we push and pull like a magnet do

okay... this is a quick catch up. I have all the bad stuff that has happened in my life was all flashing back, and I kept having panic attacks and tried to commit suicide. I ate almost a 3 bottles of my mom's anger management pills and woke up in the hospital. i have been in a mental hospital for self harming and my suicide attempts. I can sometimes have my phone but i because of medications and therapy and testing to figure out what triggered the flashbacks, I can only be on pc for small amounts at a time.