i loVE YOU JOSHY!! -pen

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i loVE YOU JOSHY!! -pen


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^ no princesss:((( talk to me when you get back on!
pennnnn
how are youuuu my baby girl 😩❤️❤️❤️
not so good ); the chemo isn't having the best side affects and I missed you
I've just been getting weak, tired, not hungry, and I throw up a lot /:
me too );
I'm so sorry ma' am....
....... Josh passed away last night
it's Jacob by the way and I'm so sorry
look I'm really sorry, and if you need to talk I'm here. I know it's hard not to deny it so
*pulls you into a hug* I know I know and I'm so sorry
*strokes your hair and lifts your chin up* I hate seeing you so sad you don't deserve this... let's go do something okay?
I'm not going to let you do that... you need to get your mind off this *puts my hand on your shoulder* we can either go to a movie or go to the bar, your choice
*pulls you into a hug trying to comfort you* just please promise me one thing when we go..
please don't get drunk.. *rubs your back*
*sighs and lifts your chin up* as much as you want to let go and get drunk, it's not going to help anything and will probably make you feel worse but if you still feel the need to get drunk, I'll be your ride
I know. *puts my arm around you walking us to the bar* just remember you choose how you feel
*walks into the bar with you* I'm really sorry about josh I'll pay for you okay
please *looks at you* you shouldn't be having to worry about anything right now *sits on a stool*
*laughs* try me *orders six shots*
sometimes the only thing that helps pain is forgetting *looks down tearing up*
*shakes my head away* it's nothing just my wife passed away a few months ago but whatever *takes a shot and groans softly feeling the tingle*
*smiles softly* let's just forget everything
*passes my shots to you* somebody has to stay sober right? or do you care...
going once going twice *looks around lazily then takes the shot*
*sighs and looks at you* you ok
*tilts my head back taking a shot and stares at the ceiling getting a little tipsy*
*puts my arm around you*
*cuddles you and whispers* should I take you to your house or mine
do you remember your address? *puts your arm around me and helps you get up*
*carries you to the car* I'm going to let you crash at my place ok *opens the door and sets you in the chair buckling you up*
of course *drives to my house and parks then comes to your side and picks you up carrying you inside to my bedroom and lies you on the bed putting blankets over you and brushes the hair out of your face smiling softly* have a good night
*waves and smiles and goes downstairs climbing onto the couch with a blanket*
*bites my lip* you're drunk *looks down* you wouldn't say that if you were sober
ok ok *smiles* I can't resist you anyway *takes off my shirt revealing my abs then crawls into bed wrapping my arms around you*
*smiles pulling you close spooning you and cuddling you*
*puts my hand under your chin tilting your face toward me* what can I do to stop the hiccups? *still cuddles you*
*pulls you closer and whispers* this feels wrong... what about josh
*takes my arms off of you* then why are we doing this
*gets up out of bed* I don't like being played with, talk to me when you're sober *goes downstairs lying on the couch sighing and whispers: for a second I thought she actually liked me*
*looks down and closes my eyes sadly*
*cant fall asleep and gets up making a pot of coffee*
*hours go by and it's finally morning and I go up to your room not even bothering to check if you're awake or not* are you sober?
first of all do you remember anything from last night and second of all do you have a hangover
*sits on the edge of the bed* I'll fix the hangover in a sec I'm just wondering... do you have any feelings toward me at all or are you just pretending I'm josh
god I know that I just want to know *shakes my head* never mind you can leave whenever I'll be gone though *walks to my car*
*turns around and runs into the house looking down embarrassed* pen I'm sorry for being an âss hole I should be your friend in your time of need... please forgive me and forget was just happened
*pulls you into a hug* sorry I'm trying really hard to be a good friend and be here for you
*strokes your hair* shhhh don't cry I'm here
*helps wipe your tears and then pulls you closer*
wanna watch a Disney movie? *rubs your back8
*smiles and picks you up carrying you to my bed and tucking you in* I set up Ariel you just have to turn the tv on I'll be getting some cookies popcorn and candy and drinks from downstairs ok
*grabs all the stuff and comes upstairs putting it on the bed in between us as I get under the covers* aw you waited thanks
lol I did it's by Bree's she's my sis
no no I am Jacob typo my sister is ashli my bio is next to hers
yep yep *smiles cuddling you* ariels my fav princess
*unpauses it and looks at you grinning* theres that beautiful smile
how about gorgeous breathtaking or amazing instead?
*pokes your cheek* somebody's blushing *smiles and lies down putting my arm around you* I'm just messing with you
*smiles*
alright ...
I miss you too
how's my bestie doing???? (;;; ~Jacob
hey remember me (: //Jacob