’re not with me
i like to be a meanie
you didn’t lose itttt, you told me i could have it *smiles and puts my shoes on and grabs my phone and wallet*
i know, you’re always very caring :)
good
i know, we’re opposites 😂
you told me i could have themmmmm and iI didn’t take all of them so maybe you did lose some *grins and walks outside*
mhm
ouch 😂
no, you’re a teddy bear
i know, we’ve been so busy *holds your hand and walks to the car*
i know baby
i love teddy bears đŸ„°
mhmmm *grins and gets into the car, putting on my seatbelt afterwards*
rawr
mhm they do đŸ„°
*takes your hand and starts the car*
it’s random sometimes 😂
yes im always a meanie
*starts driving and shrugs* it’s alright, i didn’t do anything today.. im trying to stop myself from bed rotting and being sad
me too
im not a meanie to youuuuu
*shrugs a little and drives* no, im always working or doing something else
because i love youuuu
*nods and drives* yes.. but it’s hard and sometimes there’s no time to do anything else
noooooo
okay.. i do that 😂
*parks once we get there and unbuckles* that doesn’t work for me
whatever
that’s why i don’t draw
okay, we can try *gets out of the car and waits for you*
yea, your dancing sxxks
no, i don’t care for drawing
me too *grins and takes your hand* thanks
i love parties
thanks *walks inside and waits for you*
aw :) it seemed like you had fun when we were at the club
i know *grins and looks around before walking to the front desk*
yeaaaa and we only got so much attention because we were dancing, im always bringing attention to myself 😂
you were great when we went out :) i don’t go to parties unless im with someone else
*asks for a game card and pays for it*
only when you focus on it for toooo longgggg
i like to cuddle with you when i sleep
it’s okay if you don’t like going out, i have friends i can out with when i want to party :)
*grabs our card and turns to you* ready to play?
no 😡
ewwwww
oh yea i forgot about that :(
*holds your hand and comes with you* ahhhh
whattttt
hmph
wow :(
im cominggggg *walks over to the game with you and swipes the card*
😡
hm im sorry :( i cant say anything.. thats how i cope with my breakups
im cominggggg *smiles and sits down beside you*
mhm good
yea that’s not good at all :( i hope he continues to improve and turn it around for you and hannah
*shrugs and looks at the characters* i don’t play games very often, maybe i’ll choose one of the princesses.. orrrrr the mushroom guy
whateverrrr
that could be a reason
if that’s what you thinkkkkk *selects my character* ready?
rawr
it’s okay love, i understand it
okay *presses ready on my end and smirks* let’s see who winssss
that’s good, he’s trying to be better :) grief is hard and it changes people
uh huh *looks at the screen and holds the wheel, pressing down on the petal once the game starts*
yea.. but it’s better than not trying at all?
*pushes down on the pedal and concentrates, dodging the other players in front of me*
yea :(
noooo *pouts a little and dodges the shell but swerves a little as someone else passes me* i’ll get you
okay :( goodnight, i love you ❀
and it’s okay :) you’re welcome
*giggles and gets one of the power ups, using it to go faster*
*gasps and swerves out of the way and presses down on the pedal*
whatever *pouts and gets another power up and uses it*
ahhhhh *laughs and tries to move out of the way*
what happened
whatever *passes it in third place* i was closeeee
my day is fine :) i miss you and i love you too ❀
why
me too *grins and stands up* where to next?
mm i don’t know it off the top of my head
that’s her fault
i don’t want you to let me win *looks around then points* let’s play the basketball game
search itttt
grrrrrr
*walks over with you and nods* yes i am, are you?
doing what 😏
grr
*looks at it and shakes my head* this? mm no *waits for the people in front of us to finish their round then swipes the card*
no you’re not
grrrrrrrr
hmm *looks around then picks up a ball and throws it inÂŁ
mhmmmm
GRRRRRR
*throws the next one in and tries to concentrate*
i was working so i couldn’t look, i’ll look now
i knowww
what *picks up a ball and looks at you* why are you laughing?
i had a sxcky day today, im so tired
im not meowing
*looks at you then throws the ball into the hoop* i made itttt *grabs another ball and throws it*
yea :(
*watches then grabs another ball to throw in and makes it*
no
*grins and steps back to look at the score* i could’ve done betterrrr
cuddles
you pick, it’s your turn *grabs the card*
no snacks
okay baby *holds your hand and walks with you*
*grins and goes into your arms*
*holds your hand and follows you*
but i like surprises *giggles and smirks a little then looks at you* are you comfortable?
*looks up at you and giggles* when have i not liked it hmm?
*walks over and scans the card* i’ll watch you
yeaaaa you’re right *lays my head on your chest*
*stands back and watches you*
thank you, i bought a new shampoo *nods and closes my eyes*
*watches quietly so i don’t distract you*
thanks, so do you *plays with the end of my shirt* you always do
*watches quietly and silently cheers for you*
yes, im okay *continues to play with my shirt a bit then shakes my head* no, im okay
you were really good, i was cheering for you quietly *takes your hand*
*opens my eyes and shakes my head avain* i don’t want to sleep
*holds your hand and looks around* hmm.. there’s a dancing game around here somewhere
*shrugs a little and lays on your chest* im a little tired.. i don’t know if im upset about anything
*looks around the points* over there *holds your hand and leads you to the game*
*nods and looks at you* thanks, that means alot
baby, thank you for that paragraph đŸ„ș
i love you so so so so much
it did make me smile and make me happy ❀
you mean alot to me
im always thinking about you too đŸ„°
have a great day today my love ❀
i love you more than words can express ❀❀❀❀❀
mhm and it’s easy, we have to follow the arrows on the screen *swipes the card for both of us and stands on the platform in my spot*
i wish i felt that way, i feel like i’m doing alot but not enough at the same time *shrugs a little and closss my eyes again*
i’d rather think about you than anything else in the world
that’s weird, have you tried deleting the app and downloading it again?
its almost friday baby :)
*looks through the songs and modes* we can do something easy *picks one*
*nods and relaxes* yea..but its not a great feeling
oh hmm
yes
i’m sorry iI wasn’t hereeee, something happened yesterday and i wanted to die from embarrassment
i needed some time, but im okay.. i miss you ❀
hmm how about a nikki song? starships? its like just dance *smiles and looks at the screen* ready?
what do you mean? *frowns a little and looks at you* with me?
mm i have plans to go to an event a friend of mine is hosting tomorrow, but that’s it
yea, its a long story and im still not completely over it
im okay right now, talking to you and being with you is better than letting it take over my mind
just dance is a little easier *presses the button to start and watches the arrows on the screens, making sure to step on the corresponding arrows*
*sits up a little and looks at you* you have a kind heart and you’re very.. empathetic and that has pros and cons to it. you’re not always going to be able to solve problems for others or yourself or always be able to help others in the way that you want to. sometimes.. problems have to be solved on their own, you can help as much as you can but there won’t always be a solution to problems and that’s.. that’s the way of life? i had to learn that i can’t solve everything and i have to let it go and let it be handled on its own? just because you can’t fix it, doesn’t make you a failure
its nothing biggggg, its a birthday celebration but its a dinner
i knowwww, its normal to have embarrassing moments.. but it sxxks when it happens
i know love, you’re always helping me and i feel bad
*watches the screen and concentrates on the movements, following along*
i know, you always feel like you’re obligated to help everyone and to make sure they’re okay *nods and looks at you* i know i haven’t been in the best mood lately, i can’t wait for winter to be over.. but has that been tiring you? feeling like you have to help me all of the time?
hmm nothing specific, i guess it’ll be nice to go out and do something :)
because you’re always helping meeee, there’s always something wrong with me
*continues to concentrate and follows along with the screen, singing along quietly*
i’m sorry if im tiring you out, i guess thats why i try not to show it or talk about when im upset because you feel obligated to help me alot and its obviously tiring you :( but i appreciate your help alot *nods and looks at you* you do help more than you think, i know i might not show it.. but even just talking to you helps alot, it makes my day better and it gives me something to look forward to after a long day, talking to you and being in your arms *wraps my arms around you to hug you and rests my head against your chest* yea, we met in the summer so you haven’t seen this side of me.. i get bad seasonal depression so the winter months are always hard for me and this year there are other things such as work and life effecting it. but i don’t want you to feel like you have to always take care of me and make me happy if it’s exhausting you this much, i know you have school to focus on too and i don’t want to burden you or cause you extra stress
mhmmmm :)
i know, but i still feel bad
whattttt? it’s not that hard *smirks and continues to dance*
okay, i love you toooo and i hope you have a great day too ❀
yes i do
it means alot to me to know that you care about me so much, i care about you too.. alot *grins and holds your hand, intertwining our fingers* that’s why i love you so much
thanks :) and im here to help you too if you need it
*giggles and gets off once the song finishes and watches our scores* watching you dance is always funny
*shakes my head and smiles* it’s okay and.. that’s a good thing :) just because we’re engaged doesn’t mean we can’t still melt at the sight of each other or feel butterflies, our love should always be strong for each other
yes?
*rolls my eyes and giggles*whateverrr, what game next?
*looks up at you and blushes* i still get butterflies when i think about you or talk to uou
^and im glad weee comfortable with each other and we can communicate :) thats why our relationship is so strong
yessss you can’t
can
*takes your hand and looks around* hmm we could try another racing game? i’m getting you back 😡
because i fall in love with you each time i see you, you still make me nervous sometimes.. the same feeling i felt when we reallyyyy started talking talking.. that feeling doesn’t go away when you really love someone, when you’re in love with someone
the typo wouldn’t make sense😂
*takes your hand and goes to my room, laying on my bed before opening my arms* come onnnn
yes we will đŸ„°
mhm and that’s why im always all over you and want to touch you and be around you *smiles and looks up at you before pecking your lips* you smell very good by the way
shut up blah blah
oh shhhhh *giggles and wraps my arms around you, holding you close to me*
ahhhh we’re a cute couple đŸ„°
yea because you’re mineeee and i have the special privilege of being touchy with you *smiles and looks up at you then nods* mhm, i can smell the caramel
don’t give me attitude blah blah
better? *grins and holds you, running my fingers through your hair*
earlier you mentioned your ex coming back and then you didn’t say anything else about it? did she message you?
that might be whyyyyy, you always smell like caramel or vanilla *smiles and looks at you* or strawberries, you like strawberry scents alone
but im cuddling you right now 😏
oh wow..
were you snooping? đŸ€š
i agree, men’s perfume is very strong *nods and looks at you* your lips taste like strawberry sometimes too or caramel when you have your drink
NO
*kisses your head and plays with your hair a bit, humming softly*
thennnn
. do it ;)
yea that was in august
oh okay
shh shh *puts my fingers to your lips and looks up at you* enough talking.. or stuttering *giggles and moves my finger then kisses your lips*
i am niceeee
*continues to play with you hair and grins as i hum softly* good, im glad your comfortable
no and im curious to see what you got me
mhmm
it does make me feel a little uneasy due to the circumstances. but i don’t hxte her or have anything against her, i don’t like that she hurt you but that wouldn’t be a good enough reason to send her anything hxteful
if it were the other ex’s who purposefully hurt you the way they did, i’d definitely send them a hxte list without any hesitation
*smiles against your lips and pulls back to look up at you*that’s much better
i can show you mean
are you warm? cozy? *looks down at you and grins*
that’s perfect
that’s great to hear :)
i want you to do whatever you want to do
good
i had to get you to stop talking *giggles and rests my head against your chest* and i wanted a kiss
mhm 😌
*tilts my head a bit and blushes, smiling softly* good, i don’t want either of us to leave
mm okay but you have to give me the lingerie so i can put it on 😂
iwwill always defend you :)
okay
*giggles and looks up at you* you’re always that way when you’re around me
very mean, i would t mind making someone cry
*watches you and pouts* what? where are you going?
hmm do you want me to put it on first or take the suit off of you first? 😏
i like that idea
it’s okay, i think it’s cute when you do that *smiles and presses my lips to your chest, leaving soft kisses*
mhm
you always do that *pouts more and frowns, crossing my arms*
oh yea, i don’t doubt that *giggles and goes to your closet to grab the lingerie and looks at it as i take it out* oooh this one is very revealing, you’re not going to be able to control yourself
*smiles and blushes when you rest your forehead on mine and smiles* hehe thank you
*continues to pout and looks away* hmph i don’t forgive you meanie
it’s okay
oh i know *smirks and goes into the bathroom to change*
*looks up at yours and giggles softly, smiling when you rub your nose on mine* it’s funny when you look at my eyes while we’re this close
*tries not to smile and shakes my head* no
*takes off my clothes and gets changed into the lingerie, looking at myself in the mirror afterwards*
*looks up at you and giggles as i nod* yes, it looks funny *watches you then sticks out my tongue and lxcks yours*
*looks at you and blushes a bit, trying not to fold*
hehe really đŸ„°
*opens the door to the bathroom and peaks out* are you ready?
kiss a frog? ewwww *giggles then looks at you* im kidding, i willlll
mhmmmm until you pretend to leave me.. multiple times *pouts more and looks at you*
aw haha :) but why were you an elf? that seems to be common with people im with😂
*slowly opens the door and walks out of the bathroom, walking into your room*
*kisses you back and blushes, smiling wide* i love you so much
*looks at you and squints my eyes* you’re just like the kids, they give me that same look.. and it might work sometimes
hmm i’ve never read it.. but i don’t read 😂 but im trying to now, i like romance and mystery
a couple of them did 😂
thank you love *smiles and stops once im in front of you and looks at you* you look very handsome in that/785
suit^
*taises an eyebrow and looks at you* the shadow man?
*blushes more and bites my lip* mm you’re making it very hard to stay mad at you
we can :)
me too 😂 hmm.. the weather is very colddddd today
oh i don’t doubt it *smiles and blushes, looking up at you* thank you
oh *looks down at my palm and grins* what movie is it?
mmhmm *tilts my head a bit and closes my eyes* im trying so hard not to fold
let’s take it a step a time 😂
what
mere is in laborer
labor^
*giggles and grabs your hand to pull you up* you have to stand up first
oh *nods and grins* i haven’t seen that movie in a long long time
not when you’re being a meanie to me *rolls my eyes and grins* fine
i know
yes
i’m surprised you haven’t seen my bio all weekenddddd and told me how pretty i am, everyone else has already done the job 🙄
it’s okay, i love you ❀
have a good dayyyyy
why don’t you focus on that then hm?
it’s okay, i know you are *grins and looks up at you for a moment before starting to unbutton it^ i almost don’t want to take it off
hmm maybe i will *looks at you then nods* yes
not always *shrugs and grins* i forgive youuuuu
good
im not opposed to the idea *grins as i unbutton it and starts pulling it off* our wedding day will be fun
*kisses you back and grins* so do you
i love and miss you too ❀
i think im going to go to bed now, nighttttt. i love you
yes and no *shrugs a little and sits on the bed*
i know, my hands are always cold.. it sxxks *looks down at my hands*
it’s okay
*looks down at you then shrugs* i guess so
i know.. but the reason behind it is not a good thing *frowns a little then shrugs and grins* i guess that’s a pro
no it’s not stress *shakes my head and looks at you*
*lets go of your hands and starts playing with my fingers a bit* being cold all of the time is a symptom of..
*looks at you and shrugs* im just not in that mood anymore, i think i should get changed into my clothes now, it’s cold
*shakes my head* no, not depression
you can help if you’d like *looks at you and grins a little* okay
*looks at you then shakes my head* not because of weather
*shrugs and looks at you* i want to change
*frowns and shakes my head* no.. eating disorder
oh, i didn’t know *looks at you and grins a little*
*nods and looks at our hands then looks at you* no..
sometimes :) *grabs them and starts getting dressed* thanks
*tilts my head a bit and raises an eyebrow*mm tempting
mm maybe a little sometimes *grins and lays back*
*looks up at you for a moment then shakes my head* im not going to do it
*shakes my head* you don’t have to stop, its who you are and i love you who you are
you can pretend you don’t like it, but i know you do *looks at you and grins* kinky
they’re cute, you’re the only person i know who uses them often 😂
what are they? *looks at you*
you’re funny.. sometimes
*listens to you and nods* oh hm.. i used to get acrylics all of the time but i don’t do it so often anymore.. those are all good to knowwww ;)
i do have toys 😏 i mostly use them when i need to satisfy myself though, the real thing is better 😂
except the rose, that is magical đŸ˜©
you’re funny
yea your right and im used to the male being in control and being dominant, i used to be able to take control sometimes but i cant anymore, i don’t know how since i wasn’t “allowed” to i guess and dominance is a big turn on for me *nods and plays with the strings on the hoodie* yea and when theyre long, its hard to do certain things and it feels weird to take them off. self care is rare when you’re a parent, you’re always focus on taking care of the kids rather than yourself
yea
because they’re AWESOME, it might just be betterrrrr
nowwww ihave to find it
good luck, i love you :)
thank you for the spam
i have a little bit of time now before i have to go
i said sometimessss
you’re always nervous around me so it must be working *grins and looks at the ceiling* i know, i love being a mother but its hard sometimes and i have to play both roles *looks down at my arm* lyla bit me the other day and before that she threw her cup at me
i love my rose toy
this is starting to put me in that mood, ihave to go 😂
for what
that’s good, you’ll do great :)
okay, will you be on after?
no
i know *giggles softly then looks at my wrist and nods* she was throwing a tantrum, it’s common for things like that to happen at her age
who wouldn’t?
hahahahahahhahahahaha
oh i will 😏
mhm
you better
or i’ll give you the silent treatment
teddy will eat it
i know that *nods and looks at you* i don’t know how to explain how im feeling sometimes, maybe i need to start biting people and throwing things at them 😂
and men who feel like the rose is taking their girlfriend from them 😂
hahahahahahahahahahaha
yea you owe me cause you disappeared on me the other night 🙄
teddy told me he agrees with me
i do the second thing when im really really really REALLY maddddd, but that rarely happens *nods and looks at you* i guess you’re rightttt, my face says it all
yea take notes
maybe
i’ll think about forgiving you
teddy LOVES me
i don’t think you would unless you really push me to that point, but i don’t think you would *shakes my head and looks at you* maybe if someone else makes me angry and im in a heated argument or something similar to that and you or someone else is trying to interfere or calm me down, i might be hostile towards you but not because of you.. i hope that makes sense
no not you, they do and they should take notes from you
sometimes the jokes are bad but that’s what makes them funny, but you are the kindest, the smartest, the funniest, the handsomest :)
it’s not you, it’s me
everyone doesn’t love me 😂
hehe it does
everyone gets angryyyyy, yelling is how some of us express our anger *shrugs*
don’t tell me, tell them 😂
yes
depending on the mood im in, i get irritated easily or when you do things i don’t like
okay everyone 😂
i have to go now, i love you so much ❀ i will talk to you tonightttt
it’s one of my favorites
ouch, that would bother me alotttt
lmaoo 😂
i did not know that
i don’t know why, i don’t have alot of patience
i guess 😂
i had alot of fun
BABY
YOURE HERE
just in time 😏
im making a new bio
good, now i have you all to myself for the night đŸ„°
yes, im about to post
im sorry, is everything okay? :(
I NEED S CAPTIONNNN
what? i thought he was doing better? what happened to your family times and change changing his behavior?
yea, that’s not good
that’s what im doing, i have to find one
im sorry :( that’s not something any child wants to hear and that’s not an excuse for him to be this way towards you and hannah
i’ll wait to post since you’re upset right now
he’s an aƟƟhxle
are you sure
i don’t want to post if you’re not a good mood :(
maybe :(
okay
that’s fxxking insane
it’s okay
if he told her, she would’ve left his aƛƛ
no, it’s okay
what? why do you say that? that’s not true :(
what he says isn’t true and i wouldn’t listen to anything an aƛƛ like him has to say, especially now.. he has shown who he truly is
he’s not a man, not a mature one
you shouldn’t have to do any of that, he is the father and he chose to be one.. it’s not your responsibility to do everything he should be doing and him being shixtty isn’t your fault, it’s his own for being a shixt human being
i wouldn’t, he doesn’t deserve it
*nods and frowns opening my arms for you* you don’t deserve someone like him but you deserve to have a good father in your life, especially now.. im sorry he’s the opposite of that :( i know how it feels, it sxxks..
you don’t have to apologize and i don’t expect you to always be pulled together, everyone falls apart sometimes.. that’s a part of being a human
*wraps my arms around you and hugs you* just remember it’s not your fault, it’s not you.. it’s him and his shixtty personality, your family doesn’t deserve any of the pain he caused
yea
*holds you close to my chest and rubs your back*
*rubs your back and kisses your head* im really sorry you have to go through this baby
i don’t understand why some men and women have kids when they don’t want them *shakes my head*
maybe *shrugs* but by the way he’s talking.. i don’t know
hey, it’s okay love.. everyone breaks down sometimes, you don’t have to pretend you’re always alright when you’re not, you don’t have to pretend with me. im glad you’re feeling better today
it’s okay baby and you’re welcome, i understand how it feels and im sorry you have to go through it :(
where
*grins and wraps mine around you to hug you* so do i
oh
i’ve been alright, today wasn’t bad.. i just got home from the gym a little while ago *grins a little and looks at you*
hmm you can come sometime, i go a few times a week *grins and hugs* i ended early today, i was tired and didn’t feel good
*looks away from you and shrugs* i don’t know.. maybe a little
*shakes my head* i don’t want pasta right now
*shrugs a little and looks around for a moment* let’s hangout and do something
i had something this morning
i’ll be fine, my appetite is just going to go away anyway *shrugs and takes your hand* what should we do?
fine, i’ll eat a grape
half
1/4
it’s okay, sometimes i need that push.. especially now after knowing about the disorder, it brings me down a bit and i don’t try sometimes. sometimes i really don’t have an appetite or feel nauseous when i think about eating, even if i haven’t eaten anything all day and that still has an effect on me, making me feel lightheaded and weak.. so sometimes i need that push
then you left after that and i thought you got tired of me, sorry for being so stubborn :(
*widens my eyes when i see the bouquet and smiles wide, starting to blush* w-what is this? đŸ„ș are you proposing to me again?
okay, that makes me feel a little better :)
this is.. wow this is beautiful *blushes and looks down at you, smiling wide as i nod* yes!
okay
*smiles and takes the bouquet, setting it down before hugging you* good cause i love them and i love you
it’s very cute baby *grins and kisses your cheek* i wasn’t expecting any of it
i might actually look forward to valentines day for the first time in a while
that just made me so happy *smiles wide and looks at you*
it sssms like it’ll be worth looking forward to this year, i hope :)
aw đŸ„ș *pouts a little and smiles, picking up the bouquet and looks for somewhere to put it* im going to keep this forever and ever
yes because i have you and you doing this.. i wasn’t expecting it, but i have a feeling it’ll be good
yes *puts them down and walks back over to you* what do you want to do tonight
i usually dont go anything on valnentines day, i buy the kids small gifts every year :) usually a little stuffed animal and candy and coloring book
yes i do *smiles and nods, taking your hands and looks up at you with a small smirk* mm i like that idea
you want a color book? i can give you oneeee :)
*smirks and thinks, looking around* hmm.. wherever, i just want youuuu
what
*holds your hand and walks with you* you always want to see me begggg
they’re all pretty flowers :)
you always make me beg *pouts a little and grins, looking up at you when you take off your shirt and blushes* ooooohh
why
nothing.. i just like looking at you, you’re very hot, very handsome *smiles and looks up at you* i want you nowwww
they are pretty :)
aw :)
you’re welcome *smiles and kisses you back, laying back on the table*
awwww :)
oh okay.. goodnight, i love you :)
*blushes and gasps softly as i watch you* i liked these pantssss
i believe that :)
no, it’s okay
mhm you better, you’re always ripping my clothes *grins and blushes*
im fine
i’ll just watch a movie
good morning
mm i think it’s hot how effortlessly you do it, i’m going to have to wear clothes i like the least around you *grins and watches you, allowing you to spread them*
i’m okay, you?
you don’t see me in dresses anyway unless its a special occasion, you’re not missing anything *shrugs and looks up at you, biting my lip* you know i always am
i am too
im a mess when you’re in me *blushes and looks at you* yea? have you been waiting to use that?
*smirks and watches you* oh yea? are you going to want to fxxk me in a dressing room? that’d be scandalous and i like scandalous 😏
i just saw a video.. 😳
yea i k-kn.. *gasps softly when you push yourself in and moans softly as my walls stretch*
it was on tiktok 😳
someone posted a pov with the caption saying she’s talking to much so i make her be quiet and you can see when the guy shoves his.. 😳
m-mm.. f-fxk *moans and arches my back a bit, gripping your arm for support*
oh yea.. i think its hot too hehe thats why i like to say make me but no one ever does 😏 but i wasnt expecting to see that.. on tiktok 😂
*moans louder, digging my nails into your arm* mm d-don’t stop
yea.. i’d expect that on twitter, everything is on twitter 😳
hehe
y-you make me f-feel so.. g-good *moans loudly as my eyes roll back, smirking at the sound of your balls repeatedly slapping against my pxssy*
good idea or else you might see someone’s sxxtape 😂
how would you shut me up
i think crooked smiles are cuteeee
i-i haven’t had you inside of me i-in a while *breathes heavily and whimpers softly as i feel you release*
i’d shut me up
yes
mhm..i’ve been needing it for a little while*blushes and lets my legs relax, looking up at you*
how sweet
we’re definitely opposites
i get it :) it doesn’t make you any less handsome
mm *sits up and wraps the blanket around myself* i think i’ll go take a shower
yea :)
yes
everyone does, everyone sees something in themselves they think is bad or they’re insecure about even though they’re perfect the way they are, i think it’s because we’re so used to ourselves and our features, we don’t see the beauty others see
you’re welcome to join me *slides off of the table and keeps the blanket wrapped around me*
no, why?
yes?
yea that’s why :)
*goes upstairs to the bathroom and turns the water on*
they’re not shortttt
of course i am.. are you still in love with me..?
maybe we can watch a movie afterwards *puts the blanket down and steps into the shower*
shut up 😂
oh okay.. you worried me.. especially when you questioned me
*grabs the body wash and starts to wash my body* i don’t know yet
shut up
im sorry you had that dream.. i would be worried too :( that just scared me a little.. you asking me that, i got worried for a moment.. sometimes i worry you might be falling out of love with me and that really scares me too..
especially now.. since the wedding didn’t work and were busy and sometimes it feels like we don’t get to talk, not much and it worries me and i don’t know.. i don’t want it to happen again
what’s wrong *frowns a little and washes my body*
mm no
i don’t know.. maybe because of my stubbornness or my inability to talk about how i feel sometimes.. or if im annoying.. or if you just decide you don’t love me anymore
yea.. things felt different since that happened, a little more distant
because you’re quiet and you didn’t join me, so something is up *rinses the soap off of my body*
i don’t want cookies
*looks up at you and grins a little before playing with my fingers* that really does mean alot.. it still makes me worry though.. because i’ve heard all of that before and it still ended badly
an hourrrr doesn’t feel like a long time, especially if responses are slow :( we wouldn’t be able to do bathing
anything
oh sorry.. *nods and rinses all of the soap off then turns off the water* i didn’t think i was being short.. i don’t know *gets out and grabs a towel* hm
tempting
*looks down at the ring and nods* yea.. and i guess i was just really looking forward to getting married and i don’t know *shrugs and plays with my fingers*
i guess it’s better than nothing
me? oiled up? *looks up at you and grins a little* freaky
your hoodies?
it’s okay.. i understand you’re busy.. *nods and plays with my fingers* are you sure.. you’re not too busy? you sure you don’t need to just focus on school? this isn’t too much..?
it’s okay
*rolls my eyes and grins a little, walking out of the bathroom*
yes you can *grins and grabs it, walking over*
no, i think it’s intimate *stands still and watches you as you do, chewing on my bottom lip a bit*
mm i can do that *blushes a bit and arches my back for you*
*looks down at you for a moment and blushes more, slowly spreading them*
sorry, i didn’t see it
a little bit.. i don’t want you to stress yourself out if school is alot, i know you really want to be a nurse and if you don’t have the time or if it seesss you out, i don’t want to get in the way.. or im just afraid you’ll fall out of love or leave anyway *shrugs and looks down, running my hands through my hair*
n-nothing *shakes my head and blushes, avoiding eye contact with you*
*looks up at you and nods* okay.. i just.. i don’t.. i don’t know
*bites my lip and looks at you, blushing deeply* oh really? i thought you were done with that
*nods a little* it’s just hard to believe when i was told that and if still happened.. especially after i get engaged to someone everything changes, i never make it to the marriage part and i guess that’s why i really really wanted it to happen, i don’t know
i did.. i do *looks at you and nods* i thought you were done after the first one so i just took a shower
*nods and sighs, playing with my fingers* i don’t.. i don’t know, i never thought he would do that and he’s not the only one who has done that to me *looks down*
i was fine with the first option, i just meant i didn’t know if you were still in the mood for more.. i don’t know, i’ll stop talking *looks at you and shrugs* i can do that if you want
i hope not, i never want to see him again or go through that again *looks up at you and grins a little, nodding* im glad we are
i told you what i wanted to do *looks at you for a moment*
yes
he doesn’t matter anymore, you are important to me and our relationship.. what we have is special *grins and looks at you* we have a healthy, loving relationship
i just meant.. what i was trying to say is i was still in the mood afterwards, didn’t really finish.. but i thought you weren’t anymore so i just decided to take a shower, i didn’t know you were still in the mood.. i wasn’t going to say anything cause i didn’t think you wanted to continue, i don’t know.. i never say anything when im in the mood, i just take care of myself. im talking alot now.. i hope that makes it clearer *shrugs a little and goes into the bedroom*
yea.. iguess so.. i still feel bad
okay.. goodnight, i love you.. good luck tomorrow :) i think i’ll try to get some sleep, i don’t know who imfeeling irgtrnow
it’s the healthiest relationship i’ve ever had too *looks down as you stroke my knuckles and nods* i do too, im glad we can make it work
i talk too much sometimes about nothing *holds your hands and grins a little* you can never get enough of me
hm :( okay
good morning..
i think im okay now..
wouldn’t that be hard? being around someone you’re in love with when they’re not in love with you *tilts my head a bit and looks up at you* you’d still stay?
well.. yes *grins and looks at you as i nod* yea i do :) sometimes i just talk and talkkkkk, but you love it and that makes me feel better
but.. that’s why i think it’s too much, you have alot going on with school and with your dad and.. you need my support more than i need yours, i don’t want to add to the stress and problems you already have
no.. last night.. i was..
it would be torture for me too.. even if i didn’t realize it after the time *nods and sits down* especially if you lost feelings after i fell for you or if you found someone new, that would be torture
okay.. i just don’t want to make it worse.. :( hmm, have you saved up anything? or have a friend you can go to?
^ or other family? an aunt? uncle?
i had a rough night.. a little while after you left i started feeling.. bad, i didn’t know what was wrong but i wanted.. i was tempted..
it was late.. i tried to message kacy and ophelia.. someone :( but im okay now.
because it would’ve been too late and i would’ve had to live with that regret.. *shrugs a little then nods* yes, i love your cuddles
where’s all of your family? :(
no..
i guess.. i called my mom.. she came over to stay with me until i was okay, her boyfriend came too and helped
*nods and holds your hand, fidgeting with your rings* i didn’t want anyone else to get the special attention you gave me
okay, have a good day today :) i love you and i’ll be thinking about you too ❀
that doesn’t mean you can’t contact them
it’s okay.. i got through it
*shakes my head* i wouldn’t do that, i wouldn’t just use you for your attention like that
really? đŸ„ș
*grins and shakes my head* i didn’t mind at all and that’s it’s
cute^
baby đŸ„°
what do you want to do *looks at you*
you did that for me đŸ„ș
hmm okay *giggles and looks up at you, puckering my lips*
that made me happy, really happy :)
*looks at you and nods* yes i have, i got help when i needed it and i ate something yummy :)
and ive been nice to you^
because i like to talk to you
*gasps and smiles* two? i get two kisses *smiles and giggles softly, getting comfortable in your lap*
yes
*smiles and gently kisses you back, loosely wrapping my arms around your neck*
mhm :)
*smiles and looks at you once i pull away* hehe first kiss done
thanks
*blushes and smiles* you still owe me one more kisssss
no
*looks down at your hand and blushes more then looks up into your eyes*
yes
*keeps my eyes on you and bites my bottom lip, giggling softly* you’re making me nervous
no
because.. you’re looking at me like thatttt and you have your hand on my neck *grins and blushes*
i want to talk to you.
it feels more intense.. *smiles and looks at you* now give me my other kisssss
it’s okay
*giggles softly and presses mine to yours, kissing you softly*
it’s okay, i’ll just go to sleep
sweeter than last time? what do i taste like? *plays with the chain around your neck*
not everytime.. but we do always talk late during the week
honey? that’s new *nods and continues to play with your necklace* oh really?
okay, goodnight.. sleep well, i love you :)
yea and im exhausted after the day.. its okay
maybe, i do have cherry lip balm *nods and lets go of your necklace* id hope no one else is doing that
i know
it’s not even just seasonal depression, it’s depression in general.. and i know, im just exhausted now most of the time and alot has changed for me in the last few months, i don’t always have alot of energy now
i guess im not as happy as i used to be, im low on energy, more tired, more irritable sometimes, i get upset easily.. i don’t know
okay..
*nods and rests my head against your chest* that is something a mother would do
yea, that’s why im medicated
and that’s why sometimes i just want to drink until i black out or get high or.. whatever, it’s a coping mechanism.. i wanted to so badly last night
yes it is
but you’re not a burden
you’re the opposite of a burden, sometimes i get sad because i don’t get to talk to you or spend enough time with you sometimes or we start something and don’t get to finish because one of us leaves or.. i don’t know, especially since the wedding situation i’ve just been more.. irritable i guess:(
i know baby *closes my eyes* she’s always with you and she knows how much you love and miss her
i know it’s not the best idea and i still do it anyways.. but i’ve been trying to stay away from smoking and edibles, i’ve been doing a good job but im tempted to sometimes and i almost gave in
it’s okay, we’re just.. busy people right now
i’d love to meet her *grins and opens my eyes, lifting my head up* especially if she’s just like you
thanks.. i wish i felt that way.. i might give in soon
yea :)
good *grins and kisses the corner of your lips* what should we do now?
i know.. but it’s not that easy, i can’t make it go away just like that
i know
i don’t know what to dooooo *grins and shrugs, starting to play with your chain again* im not decisive
i’ve done worse
i’ll comment here now 😂
*moans a little louder and grips your other arm as my juices soak your fingers*
*tries to keep my legs from closing and moans louder as i start to squirt all over your hand*
*bites my lip and blushes, looking up at you* hehe t-there are pros to having big fingers 😏
you shhhh, you’re the naughty one and you know you love this pxssy 😏 *giggles and pulls up my pants and underwear*
okay handsome, i love you ❀ talk to you laterrrr
hey *gasps and playfully pushes you* and you still enjoy every bit of it
mhm i know you doooo *giggles and playfully rolls my eyes* i don’t say anything about you when i give you head
i wanted to take a nap while i have a break but i think my mind needs a cleansing 😅
hehe im going to tell you about it
hehe im sorry for this
i don’t know why im so hxrny all of a sudden today 😅
more than usual
and i came across old conversations as i was reading and that didn’t help 😅
i was just imagining you shoving your big dxck into my pxxsy and pounding me so hard and so fast i won’t be able to walk for a month đŸ˜©
going so deep you hit my spot repeatedly, going past my cervix and my screams filling the entire house.. or wherever we do it 😳
my pxxsy throbbing from how hard you’re pounding đŸ˜©
and the sound of your balls slapping repeatedly against my wet pxssy đŸ˜©đŸ˜©
so deep i can feel it in my stomach 😏
you saying “who’s pxxsy is this?“ as you pound and pound and claim what’s yours 😏
and make me your little slxt 😏
and the orgasxm đŸ˜©
ay dios mio đŸ˜©
.. i had to get it out 😂
i think i should try to take my nap 😂
YOU’RE HERE
OH.. i can explain 😅
no, i do like when you talk me through it *nods and looks at you* i didn’t mean to shush you like that
i was thinking about deleting all of that afterwards 😂
i know it’s alot
there’s no where else or anyone else i could say that to, i had to get it out of my system 😅
lmaoo
what do you think 😅
i can just uh.. i don’t know
you opened it in class? 😳
yea :)
you have my consent
*nods and kisses your cheek* sorry
okay, i have ti go anyways i love you
oops, i won’t do it again
i’ll release my thoughts another wayyyyy
yes?
i think i said that because you had stopped, but i’ll remember that next time
you had stopped to talk^
yea
how did it make you uncomfortable?
why’d you continue
okay
okayyyy
okay
yea i noticed that
if you don’t want to do it anymore then just stop, you don’t have to continue because of me
and why would you ask me for my consent to do something if you weren’t going to do it or didn’t want to do it anyway
or not tell me sooner before i started saying all of that other stuff
okay
imesordyi made you feel that way, next time i won’t say that and i’ll also keep my.. thoughts and those feelings to myself
ehhhh
nothing
okay
i loce you too
ehhhhh
mm i don’t know if i want to talk
yea, im talking to ophelia right now
no
okay, i loce you
*moans and keeps a grip on the sheets as i feel my walls stretch when you thrust*
*moans a little louder and arches my back* m-mm s-so much baby..
*moans louder and grips the sheets tighter as my toes curl from the pressure* f-fxxk it feels s-so good đŸ˜©
*smirks a bit and moans your name loudly as my eyes roll back*
*screams in pleasure as my pxssy throbs when your balls clap against it, slowly looking up at your eyes*
*whimpers and screams as i feel you repeatedly hit my spot, my legs begin to tremble*
*moans into your mouth and kisses back the best i can, starting to cxm heavily*
*whimpers softly and giggles a little, letting out a deep breath as my legs continue to tremble*
*bites my lip and blushes, looking up at you* mm that felt goodddd
*sits up and rubs my legs a little, covering myself with the blanket* can i have water? please?
thank you *grins and takes it, taking a sip from the glass*
i have mannerssss *puts my glass on the nightstand and lays down* yea that does happen, some guys don’t understand the importance of aftercare
guys and girls^
mhm *nods as i yawn* mm im tired now
where are you goingggg *watches you*
yes.. unless you don’t want to *pouts a little and turns to my side*
hmph
you always pretend to leave *pouts and looks at you for a moment before closing my eyes*
đŸ„Ž
yea yea, not funnyyyyy *pouts a little then slowly grins*
so beautiful you pretend to leave me? *shakes my head and opens my eyes as i roll them and giggles*
hmph whateverrrr *goes underneath the blanket and closes my eyes*
no you’re nottttt, im the one who’s mad *yawns and stays underneath the blanket*
*uncovers my face with the blanket and keeps my eyes closed* yeaaaa i know
mhmmmm *yawns again and grins a little* i can feel you movingggg
noooo, lay down with me *opens my eyes and looks at you* you’re trying to leave me againnnn
why are you sad *frowns a little and slowly sits up*
*frowns a little and plays with the blanket as i nod* i understand what you mean.. it’s good to have love from one parent, but it’s even better when you have both.. there are times when you need your mom and there are times when you need your dad.. it sxxks when you have those moments and you don’t have the person you need there and none of you deserve the way he treated you
what about uncles? cousins? even friends?
i’m glad your aunt can take both of you in, that’s great news
hmm maybe they saw something your mom didn’t? she had a good heart and saw the good in others *nods and holds your hand* i don’t know what to say? after my father becane an ñƟƟhxle, i just learned to live without him.. but it still hurts and i don’t know what to do
maybe counseling can help? i started it a couple of years ago and it helped for a while before i stopped.. talking to someone can help
good *moves closer to you so i can wrap my arms around you^ talking to someone about it is good
it is normal :)
*shakes my head and yawns* you didn’t ruin anything
mhm *grins and hugs you* i love you
im not that meannnnn, it could be alot worse *giggles* and its not serioussss
you’re mean, you always do that *crosses my arms and goes over to lay down again*
*pouts and doesnt react* you always do
yes, i don’t like when you do it every single time *frowns and closes my eyes* it was funny the first few times, but now it’s not
it was a joke, we were joking around *shakes my head* i don’t need anything, it’s fine
i know, i use my manners *opens my eyes again and sits up, looking for my clothes * im tired, but my day was fine, yours?
im okay *grabs my clothes and puts them on* that’s good, i love talking to you too
no.. im just tired *lays down and goes underneath the blanket*
yes *nods and closes my eyes again*
*grins a little and yawns* they’re good
good, they’ll start again sometime in the spring
everyone is great, they’re all doing well and growing and happy
thank you *sits up a little and slips off my shorts again, kicking them to the side and lays down again, closing my eyes* i don’t know why i put them on, i like to sleep without them
thank you *lays on my side and gets comfortable*
okay
i love you *yawns again and slowly begins to drift off*
*falls asleep, snuggling up close with the blanket*
*sleeps and snores lightly*
*sleeps for a little while then starts to wake up*
i miss you too
good morning ❀
okay, i’ll be thinking of you too :) te amo
im okay, how was work? :)
thanks babyyyyy, you didn’t have toooo
ahhhhhhh
babuuyyy
i loudeee youuuu
pop
in going to bitr you rawrrrerr
grrrrrr 😡
i kidding
i justtttt misse yiuuu
good morning :)
okay, it’s okay :)
no
i don’t think so
i don’t know :(
i don’t know
it was goodddd, im so tired
good morning ❀
how’d you sleeps
i slept okay :)
mm i had to work today and i went to the gym with aus, it’s not fun 😂
it’s almost lyla’s birthday
and mere’s birthday, hers is the day after lylys
because it’s work
three
i know đŸ„ș
me too
a little, but it’s also really h-h.. *gasps softly and moans when you push yourself in, my walls tightening around your length*
m-mhm *bites my lip and pushes my hips up a bit* mm be as rough as you want
f-fxxk! *blushes and moans loudly, arching my back as my toes curl from the pleasure*
*looks up at you as i slowly open my mouth for you*
*kisses you back, moaning softly against your lips* g-good
yes sir *sits up and carefully positions myself on all fours for you*
mm whatever you choose my love, i don’t mind either option
*thinks for a moment* mm i could, but not on this table
*holds onto you and looks at you* on the floor?
yea im not doing that on the floor 😂
the couch or bed is okay, as long as it’s not the floor
*grins and sits up on top of you* isn’t that more comfy?
you shouldddd, the floor is icky *grins and kisses your lips before lining your tip up with my entrance*
mm yea i know *smiles softly and slowly lowers myself onto you*
*exhales deeply as i begin to slowly move up and down, placing my hands on your chest for support*
*rocks my hips a bit and begins to bounce, picking up the pace a bit*
*moans as i continue to bounce faster and smirks at you* n-no one’s home baby, it’s okay
w-when? *bounces faster, leaning my head back as i moan*
m-mm i think i-i am too *bounces as fast as i can, making sure to go all the way down each time to make you go deeper*
*slows down as i start to cxm as well, sighing softly and grins* h-how was that?
so are you *smiles and leans down to kiss your lips* mm shower now?
*kisses you back and slowly gets off of you* okay, let’s go
okay *nods and holds onto you*
a little, but im okay *nods and turns on the water*
mm okay *nods and tries to relax*
*nods* yea it was fun
i enjoy my time with you too *grins and looks at you, sitting up a little* all done?
are you going to get in *takes the soap*
*starts to lather your body with the soap*
*continues and puts the soap down once i finish and grins* do you really think so?
*starts to rinse all of the soap off* i wish i felt that way about myself all of the time
*nods and turns off the water once we’re finished* yea you’re right and i remember you telling me about them
i can do it *stands up and gets out of the bathtub, grabbing a towel for each of us*
you’re welcome *dries my body off and wraps the towel around myself when im done*
me too *grins and takes your hand, walking out of the bathroom* now it’s time to cuddle
not in towels *giggles and walks to the bedroom* let’s get dressed first, but you still have to clean the table 😂
hehe okayyyy *grabs my clothes and gets dressed*
*goes on my phone while you’re gone and looks up when you come back* you’re back, that was fast 😌
yes i did *smiles and snuggles up next to you, looking at my phone* do you like to clean
*nods* i like to clean, especially because i have kids so i want to always have a clean house.. when i have the time, but it’s almost impossible now *puts my phone down after a while* i like it for the opposite reason, i don’t want to have time to think
sorry, i just need to see what ella wants to get her dad for fathers day before i forget *puts my phone on the nightstand and looks up at you* i don’t like when mine does
me too, im glad he finally decided to stick around and he has a little bond with ethan too *nods* yea it’s not too bad
*shakes my head* no, not at all.. why would you think that?
they’re going to ask about and maybe want to see their dad’s, they always ask and i never know what to say because they aren’t around and ella gets to see hers and the others don’t and it’s not fair to them *frowns a little and plays with my bracelet* but just because they might want to meet their dad’s or might see their dad’s one day doesn’t mean they’re not going to like you anymore or not want you in their lives. right now they just don’t see you often and they don’t have a bond with you
*nods and takes your hand* i think once you start to build a bond with them, it’ll be okay.. they just have to get to know you more and trust you, especially since everyone who comes into my life and theirs just walks away after a while, they need someone permanent in their lives
good *smiles softly and closes my eyes* wow.. almost a year? we’ve already done so much.. and speaking of that, when are we going to get married?
that day? or anytime during the week?
i feel the same way, it feels like forever.. but it feels like it just happened yesterday
we came a long way :)
hmm i don’t know about that day, a weekend would be better
aaron i just said i don’t about that day
weekEND
mm okay
*moans and grips onto the sheets underneath me, pushing my aƟs up to you*
*moans and tilts my head back, arching my back for you*
m-mhm *moans a little louder, keeping a grip on the sheets*
m-mm.. f-fxxk baby *moans a little louder, feeling your length stretch my walls with each thrust*
m-me too.. g-go harder *moans your name as my legs begin to tremble a bit*
*screams your name as my eyes roll back, smirking a bit at the sound of your balls clapping against my aƟƟ* a-aaron!!
s-so tacking g-good *breathes heavily and starts to cxm as my legs tremble uncontrollably*
a-so did you baby *sighs in relief once we finish and tries to catch my breath* that was amazing
*nods and calms my body and breathing, looking up at you for a moment and frowns* what
*widens my eyes and looks at you* aaron..
*looks at for a moment then grins and nods* it’s okay baby, i am on it and you’ve never used protection our entire relationship except maybeeee twice😂
*giggles softly and shakes my head* i never forget my birth control
it’s okay, you can relax now *grins and sits up* we should get cleaned up
i know, i have it too *sits up and grabs my clothes* wouldn’t you be excited though
to have a child *starts getting dressed*
oh.. i didn’t know it upset you that much and yes that is a reason and it’s not your fault, but im also just not sure if i can handle taking care of another kid right now, especially with all of them still being so young and needing alot of attention.. six kids is already alot and another? financially i don’t know if i can do it and mentally im not sure.. what if i do have to do it alone at some point? i have to make sure im prepared for that if that time came.. you never know
but.. if that’s something that’s bothering you that much.. i don’t want to be the reason you’re not happy all of the time now or stopping you from doing something you really want to do
scarlett isn’t even a year old yet, she will be next month.. but she’s barely one and lyla is three and the twins are four and ethan is six and ella just turned eight, ethan and ella are okay but the rest are still very young
and now i just feel like im getting in the way of something you really want
in a way im stopping you from being happy..
but.. i just don’t want you to feel like you have to be okay with it just because of me. i want you to be happy too
and never say never, maybe someday in the future i’ll change my mind when im more stable.. but just right now, im not
are you really sure? it’s your dream..
yea, i know
i guess? but didn’t she still live that dream anyway?
i feel bad
okay
oh yea
im trying
but that’s always been your dream.. even before me and i remember when we started talking and you said it was something on your bucket list. i-i don’t want to be the reason you might not get to live that dream.. something you’ve always wanted
but i love you too.. i love you so much and i want you to be happy too..
promise?
what if you find someone else who does want what you want and they make you happy and they’re so much better :(
okay
i think im going to go for the night now, maybe try to get fresh air then get ready for bed and try to think about something else.. goodnight, i love you
okay.. im just afraid of that happening, but i also know you wouldn’t do that.. but it still scares me
that’s what worries me, because there are men who are like that :( but im lucky to have you ❀
okay, i’ll try.. and thanks for the reassurance, i love you ❀
im glad we can do that, understand each other.. i wish i wasn’t so messed up sometimes, i wish everyone else i’ve ever dated then make me the way i am now, didn’t still get to me and effect me the way they do now even though they aren’t around anymore. even though they aren’t physically here, they’re still here getting in the way of everything.. especially him, all of the trauma and emotional and mental abuse and pain he put me through, it still effects me today and i hxte it and i hxte him and sometimes i hxte that he is the father of my kids.. but without him, i wouldn’t have them.. but because of him, i almost wouldn’t have been here
and then braiden, he just made my trust issues worse and told me lies and made alot of false promises, i hxte him too
one thing i regret is not listening to kacy, she was right about him but i didn’t think he’d do it to me, i believed him
i let them use me and treat me like im nothing, i did everything and also didn’t do things just to make them happy even if it wasn’t something i wanted or something i was comfortable with
but i just wanted to be happy and feel loved
i just wanted to be loved and to feel as important and loved as i tried to make them feel
and they just used me. maybe they did like me in the beginning, but that didn’t last.. they just loved the idea of me
i just wanted to feel loved
but.. why me? why’d all of them have to do it to me, especially him
and why did i let him control me and my life and my kids for so long
why did i believe him when he told me he loved me after every time he would hurt me and why did i stay with him knowing everything he did to me and my daughter was wrong
and yes you are better than braiden too, sadly he is the father of one of my children
i believed braiden too, i believed every lie he told me
yes.. i do now
i just can’t believe it sometimes, i can’t help but to think about it sometimes.. it’ll never go away.. the way nathaniel manipulated me and treated me, the way he treated ella, the way he made me feel like i was nothing and made me want to kxll myself, made me try to and i still stayed with him because i believed him when he told me he loved me and he would take care of me
it’s something i have to live with for the rest of my life
and with braiden, i’ll just never forget all of the lies he has told me and everything he said to me that day and how he just left his daughter, he didn’t even meet her
it just makes me upset and angry
so angry that i still let them get to me
that no matter what i do, who im with, or where i go.. i’ll always be scarred by them and my life is effected by them
i don’t know how i got here now
im sorry
im really going to go this time
i should go, im spiraling
i need to calm down
i need to do something
goodnight, i love you
i don’t want to think about them
mhm