my friend said something to me the other day and I can't stop thinking about it. I was talking to one of my best guy friends and we were talking and he said "I'm jealous of your future boyfriend" so I put "why?" and he put, "because you'll make him really happy" that was pretty cute and all but then he put "Yeah, he's going to have brown hair, green eyes, will play ps4 not Xbox and will laugh at all your rubbish jokes" he said some other things too but it just recently dawned on me that he was describing my best friend. who is a girl. The person he was describing as my "ideal future boyfriend" sounded exactly like my bestfriend

To be honest, I've never really thought about my sexuality until recently. I've always thought I was Heterosexual. but in all honesty, I don't care if I'm gay, bisexual or any other gender. but I kind of feel like I'm falling in love with my best friend. I don't think it's in a relationship kind of way but I just really don't know

like, I know I don't need to decide my sexuality just yet. I mean, I've always said I was Lithromantic. and I'm just confused and need to get it off of my chest and yeah

I don't know if you just want to rant or if you want advice, but imma just say this: enjoy her. enjoy her to the fullest. whether it's platonic or romantic, just love her and appreciate her and enjoy your time together. at this age, people tend to wonder about their sexuality and who they love,-and some even panic(! at the disco), but honestly, it doesn't matter right now. you have your full life ahead of you. just enjoy the people around you, and say to yourself "you know, I'm a teenager. I really don't need to choose my future spouse at the moment." and just love life. if you think you're falling in love with your best friend, then just do it. fall in love with her. fall in love with her as a person, in whatever way you gravitate towards. anyways. idk if you wanted advice, but there you go.

This honestly really helped. I myself didn't actually know if I wanted advice or just wanted to rant. but this is more than I could have asked for. so thank you. I love you

I love you more and I'm glad I could help.

The thing is though, I don't want to fall in love with her because I'm terrified that I'll mess up and fall out with her

just devote yourself in her as a friend, love her as a person, as things move on, see which way your heart gravitates. (I know that sounds cheesy) idrk what else to day tbh. just love her, period.

I will. Thank you

I think it just scared me how accurately he described "my future boyfriend" as being her. if that makes sense?

I think he ships you two and was lowkey hinting that like *wink wink* hahahahhaMARRYhahahahha

to be honest, we act kind of couple-y

then just continue what you're doing. this one conversation shouldn't completely alter your perspective on this relationship.

Yeah I know. this all just feels really pathetic, I think I'm just going to leave it and see how I feel in a months time

that's a good idea. just give it time.

Thank you :)

you're welcome! I won't be online for a few hours, but I'll talk to you later ;)))

Okay :)

we were extremely close today. she kept hugging me and letting me sit on her and now I don't know how I feel

okay. let me lay this down for you. I'm going to be blatant: calm. down. you're being paranoid honestly, you shouldn't worry this much. it's taking away from quality time together. one conversation shouldn't make you think differently all the time. calm down. stop worrying. pure being hard on yourself.

that sounded mean whoops

I just need to remember that our love is platonic. it didn't sound mean. it was what I needed. a jolt back to reality

if you have anymore inward conflicts, lemme know.

I really wanna do that cute long-distance thing with the hand heart ya know

we should do it

and yeah, I will :)

. okie remix me a picture of yours and I'll make mine match

I'll do it soon as I'm at my friends atm