it might be insensitive for me to say this but I really don't like when people refer to my bad thoughts as "the voice in my head" because the "voice" is literally just me. well kinda. I personified it to make it easier to talk to(??) so like when I'm trying to fight I can just say "shut up Misty" and I feel like it's easier to argue with something that you can picture like a person. so long story short, I made my bad thoughts into a person named Misty and she's a real bîtch but I'm oddly attached to her.

I've also got a good personified character too? his name's Jay and he usually comes in when I'm sick or after I've relapsed. he's good to me, helps me take care of myself. Jay and Misty don't get along (why would they) so he's never around when Misty starts talking to me, he tries to help me out from a distance though? he'll tell me to fight her and then he just disappears but I mean that's okay because he's there when I need him.

Jay is good at calming me down, he helps a lot when I'm anxious or when I can't make decisions. Jay is like the ultimate best friend, get you a friend as good as Jay. don't be Misty, be Jay.

this probably sounds weird to most people, like a Bm chord. I hope if anyone reads this that you understand in a way what I'm trying to say.