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I’ll always come to your stuff baby
you’re welcome
come with me *grabs your hand*
to find out the gender of the baby
*gets in true car wearing your sweatshirt again*
what *buckles*
and you’re handsome
okay I’m ready to go
*turns on the radio*
do you want a girl or boy
we are having a boy
yeah
*cleans up around the house*
I love you too
*sits down for a minute *
thank you baby *lays down only wearing a sports bra and a th**g
*looks at my stomach *. *kick*//baby
*watches him and smiles*. *moves around*||baby
*gets up and comes into the kitchen *
*takes the plate and smiles*
I love you to
thanks *sits down*
*picks up the sandwich and takes a bite*
it’s really good thank you baby
yep *looks down at my phone and frowns*
guess I don’t have a dad anymore this always happens
but I don’t need a dad anymore I don’t need one
*looks at you* are you leaving too
good
*finishes* I love you too
*gets up and hugs you from behind*
you smell good
*nods* can I help you do the dishes
oh okay we need to think of baby names
I like the name Grayson
so since you said Levi isn’t your dad did you change your last name
okay
so Grayson what should his middle name be
why what
how about Grayson sawyer
*nods*
baby I need cuddles
*lays next to you in a sports bra and underwear *
*puts you hand on my stomach as Grayson moves*
I can’t wait till he gets here
no you aren’t and why’d you say that
don’t say that please
what can I do or we do that will get it out of your head
you can he’s coming over to get a few things from my mum that I have that he wants
he’s on his way *gets up and gets dressed*
you said you want to make up with Levi and he’s on his way to get a few things
that’s why I’m going shopping
how about I stay up here and you guys go somewhere else in the house
*kisses you* you got this baby don’t worry
*smiles* he maybe high I don’t know. where is the stuff noel
yeah Ik baby calm down// u know what *opens the door and walks out*
sawyer what the heck I thought you wanted to get better with him ha having a bad day chill on him *slams the door*\\levi
please go make things okay btw you
good morning baby
baby
good morning baby have a nice day
I love you * stands on my tippy toes and kisses you *
I’ll talk to you later ig *walks to the bedroom*
he’s probably not even there for him he probably just does the same thing he did when we had him I just can’t lose another child
my ex probably is at the bar bringing girls home in front of our son and just not paying attention to him and I just feel like I’m going to live in fear of losing another kid
I know that baby I just wish I could have him back told he would of been three
because they moved from California which is where my college is and they moved to Europe
*frowns* and this is the whole reason why I got mad at you for when you went to the club because I didn’t want the same thing to happen again
okay
I love you too
you too baby
*kisses back*
do you have work today
morning baby boy
guess what
we have one more month till Grayson is here
yeah it really is
same being a mother as long as I was it’s really fun but tiring
so are you, you’re going to be the best daddy in the world
trust me sawyer I didn’t know how to be a mum because Elle was so caught up in finding me a dad she didn’t have time for me but when I had that baby I like knew everything a mum should do
*kisses you*
baby *in pain*
they hurt so bad
*nods and lays by you*
*cuddles you* I love live you
not live
you know what we haven’t done in a while
had s**
*pouts* why daddy
but fine
*cuddles*
Levi said he wants to talk to you
please just make things up baby just try he was going through a hard time
*geets up* he said he wants to and so did your mum so either way you are going to make up with him or not
sure am *laughs a little*
he’s on his way as you better be nice *croses arms and goes to the basement *
what are you doing sawyer he’s going to be here in like 30 seconds
stop sawyer he’s going to be here *knocks on the door*//Levi
*covers myself *. *waits*//Levi
*walks into the kitchen*. hi sawyer how are you
she’s amazing I’m happy that I can be back with her and the kids and hopefully fix things with you
I’m telling the truth
sawyer he really is now make up. *nods* yes please
so how are you and noel doing
please sawyer I need to make up with you
*grabs my bra from your hands and goes upstairs* please sawyer I’m begging you this is the only way I can stay with your mum and I really love her and I need her
because we both love each other
this time it’s going to last that’s if you wanna make up
have fun with noel
*fully dressed and reading a book*
goodbye sawyer
your account it blocking mine just because Levi left because your mum said if you go don’t make up then they are done so he left
but what if it does happen
do why did you take my bra off
so
but you told me no
oh okay
I love you too
*gets up and stretches* I’m going to the pool
because I wanna go swimming
come with me daddy
okay *goes and gets changed and my a** doesn’t fit my bikini bottom *
I wouldn’t mind that daddy
jeez I was joking *grabs a towel and goes to the pool*
*gets into the pool*
*swims*
*gets done and comes back in and goes to our room to get dressed*
*comes back downstairs and sits on the chair*
I might leave I can tell you are losing interest in me sawyer
how by changing into my bikini and I was joking jeez you can take a joke *grabs my towel and walks into the bathroom*
okay go ahead *grabs my stuff and walks out*
Grayson was born if you care
aren’t we on a break *holding Grayson*
yes it did sawyer you said we need a a couple day break because you thought I was forcing you into s** which I wasn’t
okay so you think I’m lying now do you
*sits down*
*feeds him getting up*. *eats*\\grayson
*rolls my eyes feeding him* *eats*\\grayson
*sleeps on the couch *
*wakes up and grabs my keys and heads outside*
*looks over at you*
what do you think you are doing
*moans a little*
*moans *
what are you doing sawyer
you are but not outside and I need to go to the store
coming from a man who said I was trying to force you to have s** with me but okay
well I read that you can it doesn’t harm the baby
well I’m not pregnant and they don’t want you having s** right free having a baby because it’ll hurt
idk but Grayson is asleep in his crib and I’ll be back as soon as I can and the bottles of milk have to be warmed up until it feels nice on your skin
*rolls my eyes * di**
I have a son you know so tell me one more time not to come home *gets in the car slamming the door*. *wakes up*
*drives to the store*
*gets to the store*. *looks at him*//Grey
*shops*. *looks at him grabbing his nose*
*shops*. *sneezes*
*shops for five hours*. *starts crying*
*comes home and sighs*
*gets out and comes inside puts the groceries down*. *eats*
*puts the groceries away and goes upstairs* *finishes*
*lays in bed*. *burps*
*reads a book* *falls asleep*
*reads and sneezes*
*reads*
*reading not paying attention *
why wouldn’t I be
*puts my book down and goes into the bathroom*
*gets in the shower*
*stands in the shower*
*tears up*
*cries silently *
*tears stream down my face*
sawyer
do you still love me
why do you love me
yeah
yeah
*hugs you*
*starts crying again*
I feel like I’m a bad mother
but I don’t feel like it
I’ve nearly been in his life so far
meet Christmas Eve
why do you wanna do
*nods and lays on top of you*
*falls asleep on you*
*has a dream and moves around*
*falls off of you and sleeps*
*touches your di** by accident
*sleeps*. *cries very loud*\\grayson
*sleeps* *looks at him and eats*
*sleeps*. *eats*
*sleeps*. *burps*
*wakes up turning on netflix*. *slowly falls asleep*
*sleeps*\\both
merry Christmas baby
*blushes*
*kisses back*. *making baby sounds*//Grayson
*smiles* *looks at him trying to wave*
he loved his gift *grabs your nose*\\grayson
*smiles*. *rubs eyes*
maybe he can open them after his nap he had a long morning. *rubs eyes more*
he likes it when you hold him in his arms to fall asleep and pat hind leg. *hold on*
okay I’m just saying *puts hands on eyes and rubs*
*picks up the trash*. *holds on and falls asleep slowly*
*throws it out*. *falls asleep*
*comes upstairs*. *sleeps*
*walks in and smiles and takes a picture of you guys* *sleeps*
*smiles*
hi baby come check out the gift that I got you
thank you
love you daddy
morning daddy
you okay
sawyer you can tell me I’m here for you
y
oh I’m sorry
ik I just don’t like it when people over work but some people have a reason to
my mum was the same way I think she worked like 3 morning jobs and one night job
hi baby do you want to come with me to drop off Grayson at your mums and Levi’s
because Levi wants us to have a little us time
idk but I already told him he would and please can you go up to the door to drop him off I’ll drive
unless you don’t want him going over it’s fine
you seem like you don’t want him going
why baby *looks at you *