life is against me

yes. hehe thanks!

My problem started in 4th grade. Before that, my life was great. Anyway, I made a LOT of choices I wish I hadn't. Most of them were pretty spontaneous... but they grew. I REALLY regretted all of them, but I didn't know how to stop. I just did them. In 5th grade, I vowed it would never happen again. In 5th grade, school was pretty good. But at home.... My grandma had died the year before, and now Diego? Between that, hw, and all my activities. I was really stressed out. I cried almost every night. 6th grade started and I was so excited. Finally, Middle School! And it was great for a while. I had great friends, teachers, and I was getting good grades. Then that one day, my 4th grade self came out and my world fell apart. That day was torture. The next day it was 5th grade me. I was so sad and confused. I felt like the whole world was against me. Since then, nothing's been the same. I've fallen too far from happiness. I can't reach it again...

NO RANTING FOR ME RIGHT NOW WE JUST WON THE BASKETBALL CHAMPIONSHIP YAYAY YABA YABA YABA ME SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!

in 6th grade, my best friends all turned on me, and I had no friends. except one. his name was Colton.

but now I am in 7th and he hates me because my new best friends told him i liked him. all I want to be best friends again.

I am trying so hard, but he forgets I'm alive. this isn't fair! I dot. want to even go out with him, just be besties again.

he used to be the only one who knew what Helen, my old bff was bullying me. this isn't fair

anyone know what to do? I have tried notes, emails, and more.