I just wanna say that I know what's going on with you and Nick...thanks for such an amazing birthday...

you should also know that I don't love him. I just wanted to do something crazy. Might as well now.

I guess that makes sense.

it was just a bad start to the day having Ashley tell me what happened.

I'm not mad though. just confused.

You don't believe I love him do you?

I love YOU Maribel. not him. I'll only ever love you, I told you that and you don't trust me.

I didn't say I don't trust you!

Sure sounds like it. With all your posts, asking if I ever loved you. is it not obvious how much I love you? Am I really THAT bad of a boyfriend!?

And I love you too. It's just that currently someone (Ashley) is messing with my mind.

What's her username? Don't listen to her, please... She's wrong. I DO love you. I'll stop everything with Nick. I just felt like doing something crazy last night. so I got super drunk. and today I felt even crazier.

I'm sorry okay! And no you aren't a terrible boyfriend. and as I said someone is being manipulative and I'm kinda vulnerable right now.

crazy enough to do something stupid... and I hurt you.

I'm okay..I just needed to know what happened.

and I know what happened and I'm honestly not mad, or hurt for that matter.

promise me you know I love you. Promise me! and please don't leave me... you can leave me when I'm underground but not now.

I can't lose you yet,,,

I don't EVER want to lose you actually.

I love you. I know you love me and I PROMISE I won't leave you.

You won't lose me Samuel.

Thank goodness. I was worried you were going to leave me for what I did.... you don't know how terrible I feel,

And I know Ashley is making it worse..Ill try and talk to her.

let's talk on a collage because I never know when you respond

Okay! ily

Ily2