ITLL BE FUN I SAID

I WONT REGRET THIS I SAID

WELL DIDFLY DARN ME

I CANT BELIEVE I WENT OVER TO THE GIRLS HOUSE AND SHE MADE ME DROP TJE TEDDY BEAR

LIKE A WEEK AGO I WENT OVER AGAIN

I HA TE MY SEL F

I WAS SUCH A MISLEAD KID I DID BAD SFUFF OKAY

IM SUCH A BETTER PERSON NOW WMSJDJD

OKAY IM GONNA SOB OVER ALL THE STUPID SHÎT I DID ONLINE AND IRL THAT I REGRET SO HARD BUT KNOW NOW IT WAS MORALLY WRONG AND WOULDNT EVER DO IT AHAIM

I can't believe all the things I did and saw I didn't even care I was so reckless And I'm so afraid it'll happen again that I pretend I'm really innocent and peppy Bc I'm just super scared I'll meet bad people who act like I do

just looking back God I've changed for the better

I think it'll happen again I think I'll fall back I think I already did but in a new way with new issues and I'm not that oblivious this time so I know I'll be okay

And I know no one cares, but God it's 1 am and I just thought about it

I don't know when it all stopped but I'm glad it did I deleted my insta, livestream, vines, kik, all the people on my Skype, I ran from everyone I knew and everything I thought was normal

Because, it wasn't normal and it was unhealthly and wrong. my mom didn't know I had any of those sites. I just can't believe I lied I can't believe I posted all the things I did

And God, I'll delete this later but in conclusion, my door isn't ever locked on Sunday's anymore and my family isn't wondering why their child locks their door everyday

I'm not the one who lies accidentally because I'm so used to all the secrets I kept

leave anyone who thinks like me right now because yeah their fun but they're toxic and will hurt you more than help you and I know you can make your own deacons but please take care of yourself 💙

decisions* haha

I want to take this down And I want to go back and rewrite my fifth grade year but I can't. I'll always flinch when someone asks me if I have Instagram and I'll always shudder at the mention of an email

OMG WERE YOU A CRINGEY KID TOO. DONT WORRY I WISH I COULD TAKE BACK EVERYTHING I DID 3rd-6th GRADE AGG. I HUMPED POLES AND AND TRIED TO KISS BOYS AND I WAS SO WERID AND I HAD DISGUSTING FASHION AND I PRETENDED I WAS A CHICKEN ONCE TRUST ME I HAD A TROUBLED PAST TOO

AND DONT THINK ABOUT THESE THINGS LATE AT NIGHT IT JIST MAKES IT WORSE

AND I STILL LIKE YOU EVEN IF U WERE WEIRD

I was really girly and wore all pink now I'm a lesbian