thank you angelll :)

yeahhh I can’t edit my remix either and it’s being super weird

okay sooo, I might yap a bit so I do apologize for that 🖤 but i think Im starting to like ash

I’m just not sure at the same time but I also like talking to him?

nopeee not just you (:

I think I do :) maybe I’m just afraid of rejection

do you like him Val? if so, I don’t want to be in the way :(

no no it’s okay 💜

I just don’t know if he’s into me that way? he doesn’t compliment me all the time and sometimes I feel as though I’m not someone he gets excited to talk to everyday

but part of that feeling stems from insecurity 🥲 worrying that maybe the way I look could be getting in the way

I do :) just a little scared to do it

do you want me to back off?..

sometimes I don’t feel that way? guys don’t want to date the goth gamer girl, and everytime I get a crush I never usually get excited? because crushes lead to rejection and I’m very scared

🥲 woooo

that’s okay :)

usually in my past guys usually pick someone else over me, and im scared that might happen again.. but I know I can’t control that, it’s just- I really want to be loved. and I don’t know how much my heart can take

I lä awake at night thinking about ash and I know that’s embarrassing

layyy*

well, I know he fancies someone else over me, just by the way he talks to that person? and I don’t know.. what if I crush on him and he doesn’t? maybe I should talk to him now?

that’s so true :) I didn’t think of it like that

I have a slight feeling he likes you, that’s what my gut says

yeah :( I saw the way he talks to you, and I’m not saying I’m angry or anything because I’m happy it’s you, my friend, I just kinda wish.. oh I don’t know :( that it was me

I asked him about it but he denied

my past crush history wasn’t the best experience 🥲

that he liked you in that way?

he just said your friends

maybe I’m just afraid that I’ll get hurt again

but imma be brave this time and tell him

Val your such an amazing friend, and i appreciate you so much ❤️

I never felt this safe to talk about my feels with a girl friend in a very long time ❤️

I guess I’mhoping maybe I’m worrying for nothing /)

:)*

aww that’s so sweet

explain what luv? :)

I hope it made your day :)

I just hope, if you do like him, this doesn’t make you feel uncomfortable at all

the very last thing I would want to do is make my friend uncomfortable over a boy

I think I do it because it’s the right thing to do :) I consider myself a kind person but if I see someone messing with my little sister I AM throwing fists

I woke up super confident today I don’t know whyyy

okay :) I’m so glad

I don’t want anything coming between our friendship, plus you mean too much to me ❤️

I can understand that, but you’re just as worth as protecting just like your family

🖤🖤

any plans for today? :)

I’m glad to hear that

I’m going to spend some time with my little sister Ari and do some studying for my exam :)

I wish you the best of luckkk

thank youuuuu I’m just worriedddd

I’m always scared of these things

omg I didn’t see ur other comment I’m so sorry

but yes I do have an exam coming up and im scareddd

childhood development :)

thank you ❤️

so, I did talk to ashhh

kind of

heyyyy

that seems to be happening with everyone it seems

I don’t know whyyy it’s pendinggggg

sureeee, what did you want to talk about?

okay, is it pending now? I feel like throwing my phone across the room🥲

sigggghhhh

I’llpost it againnnn

ok NOW is it pending

OH MY GOD

IM LITERALLY- 🥲

okay so what did you wanna talk about?

lemme guess, you like ash righttt?

ahhhh what a shockerr

i.. I understand why you did that Val, and I understand why you would feel guilty

I just :( this hurts a lot because now I feel so left out

and I’ve always felt that way allll the time and I just wanted this to work out, just once

I feel so weird, because I feel so so happy that you two made a connection yet, I’m upset you know?

and part of me realizes that he didn’t respond to me because he didn’t feel the same way, and j felt silly just spilling my feelings like that only to be responded hours later :(

yeah :(

I just, when I saw him call you gorgeous I knew there wasn’t hope at that point, and if I’m being completely honest right now, I feel so lonely right now because of this

because I know im not a priority for him like he is with you

and what hurts is that you didn’t tell me you liked him.. I just wish you reciprocated that trust

and .. I’m not saying any of this is your fault but, I’m just hurt by all of this, and maybe because I actually thought he could like me

I guess.. I just want to feel prioritized :( it feels like no matter where I go, the people I think do care about me and actually think about me don’t.. all I want is some people I can know that care about me and prioritize me

I’m so sorry I’m so sensitive right now, this is a sensitive topic for me

the worst thing that could result of this is to end our friendship, and I don’t want to lose you? I just.. want to be priroritized is all. in my past friendships and relationships, I was just “that friend to hang out with when I’m bored” and I really really don’t want to be that

I know, and you did what you thought was right and I appreciate that

that’s how most of my friendships would feel :( I was always the one who was left out all the time, and I think in this situation I felt that again ? but I’m glad your apologizing and im glad we’re talking about it. I think that I just want a best friend who really cares about me :( because I’ve never felt that before and I long for that feeling

is there anything I should do better?

I’m glad you recognized what you could do better and I’m glad you apologized.. and in a way, I feel better about all of this because I learned something and I gained something from it? I promise not to get in the way of you and ash, but I may be a little upset over the whole crush thing but I swear that I’ll be a vash supporter :)

thank you Val 🥹

but I can already feel my sadness going away already, I’m just so happy you both listened to what I had to say and acknowledge it

Val + ash :)

I am by far the best shipper around

if you ever do anything cute together plz tell me because I want to be the reader of this cute romance

ISNT IT CUTEE😂

let’s hug it out girl bsff

omg I’m so sorry 🥲

*smiles as I open my arms for you*

I think I need to work on my ship names 🥲

Now I need myself a partner

I joined tinder and it was .. interesting

*smiles and shakes my head as I hug you* the reason why you lied was justifiable, plus I know you had good intentions. you could have done things a little differently but- *smiles and shakes my head* I don’t h^te you

i might need some time to get over this but I know one thing for sure and that is that I don’t want to lose you or ash

a guy swiped right on me and said “I’ve always wanted to date a goth girl, they’re into freaky sh^” 😐

omg sorry I had a brain fârt, I meant to say that why you didn’t mention it 🥲 sorry

if I were to h^te you then i wouldn’t be a true friend :)

did you think I was going to h^te you?.. what did you expect ??

I meannn he’s not wrong but- 😂 THATS THE FIRST THING HE SAY

SAID*

and j said “well you’re not dating a goth girl today that’s for sure”

wait really?.. you didn’t want to lose it?

is my post pending?🥲

VAL DONT LAUGH😂😂

mmm no because he gave player vibes

no cause why does most guys I’ve met see goth girls as this super høt fänatasy i don’t get ittt

it is a little funny tho but people need to be more original 😂

it’s because we’re dark and misteruous

I’m feeling a bit better for sure :) I just needed to get everything out

not entirely healed yet but I will be

I’m good :) how r uuuu

I think yesterday reminded me of how romantically alone I ammm 🥲 been writing about it last night

I mean I always feel romantically alone but I guess it’s hĩtting pretty härd this week

I just don’t want to sound like a broken record saying the same thing

that could also be because I reallyyyy want love, it’s one of my dreams you know? :)

I knowwww, I’m just super tempted to give up 🥲 I don’t know how much my heart can take

and so do you :)

I’m at work so my answers may be slow ❤️

it’s okayyy

thank you Val :) and im always here if you need to talk about anything ❤️

yeahhh maybe I won’t, but I’ll be more cautious next time

I ammmm, it’s a busy shift

almost :) in the next half hour I’ll be done

why? :)

I knowwww I’m so excited to talk to youuu

I’m done nowww

it was pretty good :) it felt nice to be around the kids and they were super sweet

lây it on me Val :)

what’s got you troubled ??

I’m your friend Val :) I’m not here to judge okay?

*frowns and opens my arms* come here?

I know.. *frowns and wraps my arms around you gently* it’s not fun feeling this way, but we’ll get through this okay? *smiles and tilts your chin up*

*smiles and gently rubs your back* your going to be okay, and it’s okay to be a mess, in front of the right person you would never be considered messy

also if he messes with you I won’t go easy on him, I wouldn’t mind a new punching bag for boxing practice :)

I love how you came to me about this *smiles and wraps my arms around you* I know you feel bad, and you can’t erase the past but you can change what you do next *smiles and tucks my hair behind my ear* I know, and I am still healing from what happened

whattt😂

why would I use you??😳

sooo did you talk to him? :)

I don’t know if I would hurt you like thatttt

VAL! 😂 I’m not punching you out!! my goodness

now sit down before I do knock some sense into you 😂 plus I think me boxing makes me look super hooot

andddd? :)

I would neverrrr😳

I learn boxing for self defense, it’s a class for men and women to defend themselves *smiles and runs my hands through my hair* but I did see some clips from it and im a Mike Tyson girl if i had to pick a side

I’m so glad :) I’d h^te for problems to arise

I’m still happy crying from you asking ME for advice 🥺🥺

I just don’t understand why he wants to find an older dude to get clout?? like fight someone ur own age

omg 🥺 definitely going to cry now

omg your like the best friend my younger self always wantedd

LIKE GO FIGHT SOMEONE UR AGE

sigh, men 🙄

because he thinks it’s funny 🙄

yeah 🥹 unless that’s too fast and too sooon?

this is why I’m attracted to everyone, especially women 😂

awwww okay 🥹