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I really need to talk to you...

I'm here

😞😞

what's wrong?

Well Isaac just sent me a message. "Hey Chris, Thursday was fun but I think we may be jumping the gun a little bit if you know what I mean."

He's decided he only wants to be friends.

oh my gosh..

😞 I'm sorry Chris

I should get an award

for what?

Best at fxcking up everything in an unnatural amount of time

Chris you didn't fxck up anything

Obviously I did

Anytime I think maybe I've got something good and maybe it'll stay it's gets violently ripped away. Probably partially why I'm SO overprotective of you.

Chris at least you still have him at all. I mean he didn't completely leave you! you're still friends, he still talks to you

That's true

He did also say if we wanted to do something in the future or something like that

ily

ily Chris itll be okay

❤️

Like I said yesterday, I'll always have you 😊

no matter what ☺️

Bleh

fml😂

same

I miss you 😔

I miss you too 😔

I need to somehow skype you again sometime.

I've decided that my sister is right. Boys are idiots and love is a joke.

Yes!!

most of them are you're right

I think she's getting a divorce so she's kind of bitter but I agree with her.

wait which sister?

Jenni

oh I forgot she was married

Yeah

Nathan is a fûçkîńg asś

what'd he do?

Nothing he's just a clueless idiot who doesn't want to be in his daughters life and refuses to pay child support even though he's wearing $100 shoes.

wow

sounds like my dad

They're both classic idiots

yup

wyd

Trying to stop having panic attacks

wbu

what happened?!

watching teen titans

Cool

what happened?

nothing

don't lie to me

I'm not lying nothing happened I just have really bad anxiety

well I know that..I thought something else happened

Lol, nah

okay

I may not be able to answer pretty soon, my mom is forcing me to ride in the car while she goes to garage sales

I really hate panic attacks

Because like, I know there's nothing to panic about, but I still can't stop and breathe

wait you're panicking now??

It's been more like a twelve hour panic attack tbh

Chris don't panic please

no plz don't

to panic attacks and anxiety: FŪCK OFF

😔I'm sorry

when u panic I do..

Dâmn...

I don't like it when u panic

I know

Are you alone??

ily

Ilym

ilysfm

Ilysfmm

nope

yup

I'm mad now

why??

Because I almost got left alone like all day

but my grandpa decided to stay with me

and now I can't skype

or watch spn

dámmít

😡

😔

*hugs*

*hugs back*

Why does it have to be like this...

I don't know....

IM SO FRUSTRATED I DONT EVEN HAVE MY BLADE WITH ME

DO NOT TALK LIKE THAT

ESPECIALLY TO ME DÁMMĮT

I'm sorry...

dàmmìt that scares me Chris

I know

I'm sorry

it's okay..

it's not really

yeah I know...😔

😕

I'm sorry

me to^

You don't have to be

neither do u

Yah I do

no u don't

This is getting us nowhere

no and it never does

oh god, Ivy, what are we doing

I don't know Chris..

how

how did we get here

I've been asking myself that for a long time

And what are we supposed to do

I don't know anymore

I just-

😞

I'm just so confused..

We're a mess

a big mess

Ok this isn't going to get us anywhere either. Ok, um, here we go. Name one thing you know for absolutely certain.

no matter what happens I'll always be here for you

ok that's a start.

And I know I'll always be here for you

☺️

So there, see, one thing we know for certain is that we have to stick together

yep <3

Alright we have an abundance of broken pieces

So we'll just have to build a kingdom

I'll be there

Be where exactly?

wherever you are I'll be there

:) We're in this together

ok first thing is first

what's that

We're building an entirely new view basically and we can do anything. the biggest thing right now is God.

Are we building our lives based on secularism or scripture

whichever you want

I think

I think scripture

yeah

ily

but there's one thing I can't do and it's in the Ten Commandments

omg same

ily2☺️

☺️

So we both agree we want to leave the past completely?

yes

❤️

ily

ily2

☺️

*deep breath*

*hugs u*

We're strong right? things fall apart, we pick up the pieces and build it again.

yeah. we're strong

*hugs u back*

🙌🏼

Oh boy ok

what?

I'm just trying to figure out our next step

Wait

what?

This isn't right

what isn't?

We're building a new reality pretty much right? Re-deciding everything?

yeah

And this time it's together right?

yep

So who do you want me to be?

what do you mean?

I'm obviously Chris. I'm your overprotective sister. That's never going to change.

well yeah

But up to this point it's basically been me deciding everything. So do you want that to continue or my guess is that you want me to treat you as a partner instead of a child to be protected, am I correct?

I dunno..I'm not rly used to telling people what to do

or being asked questions like that

or being wanted at all in the first place

You know I want you

and I'm most certainly not putting you in charge, no offense to you

good choice actually

Probably not a good choice to have me in charge either

yeah it is tbh

Not really, but I'm doing the best I can

and that's the best there is

:) What would I do without you?

crash and burn

😜

wyd?

Reconsidering my entire existence. You?

hiding from my dad and the sight of my razor

Hmm so pretty normal

yup

I'm so tired

*hugs u*

*falls asleep*

*pets your head*

*smiles in my sleep*

*smiles*

*cuddles close to you and wakes up* I think I'm happy *smiles*

I'm glad *leans back against wall*

*smiles*

*blinks slowly and yawns*

*yawns cuz you did*

*falls asleep*

*giggles*

*wakes up*

heyyyyyy *giggles*

*laughs*

*laughs too*

*sighs and looks at ceiling*

what's up??

Ceiling

*rolls eyes* I know I mean what's wrongggg

*smirks and glances at you* Immorality is wrong.

*glances at you in confusion*

*sticks my tongue out*

*does the same and giggles*

*stretches* Hungry but to lazy to get up.

well I'm not gettin you shít

*looks surprised* Sassy Argetlam is sassy

*laughs*

*flips off the wall*

*looks confusedI

*cuddles into a blanket*

*smirks and takes the blanket*

*cries*

I'm sorry!!! *gives it back*

*wrinkles nose*

*hugs you and giggles*

*laughs and hugs back*

*plays with your hair and laughs*

*turns upside down*

*smiles*

*sticks out tongue*

*crosses my eyes and makes a weird face*

*pokes your nose*

*laughs and pokes your cheek*

I've decided that life is overrated

And I don't want to live

But I don't want to die

life is overrated

Very overrated

very

Have you ever just sat in a car and prayed to get into a crash where you get seriously injured and just have to take a leave from life for a while without anyone questioning it

yes I have actually

Bleh

bleh

I did it this morning for like the millionth time

😞

I also stopped wearing a seatbelt

But no one cares

I've never worn a seatbelt. literally ever in my life

Really? Lucky, it rubs.

Although that's a lie

You had to be in a car seat so ha

yea my dad never cares what I do tbh unless it's fun 😞

if it's fun then I get in trouble or something.

It's very shítty parenting when your sister cares more than your father

at least my sister knows me. my dad doesn't even remember my age

He's a jerk

i gtg ttyl

Kk ily