She told me today her mom was going to send her back to her dad. I didn't buy it for a second. I don't know how I'm supposed to believe that if it's true. She lies. Lies lies lies. Nothing more nothing less. If all you do is lie why would you expect me to know when you're telling the truth? I sound selfish, not wanting to believe anyone for my safety. Who gave you the right to feel safe, Julianne? Who said you were allowed to feel like that? Call me crazy but sometimes I feel like I should refer to myself as if there is more than one. It feels like there's more than one sometimes. Me and the stupid little terrifying voice in my head. You asked for Julianne? Or sorry, you're going to get her and Misty, they're a package deal. Also I'm probably confusing everyone lmàö I'm always changing my name, is it Reed? Is it Nova? Is it Julianne? The world may never know. (To clear things up you can call me either of the three I don't care) my "friends" don't understand. I've told one of them about my depression and all I get is "how do you know you're depressed?" Well dang I have no clue maybe it's the constant urge to cut myself or the voice or my occasional hypothetical sûicidal thoughts. But you know, teenagers these days don't seem to understand themselves and they're being over dramatic. Idk what this was, hope you enjoyed this train wreck of a post.

god I'm such an attention seeker when I post stuff like this, I really should just stick to commenting on old posts but here we are back on the rant account

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