hai

I mean idk where to start....

tbh I miss the old accs idk if you were there but there were old accs that made Pc feel like absolute home and couple of others accs including myself are left and now the new comers are coming in and they are blowing up everywhere it leaves us old accs left in the dust and yes people do appreciate me but not like how they did before and that makes me really upset Bc I feel like an outcast....

you see I don’t want people to leave Pc Bc of me Bc when I come back I want them to see me happy and welcoming me with open arms not leaving me to total strangers.... you are definitely not an outcast I see you a lot either in people’s post,bios, or you just simply leaving ima comment you are most definitely loved on here ❤️❤️

❤️

I don’t want you to leave....❤️❤️and don’t worry I won’t leave either

I’m not gonna take a break either I’m just gonna almost whenever I feel like it and do the usual be active but not post Bc I’m usually at active but I’m just not posting

*post

❤️

awwww ❤️❤️❤️

okay baiiii

haiiii

how’s your day been?~~

good just texting my friend about the save me BigHit x Webcomic creator

you had finals this week? ooooooo sorry sis

I had mines 4?? weeks ago

awwwwww poor bby ;-;

haha awwwww❤️❤️

haiiii bby~~❤️😂

good just watching a k-drama

have you heard X & XI by Code Knust ft.Lee Hi?(aka my singing QUEEN)

listen to X 1st Bc it’s the 1st one then listen to XI

I guessed your fanpage lolllll

I’m a amazing guesser I guessed it in one tru lol

try

you’re right

bbt what’s wrong?

bby

you know what bby....I went through a similar situation as you did I was heartbroken for many days and weeks to be exact but just know don’t let that guys judgement make you feel like that’s your worth and your friend in sorry she wasn’t a good friend to you and idk what she’s planning but know you have a big future ahead of you so you never know that you could meet the one and I don’t want to hear you say that you have no one when you have me....I love you okay and I want to be there for you always so have me instead of those people that hurt you,won’t isten to you,or make you feel broken and sad you are amazing and with the right love and gentle care you will become fixed

feeling really really bored

I’m doing good~

btw did you ever read that paragraph I sent you?^^^

you’re welcome and I hope I mad your day better ❤️

*made

awwww I’m happy also I got 2 more songs for you to listen to~~

1.INTRN-I’m not afraid 2.Kin-Can We Kiss Forever? ft.Adriana

they are both lofi like

you’re welcome

just being a basic music dealer 😉😉

so hru?

hey

yeahhhh??? I’ve been knowing that tbh 😅

they call me rose...detective rose 😎

thanks my lil moonlight angel🌙☁️❤️

it was hard for me to continue PC it felt like my edits were going downhill and I felt like I wasn’t belong on PC anymore so it was hard for me to continue this app when I felt like it was all fake love (I just accidentally quoted bts lolll😂❤️)

they are tho but it’s okay it’s fine for Katie to take my throne now....I was hurt yes but then I realized people are loving her more so I think it’s time for her to take over my position since she’s worthy and soon Ik you’ll take over that position as well

I’m fine bby I realized I glued everyone and everyone gets along as if it’s their own squad yeh Kpop community when I joined wasn’t as close as it is today but then when I started to grow I used my power to help everyone become close and look at y’all now~ my children my dearest rosepedals have finally made me see what I wanted it to be from day 1 a family where the Kpop community become close and that makes me so happy ❤️

going through my feed all I would see is Katie’s name everywhere and since I wasn’t active people didn’t praise me like they did before Bc she posted daily people treated her like how they use to me so it was hurtful

haha not for me it’s easy to say but it’s not easy to feel people told me that but you’ll only relate once you feel it

haha

I’m not upset about this anymore it stings just a Lil but but it’s the facts of the reality I mean it’s noticeable it’s time for me to accept this

*bit

bby I’m not upset anymore I’m just stating what I use to feel and if PC wants a new queen then it’s okay but instead of me trying to force myself to become better at editing I might as well just save my mentality and just let things be

but one thing that I did that I would always be proud of and that Katie never did is unite this community together as it was falling apart many times and for that I will always keep dearly to my heart

I may seem like it to you but to everyone else? I think my position has come to an end they want new skillful styles not mine and that’s okay

no I’m not saying that they don’t like me because Ik they do I’m just saying she’s gotten to the point where use to be like me she’s gotten REALLY well known where I’m just a side now and that’s okay I’m improving still

yeahhhh bby

its fine bby don’t stress okayyyy?❤️❤️

but yeah that’s what I’ve been feeling for the past 2 months

and Bc if those feelings I not only became angry at myself but at her also and that’s when my anger and sadness started to mix in and I regretted every thought I had

anyways ttyl

nah it’s fine

Ik.....and I’m the type to not talk about that Bc it makes me seem like I’m being selfish and I just want the attention on me which I don’t but I at least want what I use to have

ik that but I feel like when I do I’m not burdening anyone or making their day worse or from good to bad so that’s why I just stay quiet I can rant to some people they listen and mostly Bc my problems.......they are kinda hard for others to listen and ig take in at times well at least my really personal ones but I tried to see a therapist but he canceled on me and never rescheduled so that made me feel like 💩

not really but okay •-• hru?

I’ve been wait? didn’t you read my caption of my deleted post of the other drawing I posted but deleted it since I fixed it

yup Depressed and a lil bit of haha stress 😏🥳✊🏻💘

but like hey if you wanna know how I like TRULY feel listen to the song “if it is you”

요즘 나는 어떤 줄 아니....편히 잠을 잘 수도....뭘 삼켜낼 수도 없어....

did you listen to feb song already?

and just type it it should show up

and if I wanna get feisty with my emotions I play ending scene

imma assume you’re not gonna be on for the rest of the night okay goodnight

I won’t commit suicide

I mean yes okay I did think about overdosing a few days ago but that was Bc I was bawling my eyes out and I wasn’t thinking straight but once I was able to I felt very shameful for thinking so

you and Luna only know this and I was even ranting to Katie when she was there witnessing having my breakdown I just didn’t tell her that overdosing was going through my head but Luna calmed me down the next day and helped me get my mind straight together more

btw are you thinking I’m suicidal from the song? or did you read me and kaidrama’s convo?

you’re fine tbh.........I’m stubborn and the type that’s really independent so it’s hard for me to take in good advice while it’s so very easy for me to say it ig it makes me a hypocrite

i don’t like ranting to people Bc I don’t like them feeling sorry for me but then again it gives me comfort when it shows they care it helps me know that people do care about me and these thoughts I’m having are wrong

night

hai

oh •-•

tbh I’ve given up on this app I always feel like I have to compete to be the best and to show people that “hey I’m still here” I just wanna quit and call it a day but I can’t Bc I still want to talk to some of y’all

also I’m sure no one even realizes I’m on private rn that’s a sign that no one even cares about my acc or my emotions anymore 🤙🤪

I noticed~~~~

i don’t want you to feel like this anymore~~~

and yes I’ve noticed how much attention has gotten lately...

yeah but still I feel like there’s no more appreciation there was for me anymore like there was in Summer

^^ive noticed how much attention Katie has gotten***

I see

do u feel like you’re disconnecting from everyone?

you should try commenting positive things in others collages to let them know you’re there

I do that

it works 👍🏽

I also feel like the people here are not as active when you are

not many people are liking my collages lately

or posting

they seem to be leaving

idk man

Ik

but it’s okay Bc maybe since Katie is getting all the attention she might accomplish what I did in the past and connect everyone together

okay ❤️❤️

I have to go to sleep now 😴

I love you so much Emily~ good night ❤️❤️😘😘

hey rose 💗

how are you?

I know you might not get this but I just want to say hi 👋🏽

🙂

I hope you had a good day~

I love you!

hey

I love you too ❤️

how was your day? btw I want to congratulate you for 500~ you most DEFINITELY deserve to reach 500 and more Jizzle you are EXTREMELY talented you have improved sm when you first started and I first saw you~❤️

my day has been tiring~ but GREAT NOW BECAUSE I MISSED YOU SO MUCH OVER SUCH S LITTLE AMOUNT OF TIME 🤧🤧🤧❤️❤️❤️

can you download apps or no?

how was ur day??

and thank youuuuu

I WUV U MOREEE

yes I can~ but sometimes I have to ask my dad

I’ll see if I can download picsart

why?

I got picsart~~~

okay Bc we can just talk on there instead

is your user the same?

Bc mine is

I can dm you first

also....Ik this will sound selfish and just plain rude but can you not tell Katie you have PicsArt I just want to talk to you by myself for awhile

okieeee no problemo

yes my user is the same except it’s all lower case

okay I followed you

coolio

okay I also dm’d you on there